Don't even ask how I conjured this one. It's actually very strange making this in first person and to make the person be a guy. Since I'm a girl, I tried thinking the way a guy would think. Plus, I had to think about the character himself, what would he say? But anyhow, it's something to think about. And I'm proud of it. *Grins*. So please R & R my friends.

BTW: There is an additional ending, one that I don't recommend you to read if you like this ending. Stupid me. Also, I already had this up but decided to delete it and post it again. Enjoy!

Insane

By Katie Louden

She was crazy. I can't believe it. It's weird. You truly think you know someone. I loved her. I think… Yes, I did. The doctors still don't know what happened. They said that she was really stressed. After her mom died she died with her, her body at least. The doctors said she made up her own world inside of her head and excluded everything she had trouble with. I wonder if I'm in there with her, in her head. That night was just like any other night…

We were walking in complete silence. Jade's mother had died a few weeks ago and the funeral had been a few days later. "Race," Jade said to me, breaking our silence, "what do you think of marriage?"…

That's what you get when you're in silence. I shouldn't have given her the time to think about anything…

"Well, uh, marriage is…"

She had cut me off, saying, "Would you ever marry me?"

I knew it was coming. "Sure."…

So I saved myself from that part at least…

"Why don't we get married?"

I thought for a minute. "I donno."…

Damn. Girls hate silence. I knew I was screwed…

"Oh." We finished our walk in silence…

I had made it through my thought. I thought without her getting deeply angry. It's amazing that it was that same night she went crazy. She seemed completely… herself…

We did what we usually did when we said our good-byes; we started making out. It was just the usual routine. Jade would say bye. I would say bye. She would kiss me. And we'd end up making out. I liked it. People would walk bye and I'd raise my eyebrows at them. Jade would laugh. But this make-out session was different. She broke our lip-lock…

"Race, would you want to marry me for real?"

"Didn't you already ask me dat?" I was angry. This was our make-out time.

"I don't member."

I went back to kissing her and she pulled away again. "Race, do you love me?"

I thought for a bit. "Yeah."…

Damn. Again. Girls hate silence. They want their answers right away. And I knew she was getting angry…

"Were you thinking of saying no? I don't want to be in a relationship where the guy says he loves me but just likes making out. It's not right."…

Not right…

She went on, "I want to love someone and have him love me back."

"I do love ya."…

I don't think I meant it at the time…

"No."

I pulled her close, pushing a few strands of her hair behind her ear. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love."…

I even added ONE extra…

"I LOVE you."

She had even shaken her head at that. "No, you don't."

"How many times do I gotta say it 'fore you belie' me?"

She had shrugged…

It's impossible to please girls. I just… wow…

She turned away…

I tried making eye contact with her but she seemed to be looking at something. Her eyebrows were scrunched. She was definitely looking at something. I knew what to say…

"What'cha lookin' at?"

"It's… it's my Mother."…

I wanted to laugh but knew it wouldn't be right…

I rolled my eyes, glad that she couldn't see me. "Honey, der ain't nobody ova' der."…

I knew she saw something when she pulled herself from me. I grabbed her arm, looking straight in the direction she was looking. There was nothing. Not even a wind blowing at the different signs hanging from shop windows or doors. No one was walking, leaving shadows behind. She kept pulling and I blurted, "Ay, ya Mudda' is dead."…

I want to pinch myself for saying that. It was weird though. She gazed into my eyes. It looked as if it was the first time someone had said that her Mother was dead. I mean, at the funeral they probably said "dead" or something, but the hell with that, I didn't listen. I don't think she did either. Sometimes I wish I knew she would go crazy that night. Maybe I wouldn't have said it…

"She… she is." She stated this, forcing herself to realize that it was true…

Then she said something I didn't think I'd ever hear her say…

"I hurt everyone."…

Was she serious? I mean, she sure isn't mean to me…

"What do ya mean?"

"I never talked to my Mother. I never told her I loved her. I never said anything. And then she died."

I had given her a hug, kissing her cheek when we pulled apart. "You don't hurt nobody."

She had shaken her head…

And that was that. We were quiet again. Then she fell against the wall and onto the ground. I realized it. She wasn't blinking. I took her to a doctor. And you know the rest…

"A world'a her own?" I asked the doctor.

He had nodded, shining a light in her eyes. "She's living where she wants. Once it begins to crumble, she may crumble too."…

My heart had sunk that night. I had loved her. Now she was gone. I hurt everybody.

It makes you wonder, who was the crazy one?

OK… AGAIN… if you really liked the ending of this, or thought it was cool, or anything, I DO NOT recommend you to read the second chapter! Sounds retarded but you'll know why! Lol!