you go on with your

s-e-c-l-u-e-d

m-o-n-o-t-o-n-o-u-s

life

& tell yourself

he's not coming back

he

can't

come back

but your days and nights are

h/a/u/n/t/e/d

by the memory

of his impish laugh

his brazen wit

his clever way with his hands

he made you

s-m-i-l-e

like you hadn't in so long

& that kiss

{it didn't happen}

[oh but it did]

{and how you wish for another}

his fire

burns in your dreams

& you wake up

blushing

your common sense

tells you one thing

{don't waste your time wishing}

[you're a fool to hope]

{it was an empty promise}

& your

heart

tells you another

{he said a full promise}

[it's possible]

{you never met a boy like him before}

if anyone could do it

he could

you can't d-e-n-y it

* sunshine *

you

hope

with all your heart

that he will

come back for you

& s-o-m-e-h-o-w

you

believe

it

so you

sing

digging your hands into the moist soil

thinking about the

o-u-t-s-i-d-e ~ w-o-r-l-d

& a garage with cider

you weave yourself

blue jeans & white shirts

it's good to have a

c/h/a/n/g/e

& you look at everything

d-i-f-f-e-r-e-n-t-l-y

because there just

MIGHT

be a day

where you

will leave this place

so

even though

you have

bad experiences

with

p-r-o-m-i-s-e-s

you

sing

with a light in your eyes

& a giddy

hopeful

n-e-r-v-o-u-s

expectation

that the

brilliant fire boy

just might

keep

his

promise