Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi, or Here Standing by The Saturdays.
Author's Note: I woke up with this song in my head, and when I listened to it I realized it was a perfect Eclare song. This is my first Eclare story, so I hope you guys like it :)
I've waited a lifetime to feel the way that I feel now
But I never imagined, feels like walking on the clouds
You're the reason I'm here
I'm not moving
I'm not leaving
Can't believe that you're the reason that I'm standing right here
I'm not moving
Finally breathing
Can't you see you're the reason that I'm standing right here
Clare. Just her name makes me feel like I've taken a deep breath of fresh air after being underwater for way too long. I've never felt this way, not even with Julia. Sure, I cared about Julia, but now I don't even think it came anywhere close to what I feel for Clare. She makes me want to be better and do better. Half of the things I do with and for her, I would never have even thought of doing before I met her. But that's just what Clare does to me...
You drained me of sadness and filled me back up with love
No room left for the madness that once my world was made up of
You're the reason I'm here
I'm not moving
I'm not leaving
Can't believe you're the reason that I'm standing right here
I'm not moving
Finally breathing
Can't you see you're the reason that I'm standing right here
When Julia died, I was a wreck. I never thought that my life would be even a fraction of what it was before. I thought I would forever feel like my heart was going through a wood chipper and that there was a veil of sadness always upon me. I even felt that the brief bouts of insanity would be something to randomly pop up for the rest of my days. I hardly remember half the things I would do when this insanity and madness took over, but I'm incredibly glad that I don't have to suffer through it anymore.. And it's all because of Clare. She saved me from myself, and she doesn't even know it.
Standing up for what I believe
The reason I'm here
Being the best that you help me be
I promise that I will not let you down
After all,
You're the reason that I'm here standing
Oh
Yeah
Clare is my soul mate. I've never believed anything more than I believe that, but there are some people that don't see things that way. Her parents, for one, can't stand me, and most of the people at school couldn't believe that Clare was dating me, The Crazy One. But I've set them straight. I told her parents that we are meant to be together, soul mates, and that they should see that more than anybody since that's one of the things they keep claiming that God does. They haven't really said anything against me since then. And when I heard the kids at school whispering, once again, wondering how Clare can stand to talk to me, I simply told them that she got to know the real me, which is one step above anything they've ever done. I don't get into physical fights anymore, since I promised Clare I wouldn't, but I do still get in fights. Only this time I'm getting in fights about something more important than anything else.. Our love. I've promised Clare a lot of things, and I've never broken any of my promises to her, because I never want to let her down. Ever.
You're the reason I'm here
I'm not moving
I'm not leaving
Can't believe you're the reason that I'm standing right here
I'm not moving
Finally breathing
Can't you see you're the reason that I'm standing
You're the reason I'm here
I'm not moving
I'm not leaving
Can't believe you're the reason that I'm standing right here
I'm not moving
Finally breathing
Can't you see you're the reason that I'm standing right here
You may be wondering why I'm telling you all this. Well, today is Clare and I's two year anniversary. I plan to tell her everything that I've told you, and when I get down on one knee and ask 'Will you marry me?" I hope she says yes. After all, she is the reason that I'm even still standing here today.
