Forgive And Forget

Prologue

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

PROLOGUE

L.A. Jail: One year earlier

As Faith drifts off to sleep, she is awakened by a strange emptiness, like a part of her had died, as she caught the sun rising, blood red into the morning sunrise. Faith shuddered as it became more and more obvious that a part of her had died, disappeared for life, no more whole, no more me. Another Shudder went through the dark slayer. At the thought of not being whole again.

"To be part of her life, again." She voiced out loud. The thought of hurting her again, never again. After swapping bodies, I realized what I had said to Mrs. S:

Flash Back

Faith: "Buffy Summers, Buffy Summers, Buffy Summers, Buffy, Buffy…A lot of letters.

She ah…hasn't been by in a while, huh?

And you'd think, with a crazy chick like me on the loose …

a crazy chick with a wicked grudge against her no less, she'd call and give you the heads-up.

But Buffy's to into her own deal to remember dear old mom."

Joyce: "You don't know the first thing about Buffy. Or me."

Faith: "Don't I? I know what it's like.

You think you matter, you think you're apart of something, and you get dumped.

And it's like the whole world is moving, but you're stuck.

Like those animals in the tarpits.

It's like you just keep sinking a little deeper everyday, and nobody even sees."

Joyce: "Were you planning to slit my throat any time soon?"

Faith: "Don't tell me you don't see it, Joyce. You've served your purpose.

You squirted out the kid, raised her up, and now you might as well be dead!

I mean nobody cares! Nobody remembers! Especially not Buffy, fabulous superhero.

Sooner or later, you're gonna have to face it. She was over us a long time ago, Joyce.

Too busy climbing onto her new boy toy to give a single thought to the people that matter!

I mean you're her mother, and she just leaves you here to die!"

End Flash Back

And just before that, I saw her at UC Sunnydale, pushing her further and further away.

Flash Back

Willow: "At least you're not alone on this. I'll bet ever cop in Sunnydale is out there looking for her right now."

Buffy: "Pressure is definitely high. I'll tell you, if I were her, I'd get out of Dodge posthastey."

Faith: "You're not me.

So, check you out, B.

Nice. The big-girl-on-campus thing's really working for you."

Buffy: "I've been looking for you."

Faith: "I've been standing still for eight months ,B.

How hard you look?"

Buffy: "Are you alright?"

Faith: "Five by five.

That's the thing about a coma. You wake up rested and rejuvenated…

and ready for payback."

Buffy: "So much for pleasantries, huh?"

Faith: "What did you think? I'd wake up and we'd go for tea?

You tried to gut me, Blondie."

Buffy: You'd have done the same to me if you'd had the chance."

Faith: "So lets have another go at it. See who lands on top."

Buffy: "It doesn't have to be like this, you know."

Faith: "Actually, I think it has to be exactly like this."

Buffy: "Faith, these are innocent people."

Faith: "No such animal."

Buffy: "I guess it was too much to hope that you'd use your downtime to reflect and grow."

Faith: "Could say the same about you. I mean you're still the same old 'Better than thou' Buffy.

I mean I knew it somehow . I kept having this dream, I'm not sure what it means.

But in the dream the self-righteous blonde chick stabs me. And you wanna know why?"

Buffy: "You had it coming."

Faith: "That's one interpretation. But in my dream, she does it for a guy.

Try it Red, and you lose an arm!

I wake up to find that this blonde chick isn't even dating the guy she was so nuts about before.

I mean she's moved on to the first college beefstick she meets.

Not only has she forgotten about the love of her life,…

she's forgotten all about the chick she nearly killed for him.

So that's my dream. That and some stuff about cigars and a tunnel.

But, eh tell me, college girl,…

what does it mean?"

Buffy: "To me?

Mostly, that you still mouth off about things you don't understand.

Uh-oh.

I guess somebody knows you're here".

Faith: "You took my life, B. Payback's a bitch!"

Willow: "Look who's talking."

Faith: "See ya around."

End Flash Back

I was and still am obsessed, but now I know I wanted to be with her not hurt her or do anything to cause her or any of the Scoobies any pain or discomfort. It took me the time after we switched bodies to realize that I didn't care that she had stuck my own knife in my belly, and that I didn't want to be her, I wanted to be with her but the damage was done I could do no more but push her away further because I was and am scared to love, because the last person I loved like my mum before she was shot by my dad and he turned the gun on himself after he killed her, not before he took a part of me with him the day before I watched him take both their life's they both may have been alcoholics but he didn't have to kill the both of them and my insides to, was my Watcher, before she was killed by Kakistos.

"Now I've blown it, now I'm stuck in this dive, with the biggest psychological hole in my head and a missing half of my heart and soul. Sh-she-she's dea-dead." Faith murmured out loud, anger seeping through her every word she said with pain and loss.

"Serves me right, I should be there protecting her not stuck in here feeling her die on me." She said much louder this time, in the same tone again. As the blood red sun hit its peak in the sky over her jail cell window.

"Lehane, yous gots a visitor." Said one of the guards, with a Texan accent. Two weeks after waking up with the empty feeling in the pit of her broken body, mind and soul.

"Five by five, who is it?" She asked with a brooding look on her face.

"A woman called Fred." The guard answered.

"What does Fred want?" She mumbled to herself out loud. "Oh suns still up". She mumbled to her self again, making sure the guard did not hear her.

"Come on, I don'ts have all days, yous may buts I don'ts." He said grumpily.

"Cool it, I'm coming." She said getting gymnastically to her feet.

As they move through the prison, towards the visiting rooms, without a word, passing through wing after wing.

"Yous knows whats to do." Said the guard to Faith, as they stood outside the visiting room.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know what to do." She replied back in the same raspy husky tone.

As she steps into the open room, towards the glass window on the other side of the room, towards the phone, and picked it up and starred through the glass at a beautiful raven haired girl like herself, on the other side.

"Yo Fred what's the what?" She asked, trying to cover up for the empty space inside of her.

"I'm sorry that Angel couldn't come, but the sun is still up, and he is in extra brood mode." Said Fred into the phone with a grieving face, she looked up into the half empty eyes of Faith.

"What. What's wrong? Is he okay? Do you need my help?" Faith asked, noticing the look on Fred's face full of pain and sorrow for her fellow Demon fighter, vampire.

"I'm sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but Buf- Buffy… eh… ah… died two weeks ago, defeating a hell god called Glory." Said Fred tears running down her face.

As Faith listened to Fred, tears streaming down her own face, she looked into Fred's eyes, and Fred asking the question that would cause her to spill her secret about the person she fell in love with so long ago, through all the hate and dislike, Faith had grown, in the few months she spend with the older blonde and loosing the phrase 'Get some, Get gone' and decided to live in the core of the scoobs and show the blonde the life of the slayer, through all the time they spent she fell for the little blonde and big time fell.

As Fred caught the glimmer of loss in the brunette's eyes asked the question she was not hopping to let anyone know about her.

"You loved her, didn't you?" She asked, softly, still looking into her eyes, and noticing that same glint that Wesley had for her.

"Yes." Faith said in barley a whisper, but Fred caught the movement of her mouth through the glass saying yes.

"Then why cause her so much pain?" She asked through their sobs.

"I'll start at the beginning. It all started after I ran away from home, my dad had beat my mum up so bad that she was put in hospital, and since she wasn't there he turned on me, the day I got back from visiting mum, he was waiting for me in the living room, and he was the drunkest I've ever seen him, he grabbed me and haled me to his and mums bedroom, he flung my on the bed and tied my arms and legs to each bedpost, he must of missed mum, so he climbed on top of me and… and he… well that was the last straw, after he untied me, I felt pain all over my body, but the most pain was on the inside, I could feel my muscles protesting as I forced myself to go to my room, and I packed my savings and some clothes, I ran until I noticed a car pull up next to me, and a woman in a tweed suit got out and approached me as I passed out with exhaustion. I awoke in a well kept apartment to an English accent and found the woman that had approached me, before I had passed out, talking on the phone.

Flash Back

"Ah, Faith you are awake." She said in and English accent.

"Who are you? And how do you know what my name is? And where am I?" Faith asked fear seeping through her every word.

"I am your Watcher Mrs Brown. And I know everything about you, because you are a potential slayer. And you are in my apartment two blocks from your house." Said the woman.

"No offence but I don't know what the you just said, something about a potential slayer, so what the fuck is going on?" Faith asked panic seeping through her words now.

"Faith, I know that you must be scared, but you have to face your destiny, and it is to be a slayer." Mrs Brown said to a dumb struck Faith.

"What the hell is a slayer?" Faith asked hearing that she was a potential slayer.

"Into every generation a slayer is born. One girl in all the world, to find the vampires where they gather, and to stop the spread of their evil and the swell of their number." The woman recited as if she was a text book.

"So what's that got to do with me?" Faith asked anger seeping through her words.

"It has everything to do with you, if you don't believe me then, tell me, what was your last dream about"? Asked the woman.

"Now, what's it got to do with my dreams? I mean yeah I had a dream last night but it was weird but that has nothing to do with what you are talking about a slayer, can it?" Faith asked as she remembered about the dream she had the night before.

"I don't know, tell me about your dream and then I will see if it is true." Said the woman politely, going into a room as the kettle popped, and returned a few minutes later with a pot of tea and two cups.

"Okay, but I'm not sure I should be talking to strangers, even if they tell me I'm a slayer and that they are my watcher." Said Faith ploughing on into the dream she had the night before.

"I was walking through a cemetery, and this thing just jumped out at me, and grabbed me by the throat, and lifted me up, and I finally saw his face it was all screwed up, and he had these pointy teeth, and he was going for my neck saying, I never tasted a sla-"

"Hang on he said I was a slayer too, but it felt so real, like I was seeing it through the eyes of someone else not me." Faith finished as she was passed a cup of tea from the woman.

"I knew I was right, but why were you outside because I went to your house and your dad said you just took off, with some money and some clothes. What happened, to make you run away like that, I know he was drunk but what did he do?" She asked.

"He hurt me so I had enough from him that I ran."

""Okay, he told me that your mum is being released from hospital tomorrow, so you can stay with me tonight if you want, if you don't want to go home."

End Flash Back

"The next day, we went to my house as we got there we saw my mum and my dad arguing, so we watched from where we were, where he killed her with the gun, he cried for a couple of minutes then I saw him shoot himself." She said as if it had happened the day before.

"After that my watcher took me in and taught me everything there was to know about the slayer and her power, until one day, I got home and when we were training, I threw this one punch and she went flying across the room, I didn't mean to do it, It just happened, that's when I knew I had been called. My watcher got on the phone to the watchers council and it went smoothly from there, until Kakistos came to town, he killed my watcher in front of me, he said he would do the same to me. Before I left a mark on him I watched her lifeless body hit the floor, I felt all my hopes of a better life leave me before she hit the floor, the love of a mother I had for her and she left me like she did, dead gone forever just like B's left me now. I left Boston and found my way to a place called Sunnydale, my watcher had told me of an other slayer who had been brought back to life by her friends, so I found her and there she was, how I had seen her In my dreams, beautiful and graceful, but I had to show that I was playing hard to get, so one day in the cemetery, we were slaying and I got a serious case of the hungry and hornies, and we were chasing some bad vamps and were ambushed, so I ended up staking the deputy mayor and lost all control. In the end I was almost handed to the council for one silly mistake, so I turned on the one thing that I lived for, her. The mayor treated me as the daughter he always wanted, but he used me to his advantage, in the end it got me put in a coma, by the one person that I loved more than anything in the world." Faith stopped to take a breath and glanced up to notice Fred looking at her hanging on to every single word she was saying. So she ploughed on.

"I was stuck in a coma for eight months, but it was the dreams that had her in it kept me alive, I was sending her cryptic messages in her sleep, even I didn't know what they were about, but I later found out that they were slayer dreams, telling us that Buffy would some how have a sister called Dawn and that we would have to protect her. I woke up to find that I wanted revenge for her not wanting me, for shutting me out of her life cause she is probably scared of what she was feeling for me, and for sticking my own knife in my belly, when I was given a present from the mayor, to change body's with her, to ruin what I loved so she would have nothing, like she wanted me to have nothing. So when I spoke to her mum, I accidentally let it slip to her that I was I love with her so I ended up telling her that Buffy was over us a long time ago, then I was going to kill the one thing that Buffy loved in the world making all her happiness disappear like she did for me. So I switched our bodies then she managed to find me after I had a go at her man know that she would hate it, and that would split them up, so she caught up with me and when I saw my body looking at me I hated myself to the core so I battered it around for a while until Buffy in my body managed to change them back, I took off, and ended in L.A where I was hired by Wolfram and Hart, to kill Angel but I knew I couldn't kill soul boy, so I tried to get him to kill me, but he knew that my soul was as tortured as his so he took pity in me, and Angel being Angel, managed to calm me down but not before I tortured Wesley for hours, and that's what I knew Angel would kill me for because I had almost killed one of his gang, and that would put me out of my misery, so when miss I'm always perfect shows up, trying to be the hero, and causes Angel to protect me, so I took off and I handed myself in, and here I am." Faith finished, and looked into Fred's eyes and saw the silent tears streaming down her face, and noticing the silent tears streaming down her own face.

"Faith, I want you to know that if you wanna talk, I'm here for you, and so is Angel, no matter how dark it gets, we'll always be here for you." Fred said through each sob she and Faith had stuck at the back of each of their throats.

"Lehane, times up." Said the guard as he came into the window panelled room. Both girls said their goodbyes and left, soft, silent tears streaming down each of their faces.

As she was led through wings, the guard finally asked.

"What's wrong Lehane? Yous never cries before." Faith looked at him and answered.

"I just got told that my…er…sister died two weeks ago." She replied toughening up, getting ready to be put back on the wing.

"I'm sorrys to hears that's, I wants yous to knows, that's I'm hears for yous if yous wants to talks." He said smiling in a comforting way.

Two days later, Faith asked the guard that took her to and from hearing the news about Buffy, if she could get her tongue pierced, in memory of her sister, something that she knew was there but nobody else could see, she was given the go ahead, it was soar for the first two days but slayer healing kicked in and it was fine, but she missed the pain, so one day after her shower and shaving her legs with the razor that she had, it was taken away in her toiletry bag with the rest of her stuff she managed to slip it out using her slayer speed, they took it away to stop the prisoners from taking the easy way out, and killing themselves.

As the razor glints in the sun, Faith slips the blade into her right arm, below her elbow and slid it across her arm, watching the blood trickle down her arm, fifteen seconds later, it began to sting like there was no tomorrow, Faith let the pain wash over her, and felt alive for all of thirty seconds until slayer healing kicked in, and the pain was gone. She hid the razor and washed the cut, she repeated the process day after day adding and reopening the ones that were fading because of slayer healing, until the scars became permanent, like the one on her belly, always cleaning them after and always feeling the same after.

On the forty – seventh day, after Buffy died, Faith awoke to feel a part of herself that was missing was back and burning like fire as though it had never disappeared, the feeling was overwhelming, the feeling of being whole again, "But that means B's alive again, but how?" She voiced out loud with pleasure and sadness knowing that Buffy would never want to see her again as long as she lived again, but a thought struck her that would cause the blonde to know she was doing good and not the other way she had reverted to before.

"Now I can make it up to her, try and fix what I had done to cause her any pain, first of all I'll do the rest of my sentence and then I'll fight the big bad far away from her as possible, and I can't hurt her anymore, I can just continue to brood like Angel. No I am not like him, I have to stop brooding and find a way to help her, but not so close as to hurt her." She said to herself out loud. "If it means telling her that I love her then I will, but to never hurt her I will keep my distance to never hurt her ever, ever, ever again, but if she does need me I will put my life on the line if it means dying for her then I will do it to keep her alive, and her life spiralling on." Faith rolled her bar over the top of her mouth and across her upper lip. "Thinking about Buffy being alive again, makes me happy, but how is she alive again?"

Four days later Faith is lying in her bed (if you could call it that), sound asleep, dreaming of Buffy, her soft, expertly fingered hands, caressing her face, staring deeply into her beautiful Almond shaped green eyes, looking deep down into her soul, searching for the love she had for her, and it flickered through her green eyes, love beyond all love that she had seen in peoples eyes, the love she had for Buffy seeping through her own chocolate brown eyes.

Faith finding her hormones getting the better of her, leaning forwards to kiss her and was surprised when she was met halfway, by the beautiful blonde, as their lips locked, it was soft and full of love, together an electric charge went through one another, sending shivers up each of their spines, as they snaked their arms around one another, Buffy making the kiss as though it was the last thing she wanted before she would die again. Faith felling braver scooped the older smaller girl up into her arms and carried her slowly from the window in Buffy's room to the bed and lay her gently on the bed being extremely careful not to break the kiss that was becoming more and more heated, but Faith was needing air and desperately, so un wanting to break the kiss she started to straddle the older girl and had to break the kiss, taking deep breathes she sat on top of the older girl and looked into her eyes, Buffy missing the taste of the brunette's lips on hers, she grabbed Faith and locked their lips together again, as tongues met, Buffy could taste metal in her mouth and broke the kiss, leaning forward to whisper in the younger girls ear.

"Why did you get your tongue pierced?" She asked, as Faith was kissing Buffy's collarbone causing the older girl to moan the question, into to the younger girls ear causing her to smile into the older girls collarbone, as she moved on to the older girls neck and rising to whisper in her ear.

"I got it done in respect of you, so only I could appreciate you, in me." She said blushing. Buffy felt Faith's face go red, as the heat hit her own face.

Faith, beginning to unbutton Buffy's shirt that she had on, and moved her kisses down the blonde's body, the lower Faith got the louder the moans from the blonde, till she got to the blondes belly button, she herd a giggle escape the blonde lips and knew what she had read was true, so as soon as her tongue slipped from her mouth the blonde moaned the loudest she had ever moaned and started to giggle as the wave hit her, in a bout of pleasure she rolled and giggled, through her moans. As Faith takes her tongue out of the blonde's soft spot, she rolled it up her body kissing every part that her lips could taste the sweet taste of Vanilla and Strawberry's, and whispered.

"I got that from dead boys personal file on you, I read it almost everyday." Said Faith as Buffy turned round to gaze into Faith's Chocolate brown eyes.

"I told him to burn that, when he found out just touching my belly would give me the biggest…you know what." She whispered going very red, causing Faith to smirk.

"I made him think that he burnt it, with the rest of the files he was burning, so I could keep it and hold it against you, but when you…died, it was all I could read, I'd just picture your face and then I'd just pick up my razor and make the rest of my life full of pain, until the day I joined you." Said Faith, going red and then realising what she had told the blonde, as the blonde rolled off of her, and opened her mouth.

"Show me you wrists. Now." Buffy demanded to Faith.

Without a word Faith took her denim jacket off and showed Buffy her arms being careful not to look the blonde directly in the eye.

"God damn it, Faith." Said Buffy, tears rolling down her face, looking at the cuts that had been opened and reopened in mark of herself.

"Faith, please, please, please, please don't do that anymore, I want you alive, or I wouldn't be able to do this." Before Faith could do or say anything the small woman leapt on her and locked their lips together in a passionate kiss, causing the brunette to moan with pleasure.

As the blonde took her lips away from the brunette and looked deep into her eyes and asked her.

"Faith promise me, you won't do this anymore, the next time I see you, I will check your wrists and arms, and if I see any cuts and scars I will kiss them till they disappeared." Said the older girl, tears running down her face, as she leans forwards and kisses ever single scar that was on Faith's arms, and when she was finishes she kissed Faith and looked into her eyes waiting for the answer, until finally the younger slayer spoke through the tingles of close contact with her counter part.

"I promise, but I want you to promise that if I tell you something not to wig out, okay?" She asked, and the older girl nodes her head.

"There is only one thing on this earth that is keeping me here and that is you, I'm not very good with all this stuff, but what I'm tying to say is…that…I…Faith…Lehane…love…you…Buffy…Summers." Said Faith waiting for the blonde's reaction and was surprised at it at the most when the older girl leaned over to the brunette and whispered seductively.

"I've dreament of you telling me those words since way before I met you…but this…is…a dream…so, you probably don't mean them, but if it means that I will prove that I don't mean this in a dream, I will tell you that I loved you since the moment you became a slayer, I remembered when you were first called I was dreaming about what you had experienced as a child, but I saw what had happened to you when you watched your watcher be killed right in front of you and I saw how you reacted, I just want you to know I will never do anything to cause you harm, but the one thing that I don't want is you hurting yourself because of me, I will tell you my feelings from the bottom of my body to the top, I love you Faith Lehane, and no matter what my conscious is telling me to wake up right now but not before I give you my true feelings." At her words Buffy leans over and gives Faith a kiss so full of love that it was soft but passionate.

As Faith wakes up with the guard banging on her door telling her it was time to get up, she watched the sun as it hit the peak in the sky and smiled, and said out loud.

"I will tell you face to face someday, weather we both like it or not." As she got up and done her normal routine, for the mornings.

"Yous gots the Angel guy visiting yous." Said the guard on the other side of her door, as she looked up at the sky, she saw that the sun had set, and that ment dead boy could travel now.

"Thanks, Sean I'll be right out." Faith answered the guard.

As Faith was led through the prison she noticed that Angel wasn't the only one with him it was Fred.

"Hi Faith, how you copping?" Fred asked as she pulled the phone out of the hands of Angel.

"Five by five, well in fact I've never been better." Faith answered the girl truthfully.

"That's nice to hear, but we have some good news for you, Buffy's been brought back to life by Willow, Tara, Xander and Anya, we only just found out two days ago, so what you gonna do, and don't say nothing cause I'll put my fist through the glass and slap you." Fred said, smiling cheekily.

"Oh well I'm gonna do the rest of my sentence and then, I'm gonna fight the big bad, which means I can't hurt her." Faith said looking at Angel and then at Fred.

"That's sounding great, but, don't you want to help Buffy, I mean if she dies again then, you will never ever, ever see her again, so get your self together and then when you get out, you can help us." Fred finished, as she looked at Angel and then at Faith.

"Yes, I will do it, but in time". Faith said, as she stood up because the guard said it was time to go back, because her time was up.

"Cya later walking dead, Fred." Faith said, as she smiled at her friends, as they smiled back at her as she was led out of the room.

Two months later Faith had a dream, well it started like a dream and ended a nightmare. Faith sat up, trying to remember it, all she remembered the most was Buffy being killed and eaten.

She looked outside and looked up at the full moon above her cell window, and night after night the dream started to get more clearer and clearer, with every time she saw it, and every night she saw it she only managed to sleep less than two hours, ever time she shut her eyes she had that same dream over and over again.

"Angel, I keep having this dream, and so I wrote it down and then I can see how to stop it, but I know that some how, I know that it is a slayer dream, Buffy's in trouble, here take this, and try and warn her." Faith said as she handed Angel the piece of paper, that she had written down her nightmare.

"I think I already know what it's about, Buffy getting her neck snapped, and then you watching her getting torn apart and eaten, am I right?" Angel asked Faith as she opened her mouth and said the only thing that came to her.

"Yes. How did you know?" Faith asked as she, looked at Angel with surprise on her face.

"Gunn had a vision, it if I'm correct then it will say the exact thing I just got told off of Gunn, I didn't know that you were having this as a slayer dream, so I think if it's like this then we gotta get you out of here." Angel said as he read the exact thing Gunn had written for him to try and stop Buffy from dying, all over again.

"Okay, but what am I gonna do, smash the glass and break out, or will you break me out, I'm not wanting to be stuck in here, if Buffy's gonna die on me, again". Faith said as she looked at Angel.

"Faith, I'll try and break you out in the next couple of days, so be patient and you'll be out in no time" Angel finished as she guard came to take Faith back to the wing.

"I kept my promise." Angel said from the back of the car he had broken Faith out of jail in, as he lay under a blanket, as the sun was still up.

"Thanks walking dead, but I forgot my picture of you, when we found out that you can be pictured by a Polaroid, so I'll need another one to remember you by." Faith finished as she looked Fred sitting in the driver's seat as she started to giggle, at the question Faith had asked.

"Sunnyhell, here I come." As she Angel and Fred got onto the highway heading towards the place she was looking to forget all about, just too make the one person she loves happy.

"Riley? Spike? What are you two doing here?" Buffy said as she suddenly felt a familiar tingle she could not place.

"Working." They answered in unison.

Buffy looked around the graveyard, trying to figure out who was in the shadows, but saw no on.

Faith watched the small blonde as she staked a vampire, just watching her made her feel like pouncing on her, and kissing her, but then the dream hit her square on and she turned her head away from her.

"Faith you're here to help, and then you're serving the rest of your sentence in prison, you can't let your feelings get in the way now, just do your job, and the you can let her live her life." Faith finished whispering to herself.

"I'm wiped, I'm just gonna head home now Buffy, maybe hit a vamp nest to give you more time with me when you get in." Riley said, as Faith felt suspicion in the young man's voice.

Faith followed him to an Abandoned building, until she felt them, loads of them, as the farm boy entered the dark and dank house she followed him quietly, up the stairs as she watched him hand over some money, and then he sat down rolling up his sleeve for his left arm, as a vampire stepped out of the darkness, bent down and drove her fangs into his arm, as she bit down, he asked her to bite harder, Faith feeling discussed at him ran from the house, and all she could think about was Buffy, and how she was gonna react when she told her.

"I can't tell her, her soldier boy beef stick is letting vamps have a little fun with him, and I thought she would have felt me near by, cause I could sure feel her, times past she probably forgot, but I ain't forgotten her like she forgot me, so what do I do now?" She said out loud, as she walked past Willie's, walking in, she sat down on a seat in front of the bartender, who took one look at her, and panicked.

"The word on the street was true, the dark one has returned to us. So what'll it be?" Willie asked the dark haired slayer.

"Jack D, and make it a double." Faith answered the scared man.

"No worries, it's on the house." He said as he set a glass of Jack Daniels in front of her, but she made sure he took the money for it and told him she had changed.

"Willie, you're as stiff as a board when you talk to me, I've changed, all for the person I love." Faith gasped at her last words.

"Ah, not you as well." Willie said looking at her, with the kind of look that, he had given Spike.

"What do you mean, me as well?" Faith asked him as he looked at her and tried to edge away from her.

"You're not the only one to have fallen in love with her." He said as she followed him along the bar to where he stood trying to get away from her.

"Well this is my guess so don't hurt me if it's right or wrong, promise?" He asked the brunette.

"Promise". She answered him.

""Well my guess is you love the other slayer, am I right?" He asked her, as he pulled away from her in case she went to take a swipe at him.

"Well your guess is a right one at that. How long did you know that for?" She asked him at the look of suspicion spread through her.

"Well, it was pretty obvious, cause the word was out that you two looked a bit too close when you were dancing together at the bronze, before you went all psychotic on us." He said standing as far as he could back away from her.

"Willie, I'm not gonna touch ya, how many times do I have to tell ya, I've changed no more old me, you're looking at the new and improved Faith Lehane, fresh from doing her time, and who is looking to redeemed herself from what she had done back then, so stop inching or I'll pay you more money for the glass of Jack D I'm gonna ask you to get me." She said laughing at the non violent way she was being with the older man.

"But I will ask you to promise not to tell the other chick I'm here, you promise?" She asked as she was handed a glass of Jack Daniels.

"Okay sweet cheeks, anything for you, but you do know if she finds out that you're here, this will be the first place she will look, is here, should I tell her or not cause I don't want another soar face, cause I always tell her I know nothing, but I really do know something, so she hits me until I tell her something that she wants me to tell her." He finished as he looked at the younger girl.

"Okay, I promise, even if she has to kill me." He said as she finished her drink and got up to leave.

"Thanks, Willie, it means a lot to me, thanks for the drinks." She said as she threw down thirty dollars on the counter, as she left.

"That' cover now, so now I can get on, and look after her so she doesn't know it." Faith said to herself as she walked back to her motel room.

"She is gonna kill me if she finds out I'm out of prison, and on the loose here, ah who cares I need killed anyway." She said as she opened the door to her motel room, and shut the door.