"I can't keep up
With your turning tables
Under your thumb
I can't breathe"
-Adele, Turning tables.
They are back on District 12 for a few months, and Katniss isn't alright.
She walks arround her house all day and sometimes she goes to the woods, but it hurts her even more. She is too broken.
"Maybe it's because of Gale too" Peeta thought. He was afraid to ask her what she felt for him. He tried to kill her. He understand why she wants to stay away from him. But now he is totally recovered from the brainwashing made by the Capitol and he was afraid that she don't feel the same way he felt about her. He love her so much. He had already loved her before even knowing her name. Now that they were living together for a long time, his feeling had grown stronger.
Sometimes he hears her screaming in the night, maybe because of a nightmare. And he wants to be there. He wants to be with her, to be there for her. But he is afraid she would scream at him, and send him away.
One night, just like the others nights, he decides that he had the right to know about his feelings for her. How much he loves her.
He opens the door of her house and sees the fireplace burning and it reminds him of the 74th Huger Games. His interview with Caesar...
"Because she came with me"
And it felt even more right to do it now. He enter the house and sees her in front of the fireplace with a blanket around her. He tries to approach the fireplace siently, but she quickly turns her swollen eyes to him.
"Hi" he says softly.
"Hey" she says and turn her body to the fireplace.
"Are you mad at me or something?" he asks sitting by her side.
"No, imagine that. Why would I bem ad at you? It's not like you didn't try to hang me at all." She says loud. "Look Peeta this has been so hard for me" she says with tears on her eyes.
"Calm down, I'm here for you" he says embracing her.
She starts to cry.
"Sorry" he says "I know. It has been very difficult for both of us." He says hugging her.
"Why so many people had to die? I can't stop thing about Prim...Why Prim?" She cryes even louder " I should have died, instead of her."
When he hears it he put his thumb on her lips.
"You don't even tr to say it. You gave all those people, from all districts, freedom. Hope. You are a hero, our Mockingjay, and you if you were dead, people wouldn't have achieved so many things." He say looking inside her eyes.
"What? A hero?" she says pushing away from him. "Thousands of people died because of me. Because of this foolish revolution... innocent children, old people, people who had nothing to do with it. I'm responsible for their deaths." she says sobbing.
" I know. It doesn't matter what I say. It won't change your mind." he says looking inside her eyes.
He grabs her hand and leads her to her bedroom. He lays in bed with her for a moment.
When he gets up to leave, he hears her horse voice "Stay with me, please."
He doesn't hesitate. He lays with her and embrace her. He doesn't say a word until she stops crying. He gets his mouth near her ear and whisper:
"You love me, real or not real?"
She turns her face to him "Real."
