'Till I see you once more
A/N Thanks for all the reviews! Did I mention how much I love you guys? Cause I do! This is basically Severus after he called Lily mudblood (shudder) and before she died
Seventh year:
Severus watched as he, James Potter, held her, Lily Evans, hand. The love of his life, promised to marry his worst enemy. How much torture does he have to go through? The word...the word...why did he say it? It was now the worst memory of his life. So much regret followed, so much sadness enveloped his heart and anger at himself consumed his soul. The last day of Hogwarts, he didn't say goodbye. He just watched as he walked away from Platform 9 and ¾ , her introducing her parents and her sister to James.
"Till I see you once more" he said sadly.
Two years after graduation:
It was all over the news. Lily Evans was marrying James Potter. The wedding would be held at the Potters place. Lily issued an invitation to Severus , but he didn't reply. How? How could she think he could watch her go down the aisle, marrying James Potter? She knew he hated Potter, but how? He didn't reply, but on the day of the wedding, he watched from the shadows of the marquee. He watched her, beautiful as always, go down the aisle. He pictured what would've happened if he hadn't said that one word. That one word...Would he be the one waiting down the aisle? Would he have been holding her hand and saying he'd never leave her? He'd never leave her side, and he would always love her...basically pledge his love for her, forever, to thousands, millions of muggles or wizards, pureblood or muggleborn, death eater or order? It didn't matter to him. He loved her. He didn't care what others thought. As they sealed their love with a kiss, Severus spun on the spot, thinking:
"Till I see you once more"
4 years after graduation:
Severus cried tears, of sadness. In his room, alone. The Daily Prophet lay in front of him. Lily and Potter have had their first child. They have named him Harry James Potter. Why? If Severus hadn't said that one word, him and Lily would have been together. They would have had a daughter or son together. She'd be smiling up at him, as they held their first miracle. He cast incendio and the paper lit on fire. He watched his face burn and saved what was left of the paper. Only Lily's face shone, holding a smiling bundle. Potter's face was burned away completely. Severus held the paper close, as if it was Lily's life and he'd protect it as long as he had a breath. Which was true. He'd do anything, to protect her.
5 years after graduation:
The Dark Lord had disappeared. The whole wizarding world rejoiced, but also mourned. Because two great magical beings has left. Lily and James Potter. Severus blacked out when he first heard the news. He didn't protect her. He didn't keep her safe. Pettigrew had told the Dark Lord. Severus went to an open field and screamed. She was gone. Let the hopes past and dreams pass. Let them die. Without her what are they for? He doesn't feel real anymore. He wanted to die along with her. Then he'd be whole again. He dreams of her being there, but wakes up to empty air. He fell on the ground, tears blurring everything. He wondered if they would ever stop. Soon? Or Until he sees her once more?
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