-1Dear Shannon,
As I sit here writing this letter, I cannot help but to think of the look on your beautiful face when you read this. You may want to cry, you may want to scream, and you may want to shrug your shoulders in disregard but I have to get this off my chest, once and for all.
The five years that we were together have been the happiest of my life; you were my pretty piece of flesh, until my mind turned me against you. The love I once had for you just seemed to disappear, as if it never existed. There were days that I hated you, days that I wished that you just go away and never would come back. Just the sight of your cherub face was enough to make my stomach churn violently.
I never meant to hurt you, honestly I didn't. However, the hatred I had was worse than any that I have felt before. The names I called you, I never meant and I hope you know that. All the times I yelled at you, spat at you, disrespected you- I also never meant. And if I could turn back time, I would stop myself from doing any of those horrible things to you. I swear I would if I only could.
God knows I needed help Shannon.
But why did you stay? After everything I put you through,why did you stay?
I don't think I'll ever be able to love again, in fear of what may happen again. Ian Curtis was famous for singing "Love will tear us apart" and he was right.
Love did tear us apart.
I'm sorry Shannon, I really am. I never meant to hurt you and I had no intentions in making you cry.
In my nothing you were my everything.
Love always,
Jeff Hardy
