okay... so i wrote another story for fun, out of boredom actually... i made my friend read it and she is addicted! supposedly!! so i figure maybe if she loves it,(cause sadly she HATES twilight! :(i know huh?) maybe others will to! so PLEASE read it all! and PLEASE REVIEW! i kill everything... its like i'm not even here, i am invisible!

BPOV

I was sitting on my rocking chair, going through all of the pictures in the photo book i got for my 18th birthday. The first picture was of me and Edward in the kitchen. I still have the pictures he hid when he left, we pulled them out of the floor a while ago. My eyes started to water as i remembered that night that he left... and those months to follow.

"bella, love are you okay?" Edward asked, startling me, i hadn't heard him come in. He walked over to where i was sitting and took the book from my hands. It was turned to the page with the picture of me and him in the living room with Charlie. He set the book down, and gently picked me up, and sat us down on my bed. " i'm so sorry love, i never meant to hurt you so much. you know that i love you more than anything, and i promise that i will not let you go ever again. as long as you are here, so am I." his voice seemed sad, like he was ready to cry too. sometimes I wonder if this hurt him as much as it did me.

"I know, but it's hard to look back and be okay, it's hard to think that i almost lost you forever! When you left, you took every part of me with you." i told him, i didn't really like to talk about this with him, and he didn't like talking about it either. but it had to be said. We needed to let things out there.

" I know love, it was the same for me. Leaving you was the stupidest thing i could ever do." he whispered.

" No it wasn't!" i yelled. " You did it to keep me alive, you wanted me to have a normal life, which didn't really happen because of the werewolves.. but still you did it cause -"

"Because I thought you would be okay I believed you could be normal" he interrupted, his body tensed around mine, and i knew it was 'cause he was kicking himself for what he had done.

" No, that's not what i was going to say exactly.."

"Then what were you going to say?"

"I was going to say that you did it because you loved me, you loved me enough to protect me. Or to atleast try to protect me."

"i had always loved you, and yes it was enough to try to protect you, but it didn't help when you starting hanging out with jacob."

"I am sorry," that was all i could manage to say, he was right, and i knew it. The tears started coming more quickly, and he held me for a while, we sat in silence for a long time.

" What are you thinking about?" He asked. i loved how he hated the way that my mind was the only one he couldn't read.

"you know, i bet that if i hadn't hung out with jacob, we probably wouldn't be here right now, I mean I would never get over you, but if i didn't know about cliff diving, Alice never would have seen me jump. And we wouldn't have had to go save you." I guess i am very glad i had started hanging out with Jake.

"No, i told I still would have come back for you. I couldn't live without you, it just took so long to realize that." He said.

It was quite again for awhile, we just laid there, i stared out the window for a bit, relaxing and listening to the wind and the rain. Then, Edward tensed up around me again, i turned as much as i could and looked at his face, his eyes were black as night, and i could have sworn his face just got a little paler if it were possible.

"What's Wrong?" I asked

"You'll find out soon enough." he replied. As soon as he said that Charlie burst through my door, his face was a deep purple, and he looked ready to kill... i hope he didn't have his gun on him.

" YOU UNGRATEFUL LITTLE BASTARD!" He yelled, i was stunned, what could be so horrible he would call Edward such a name? Obviously the feeling showed on my face and charlie went off again. "DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW BELL'S! AND YOU, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE!"

Edward stood up, and got ready to speak, but i beat him to it. "Ch - DAD, What's wrong?! what happened? Dad, calm down, Edward's not going anywhere!"

"DAMNIT BELLA, How could you do that? your 18 years old! He left you, left you to rot, and than came back expecting everything to be all fine and dandy! he's been back a few months and you SLEEP with him?" he screamed... where was he getting this from?

"Charlie, Sir, i can assure you we have done nothing of the sort." Edward said, how the hell was he staying calm?

"OUT NOW!!"

"DAD! I never slept with Edward!" i yelled, " No matter how much i love him, or how badly i want to, we haven't gone that far!"

"Oh BULLSHIT BELLS! I was talking to Jacob, and he told me all about it, he told me everything you told him!" his face was going a deeper purple, and it looked like he was about to pass out. I know the color of my face was about to be a way deeper color than his!

JAKE TOLD YOU THIS? MY JACOB? Jacob Black!?" I couldn't stop myself from screaming, and i think it scared Charlie... and from the looks of it Edward too? Charlie was speechless, so he just nodded. "I WILL KILL THAT MONGREL! i swear if it's the last thing I do, i can't believe he would do this to me!!"

"so you did sleep with him?" Charlie questioned, he was calming down now, but just a bit at a time.

"NO! i have NOT slept with him! god dad! how could you believe him?"

"I don't really know Bells, he's just such a good kid, and would never lie! and he's your best friend!"

"In about ten minutes, he's dead! So much for a best friend!" i said, then i flew down the stairs and out to my truck, Edward right behind me. I think Charlie was to shocked to chase me down right now, or the would be guns going off right now.

"Where are we going?" Edward asked.

"I am going to La Push!" I answered. Jake is not getting away with this one, tell on me about the bikes, i'll get over it, but tell my FATHER that i am sleeping with Edward already? nuh uh!

Edward grabbed my arm just then and whirled me around to face him, I tried to pull away, but i knew i stood no chance. Why did he have to be a vampire? sometimes i wish that i was just as perfect as he was!

"Edward let me go!" I exclaimed.

"You are not going over there! You have no IDEA what could happen to you," he said.

"It will be fine, don't worry, Jake won't hurt me Edward! he loves me to much to do that!"

"Bella, love, it worries me when you go over there, i never know if your coming back."

"I'll be fine, just let go!" I yelled, I don't think i have ever been this mad at Edward, but right now i was really pissed off, he can't control me! "DAMNIT EDWARD! GET YOUR HAND OFF ME!!"

He let go, and i ran to my truck, started the engine, and left for the reservation. Right now i was kinda wishing I had that audi Edward had been wanting to get me. On the way there I thought about Edward and the reaction i got when I told him to get his hand off me, I was starting to feel really bad for yelling at him and then just leaving him there alone, but he could have easily stopped me right? why didn't he?

When I pulled up to Billy's house, Billy was looking out the window, he looked ashamed, HOLY CROW, Jake told him too? who did he tell? i'm going to kill him! I jumped out of my truck and slammed my door... HARD.

"JAKE GET YOUR SORRY BUT OUT HERE!!" I screamed. for a second i wondered if he was even home, it was kinda hard to see with the rain, and i didn't really feel like going over there because of Billy, but then i saw him appear in the doorway, he walked toward me until he was about a foot away from me.


ok so what did you think? i have more but don't know if i want to post it.. lets just say things do NOT go well...