Masquerade Of A Clown

by Complete Synch

He's always played the role of the clown, acting the part to perfection, there's never been a moment of doubt from anyone but himself.

It's always been so easy to plaster a smile on and speak with false bravado. To simply grin, hiding the turmoil lurking beneath the surface.

To distract others from seeing behind his veil with witty jokes and dry sarcasm.

He'll show them humility by poking fun at his own expense, to give a false sense of self confidence.

It's the perfect ruse. He deceives everyone, sometimes even himself. However, there's a split second of indecision, when he can't tell if it's real or not, but he's pushed back into reality just as quick.

It's in that split second, when reality comes crashing down, when he comes close to cracking, he'll stumble or blurt out something just to divert their attention long enough to pull himself back together, to regain his composure.

It's a second skin he pulls on, moulding over the first, filling the cracks and reshaping the imperfections.

It's so easy to slip into, just to forget his worries, to be someone else.

It's his shield defending against the cruelty the Gods have granted him, his way of deflecting those uncomfortable questions that regard unknown emotions.

This pretence he's struggling to maintain is simply to hide the fact that he is scared, that deep inside he wants to cry, because the truth is he was written off from the beginning.


Yes, I know I promised a Thalia or Nico fic but *shrugs* this just came to me and well I haven't posted anything in a week or two so I was compelled to post this drabble.

This idea came from the fact that Percy seemed to take his "death" very well, but I think it was all an act and that he was seething and terrified inside.

Don't worry they are typed up but not edited yet and it is the school holidays, so I will have two weeks to plague with as much angst and tragedy as possible :) If my Criminal Minds marathon doesn't get in the way, six seasons, 14 days. Also if your a Transformers fan or even if your not go check out Transformers 3, action is brilliant!

Round of applause for xxxxEPICxxxx, apophenia13, HappyAce88, Abigail Thalia La Rue, The Wisdom of Me, meeeethegr8, IFoundAPickle, planes oceans and symphonies, Purpleblob and SeaChick for taking the time to review, fav or add me or my stories.

I also have a question for those who have read my other stories would you prefer more one-shots, free-verses or drabbles? You can particpate in my poll or just tell me in your review.

I haven't listed a multi-chapter story as this requires persistence and the abililty to stick to a storyline, both of which I'm not very good at. I would probably never update and post random one-shots so don't expect an actual story from me.

~Synch~

P.S Is it bad that the A/N is as long as the story O.o