Disclaimer: I obviously don't own D. Gray-Man. Just Sae, my OC.
Since the responses to my two oneshots Little Things and It's Just Enough (both featuring my OC Sae and Kanda) were really good, I decided to write a long story – instead of oneshots again – with Sae and her story in D. Gray-Man's universe.
Please read the notes bellow and at the bottom of the chapter.
- I must say that Sae will probably be a little different than she was in my one-shots and this story will be mainly in her POV. You are warned ;)
- HUGE thanks to all of the people that reviewed my two one-shots and encouraged me to write a longer story, thank you very very much! Obrigado! =)
- A special thanks to SpidersBlood for her support and Tzedek for the inspiration I got from her wonderful story 'So Troublesome' (Go read it!). Thank you to both =)
- This story is about Sae, so the first chapters are mostly about her, like an introduction so you can get to know her and understand stuff about her. The romance will be there…some way or another. It probably won't be the most romantic story ever but that's because of my lack of ability to write things that contain too much fluff, I really can't…and seriously, why fluff if it's Kanda that we're talking about here? It's kind of incompatible. Still there will be romance, a soft, light and very profound one. That's my opinion and that's what I'm working on, so I truly hope that my story can transmit that feeling =D Let me know what you think when it's over! (and while it goes too XD)
- Important Note – As I've said in my profile, this chapter is like a preview of the story. Until I update the second and the rest of the chapters of this fan fiction will pass a lot of time, it could be months. The reason is simple, right now I don't have the time and when I'll have the time to work on this, it will be 'for once and for all' and I'll finish it for good. So please be patient with me and wait =) I'm very sorry for this. Any questions, just ask.
I apologize in advance for any mistakes and any English spelling errors, not my language, sorry!!
And enjoy!
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1st Chapter
Sleepy-Something
"Damnit! I'm late!"
'Stupid Komui wanting me to go on a mission again TODAY! So frustrating!'
I was seriously pissed. In a really, really bad mood.
That's what happens when SOMEONE – insert K-O-M-U-I here – wants me to go on a mission when I just got from another one and slept almost NOTHING! It's not healthy damnit! Does he want me to die or something?
I need to sleep! Or I'll be in a really bad mood like RIGHT NOW!
Right. Breathe. In. Out. C'mon. Over again.
I tried to calm down while making my way through the big empty corridors and many stairs of H.Q. walking fast to Komui's office to get the info on this mission.
When I reached the entrance of Komui's office my sleepiness had almost overcame my bad mood.
Damn, I was tired.
Now I was in to a fight to keep my eyes open and brain working. This would only stop when I finally slept everything I needed or if it was truly, I mean truly necessary. And even if I was sleepy, there was a risk that I occasionally snapped at someone without really meaning it.
Don't get me wrong.
I don't read my own future in my hands or anything creepy like that, I just know from experience...which, if I think about it, it's...stupid, really. Knowing what happens when you're dead tired from experience...sad.
Well...it's Komui's fault!
Why?
'Cause right now I'm pissed at him.
But never mind because at this very second what I am is truly sleepy. I can't even formulate evil plans of revenge.
Sigh.
There were voices inside Komui's office but I stepped in anyway. If he didn't want me here he wouldn't have called right? So what was the point in waiting outside?
I managed a sleepy glare to the usual mess that was Komui's office.
I looked at the people in the office.
Lenalee, Komui, Reever, Kanda and... some guy with white hair? Ah! The new kid that Kanda mentioned earlier when I bumped into him after I came back from my mission.
Beansprout, Kanda had called him. Well, to be exact, Kanda said something like Moyashi, but since I understand close to nothing of Japanese, I had to ask for an English translation of the name and, I've still got no idea how, Kanda in an unseen moment of pure kindness, said it to me. Notice the sarcasm please.
I took some steps into the room and Reever spotted me.
"Ah! Sae, you're here."
"Yeah, yeah" I waved tiredly.
The others looked at me noticing my presence.
I stared at them sleepily.
"You look a little pale Sae" Komui remarked looking at my face.
I threw him the best sleepy-sour-look I could.
"I came back 6 hours ago and slept like 4hours. Do you expect me to look full of life?" I asked sarcastically.
Komui threw his arms in the air in a dramatic fashion. "Oh noooo! Are you angry at meeee?" He asked in a voice full of despair.
I swear this guy is a 4 year old kid. It's the only explanation for the stupid dramatic reactions.
I gave him a bored stare. And proceeded to yawn with my hand in front of my mouth. Good manners are always good, okay?
"No, I'm sleepy at you"
I got blank stares as answers, so I sighed and made my way to the sofa sitting in between Kanda and the Beansprout guy.
People – besides Lavi, but he's not truly a person, is he? – can't understand my sleepy-humour so I just let it go. No use for disappointment over this.
The new guy was looking at me curiously.
Lenalee stepped in, smiling "Sae, this is the new recruit. I don't know if you have met him already."
I looked at him sleepily and muttered "Beansprout"
"Eh?" The new guy asked with wide confused eyes. At my left side I heard Kanda smirking. The white haired guy eyed him suspiciously.
Despite the white hair, he was young, very young actually. He had grey eyes and a weird mark on the right side of his face crossing his eye. His right hand was rather strange...big with a weird colour...parasite-type innocence maybe?
He seemed a little lost but it's only normal since he's new here and he's just a kid.
I extended my hand and gave him a small smile "Call me Sae"
He gave a slightly nervous smile and shook my hand with his. "Allen Walker".
I nodded at him.
"Okay then!" Komui clapped his hands together happily, demanding our attention. His face turned serious. "Sae, you are to go with Kanda and Allen to Italy, but you'll continue the travel a bit and go to the South West of Italy."
Lenalee gave me the book thing with the detailed info as Komui spoke. I mouthed a 'thanks' to her, not wanting to interrupt. She smiled back.
"Am I going to do this mission alone?" I asked after taking a peek at the info.
"No, Lavi will be waiting for you at your stop"
"Hm, okay" I said looking at the book in my hands going through the most important details of my mission.
"Read the files and you'll know everything you need" Komui added even though he knew that I was already reading some of the info. "Understood, all of you?" He asked the three of us.
We nodded.
"Okay, then meet me in the Underground Water Path in 20 minutes."
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After going to my room to get my exorcist's coat and putting my innocence attached to my belt, I went to the Underground Water Path.
Note that my exorcist's uniform is not like Lenalee's. No idea how she can wear things that short... Mine is like female version of Kanda's uniform, with all the more feminine cut and stuff. The coat is a little bit shorter though – it goes only a little past my knees.
It's coooool! I even hugged Johnny in my happiness, when he gave it to me. He blushed so much. Tapp and I had a laugh at his account. It was fun.
But returning to the present, I spotted Komui and Reever when I went near the boat, standing there to see us off. I patted them both on their backs at the same time. "See you later" I said with a smile, walking past them to the boat. "Later" They said at the same time.
Kanda and Toma, the finder, were already in there. Allen was buttoning his exorcist's coat.
I sat there waiting until Allen got on the boat and with my elbows on my knees and hands cradling my head, I closed my eyes trying to turn off the world and get a little rest.
The minutes passed on the boat were silent. Thank God for that. I'm not in the mood to be alive... Yeah...you heard me. Sleepy-humour again. I make up the weirdest sleepy-somethings ever. Blame Komui s'il vous plaît.
But then the worst part arrived. The part when we have to jump on the moving train. I mean...it's awesome...If you're not half asleep. Damn, I need to wake up for some moments, hopefully I can keep up.
Allen was a little nervous. "Please hurry, the train has come!" Toma said to us. Allen almost shrieked "Whaaat? We're going on that?!"
I ran behind Kanda and at the moment we jumped I grabbed his coat's sleeve. Just to be safe. I was too tired and jumping around like I was, was a dangerous thing to do.
Kanda glanced at me but didn't said anything nor shook me off. I was grateful for that. I'm not really sure Kanda would have liked to be used as a lifeguard or something, but if I'm not dead yet, it's a good sign.
When we were landing on the moving train I let go of Kanda's sleeve and managed to land safely. Uff, good.
The Allen guy sweatdropped. "Illegally boarding the train..."
"We've always done it this way" I replied with a little smile. He managed himself pretty well though.
Toma opened that opening – no idea what it's called – on the top of the train and went down to the cabin underneath. Next were Kanda and Allen.
When I got to the hole/opening (let's call it that) I felt a little dizzy.
Ugh. Great. Just what I needed. To be freaking dizzy for lack of sleep and rest.
I closed my eyes for some moments and started to come down the train's hole/opening.
Allen was looking up at me nervously "Do you need help?"
"No, thanks." I replied. I noticed Kanda looking at me from the corner of his eye.
I let myself fall and landed perfectly on my feet.
Good.
Did I mention that I needed to SLEEP?
I guess I did...Sooo sorry about that!
Yeah. Right.
Now I'm snapping at no one... But I need to sleeeeep...
Okay, that aside, Toma was talking to a guy from the train.
"We're exorcists from the Black Order, please get a room ready."
"The Black...?!" The guy started, but noticing the cross on Kanda's coat, he immediately bowed "Y-yes sir!"
While Allen was asking something to Toma, I felt Kanda's eyes on me. I looked at him with a sleepy stare. Now that the hard part had come and gone, my sleepiness was getting back in full force.
"What?"
He looked at my face for some moments before replying. "You're tired."
I looked at him blankly "No kidding." I said with a bored tone and sighed.
I wasn't in the mood to be easygoing as I usually am, but I knew he understood that. Kanda isn't stupid or anything close to that.
"C'mon" I said to Kanda and the others, following the guy from the train to our cabin.
When we reached it, Kanda opened the door and went to sit on the comfy...hum, what should I call them? Comfy chairs? Comfy benches? Well...I'll call them comfy sofas. They are so comfy that they can pass as a sofa everywhere.
Anyway, Kanda sat next to the window and I sat next to him. Allen sat on the sofa opposite of Kanda and Toma stayed outside.
I made myself comfortable on the comfy sofa, crossed my arms as if I was embracing myself somewhat and leaned on Kanda's shoulder closing my eyes.
A suicidal little move on my part, I know, but to hell with the caution! I'm too tired to think straight.
I felt Kanda stiffen a little and he muttered dangerously "What are you doing?"
I opened one eye to look at him and answered "I'm going to sleep. Wake me up before you leave the train" And closed my eye again relaxing against him.
I felt Kanda's death glare but he didn't pushed me off.
"Che"
I chuckled. I wasn't murdered by Kanda today and I got my way with him on this, it's like a miracle 2 in 1.
I opened my eyes again just to look at the reactions. Well, Allen was looking at me with wide eyes (I grinned at him) and Kanda was ignoring me now. Which I didn't mind as long as I could still sleep on him.
Allen's golem went to rest on top of his head. Maybe it was his little throne? Ehehe
He's called Tincampi but he looked nothing like the golems I've ever seen. He looks like has a mind of his own and likes to fly around, I think he's cute.
I closed my eyes and listened to the conversation for a little while – great bonding time between Allen and Kanda there. Pff. But Allen, although a little uninformed about a lot of things seemed like a decent guy.
I dozed off eventually thinking that life was great now that I could finally sleep.
I was tired damnit.
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I woke up feeling my shoulders being shaken.
I have no idea how much time I slept but I knew that it wasn't enough!
So I buried my head more into the warmth that was by my side and hoped that whatever was trying to wake me went away.
No such luck.
"Hey! Wake up now!" Was the dangerous growl of Kanda right next to my head.
Hmm. Right. Train. Travel. Wake me up before you leave. Kanda's shoulder...shit.
Wake up now!
I snapped my eyes open and automatically sat straight.
The cabin was empty, only I and Kanda were there. The later glaring at me.
"Where are Allen and Toma?" I asked, ignoring the look he was giving me.
"They left while I was trying to wake you." He glared pointedly at me.
I laughed nervously. "Yeah...sorry about that...and thanks for your shoulder but hey, what are you still doing here? Get going!" I finished narrowing my eyes at him.
He narrowed his eyes back at me.
Oh, the empathy. Can't you just feel it between us?
It's there, in the narrowed eyes.
"Bye then" He got up and went to the exit.
"Good luck" I said while he was opening the door, and when he was almost closing it I called "Hey, Kanda?"
He stopped and looked back at me.
"Stay safe" I said with a small smile.
He nodded and the moment before he closed the door I hear him mutter "You too".
I smiled openly at this, even if I was alone in the cabin now.
But I felt something twisting in my gut that I always experienced when any of my comrades...no, when any of my friends went on a mission.
Preoccupation. Nervousness. Fear. Terrified at what can happen.
But I'm not the kid that I used to be and I have responsibilities, to my superiors, to my comrades, to my friends, to the people who are out there being threatened by the Earl, and to the world. So I do my best not to be bothered by those feelings of fear. I kill them, smother them, and put them someplace of my head where it won't bother my work. I know it will never go away, they are my friends and I'll never cease to worry about them, but right now those feelings are of no use.
They'll get in the way.
And at the same time it's my sanity that's in stake too.
So now, I moved to sit where Kanda was sitting because it's really warm and relax once again on the sofa.
Since I'm by myself, I won't sleep. The travel shouldn't be long now, I'll soon reach my destiny.
I leaned my head on the window and watched the fast moving landscape absently.
I'm glad that I slept a bit, I'm better now, even if I'm still not at my best.
Time to regain a little of my good mood. I would need it with Lavi.
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Whoa! First chapter out!
I hope you enjoyed this and please let me know what you think! :D
S'il vous plait – please (in French)
I have to say that when I was writing « Wake me up before you leave the train » the only thing that crossed my mind and made me have to stop before writing it was " Wake me up before you go-go". I swear! I was almost having an argument with myself because I was all 'wake me up before you GO-GO'and then 'Nooooo! It's not that!'... It was a big struggle as you can imagine...*sigh* XD
So that's it for today. Review! I'll reply ;) And keep reading, Sae has still many things to be discovered by you! ^^
I'll see you in some months =)
Over and out,
lado-lunar
