Hey everyone, this is a one shot ficklet that is mainly Willow and Tara centered. It takes place between seasons 6 and 7. Yes, Tara did die, Willow went evil, and everything else is the same. Oh this takes place before Willow goes to England with Giles. Hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimer: I do not own anything related to Buffy the Vampire Slayer; that belongs to the God known as Joss Whedon and the song, "I'd Rather Be In Love" belongs to Michelle Branch.

Pairings: Willow/Tara

Rating: PG

Note: All things in stars (** text **) are song lyrics

And on with the show!

It's been two week since IT happened. The day that you left me, and my world was turned upside down. I still can't believe it. Tara, why did you have to die? Why you? It should have been me because you were such a beautiful and wonderful person. All I can do is sit in our room and cry, loving you.

**I cannot help it I couldn't stop it if I tried

The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside

And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain

'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole

And there's no better feeling in the world

But without you I'm alone

And I'd rather be in love with you**

My god, what will I do now? Giles wants me to go to England with him to see a coven for magical help. Me in the land of the books. I really don't want to go because that will bring me even further away from you, or at least where you are buried.

**Turn out the lights now

To see is to believe

I just want you near me

I just want you here with me

And I'd give up everything only for you

It's the least that I could do**

The door opens and I hear Buffy's voice, " Hey Will do you want some dinner? I got a cheese pizza for Dawn and me. You can have some if you want."

"No thanks, I'm not really hungry," I hear myself numbly reply.

"Okay, see you later then, and Will,"

"ya?"

"I'm here If you want to talk or if you need anything." She says. I fake a smile at her before Buffy turns and leaves, shutting the door behind her. Ya need anything, right, only my entire world has been taken from me. What could I possibly want besides Tara?

**'Cause when there's you, I feel whole

And there's no better feeling in the world

But without you I'm alone

And I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me

Why are we afraid to be in love?

To be loved

I can't explain it

I know it's tough to be loved

And I feel you holding me**

Good god, I miss her. My Tara, who was ripped violently from this Earth and is not coming back. Sometimes I want to just end the pain so that I can be with her. I know that I can't, though. I know that it wouldn't be what she wanted. She's want me to be happy, but I can't, not without her at least.

**Oh, oh

And when there's you, I feel whole

And there's no better feeling in the world

But without you I'm alone

And I'd rather be in love

Yes, I'd rather be in love

Oh, I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me, oh**

So I sit and cry and wish that you were holding me.

Thanks for reading, please review! :)