Sara Sidle sat on the edge of her bet on the verge of tears. She had been dating Gil Grissom for about a year and a half now and all they actually had to show for their relationship was that her stuff was at his house. It seemed that they didn't even have a connection anymore, not that there was much to begin with but she had thought that if they tried a bit, they're 'thing' would flourish into that relationship she had always wanted with him. But, alas, Grissom has continued to be engrossed in his work and usually didn't even remember that he had a girlfriend that always wanted to be more.
Lately
nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back
would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we
exchange
But I can't watch you walk away
She
has spent the last week preparing for this night, their one year
anniversary but at this moment, that didn't matter. Grissom had
completely forgotten that today was such an important day for them
and had when straight to bed after 'a really hard day at work'.
She had shed one tear before walls went up again and she tossed all
the food she'd spent weeks learning how to cook from her fellow CSI
and best friend Nick into the trash before heading to the bathroom to
take a shower before bed.Can I forget about the way
it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've
been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I
let you walk away?
She
had gotten into bed next to Grissom and in his half asleep mode, had
slipped an arm around her waist, kissed her neck and whispered
"g'night". How could he forget, did he even care about her?
No, I can't learn to live without Oh, I know I could say were through
And I can't
give up on us now
And
tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise
not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail
cause I, I just can't live a lie
Grissom
arm stayed protectively around her waist most of the time when they
slept in the same bed which to Sara seemed like a sign that he did
acknowledge the fact she was there, even if it was only
subconsciously.Could I forget the look that tells
me that you want me? No, I can't learn to live without
And all the reasons that make loving you so
easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way
you know just what I mean
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now
Sure,
the past few months had been hard to deal with. She never saw Grissom
outside of work unless they were driving home together which never
happened because Grissom himself had moved her to days so their
'relationship' would not get in the way of their work. Like it
ever could, thought Sara. But she couldn't stop thinking about him,
ever. And bad thoughts about him may cross her mind at times but they
never stayed for long.Ohh, I know I could say were
through Ohh,
and I don't wanna try
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a
vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth
inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie
She
had thought about breaking it off with him a couple of times and
tonight, that though wouldn't leave her head but she couldn't get
her body to move. To pack. To leave. She couldn't forget that this
was the Grissom she had chased after for years. Since graduate school
at Berkeley she'd had a thing for Grissom but it had taken a gun in
her face as well was Nick getting kidnapped to show her that life was
too short to keep her feelings about Grissom a secret.Ohhhh,
I know I could say were through I just can't live a lie
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And
try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't
live a lie
She
climbed back into bed and felt his protective arm move back into
place as she drifted into sleep. No, she wouldn't be able to sleep
without him there, she had spent to long going after time to give up
on them now. She just knew she couldn't live without him no matter
how hard she tired. She would have teach him what a real relationship
is supposed to be like, she could make him her next project but she
couldn't give up on them because then she'd have to live a
lie.But even if I made a vow Oh, I cant live a lie
I promise not to
miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I fail cause I,
I just can't live a lie
Oh, I cant live a lie.
Hey,
thanks mucho for reading! The song is I Just Can't Live a Lie by
Carrie Underwood, I love this song! I like most of her songs
actually.
