you go on with your
s-e-c-l-u-e-d
m-o-n-o-t-o-n-o-u-s
life
& tell yourself
he's not coming back
he
can't
come back
but your days and nights are
h/a/u/n/t/e/d
by the memory
of his impish laugh
his brazen wit
his clever way with his hands
he made you
s-m-i-l-e
like you hadn't in so long
& that kiss
{it didn't happen}
[oh but it did]
{and how you wish for another}
his fire
burns in your dreams
& you wake up
blushing
your common sense
tells you one thing
{don't waste your time wishing}
[you're a fool to hope]
{it was an empty promise}
& your
heart
tells you another
{he said a full promise}
[it's possible]
{you never met a boy like him before}
if anyone could do it
he could
you can't d-e-n-y it
* sunshine *
you
hope
with all your heart
that he will
come back for you
& s-o-m-e-h-o-w
you
believe
it
so you
sing
digging your hands into the moist soil
thinking about the
o-u-t-s-i-d-e ~ w-o-r-l-d
& a garage with cider
you weave yourself
blue jeans & white shirts
it's good to have a
c/h/a/n/g/e
& you look at everything
d-i-f-f-e-r-e-n-t-l-y
because there just
MIGHT
be a day
where you
will leave this place
so
even though
you have
bad experiences
with
p-r-o-m-i-s-e-s
you
sing
with a light in your eyes
& a giddy
hopeful
n-e-r-v-o-u-s
expectation
that the
brilliant fire boy
just might
keep
his
promise
