I hope you enjoy this story. I love these two guys so I wanted to write a fanfic about the way I wanted their relationship to go.

I do not own anything Emmerdale, Aaron Livesy or Robert Sugden.

With or Without You

Chapter 1

He was standing outside with tears in both eyes. Why did he care so much? Why did this one man have such a strong hold on him?

He knew he was behind him before he heard him speak. But the second he heard his voice, he went weak in the knees and fell to the ground.

"What is wrong with you?" he asked as he also went down on his knees behind him. "Did you hear me Aaron?"

"Yes, I heard you Robert. You want to know what is wrong with me. Fine, I'll tell you what is wrong with me. I'm falling in love with a man who belongs with someone else and there's nothing I can do about it."

Aaron stood up and started to walk away from Robert. But Robert reached out, grabbing his arm and pulled him back towards his body.

"Please don't leave. I'm doing the best I can Aaron. I don't know what else I can do."

"It's not your fault I fell in love with man who isn't really available. I knew the first time we kissed that you were engaged to Chrissie. I have to deal with my feelings for you."

"This is hard on me too Aaron. Do you think that I don't have feelings for you? I find myself waiting for a brief glimpse of your beautiful blue eyes staring back at me. It almost killed me to make Katie and everybody else in the Woolpack think that I had said some homophobic remark to because that is the furthest thing from my mind.

"I wanted to tell each and every one of them that you were my secret lover, not Alicia. I wanted to walk up to you, pull you into my arms and drag you upstairs and make made passionate love to you, making you scream out in desire so everybody would know what we were doing."

"Chrissie would have surely found out about us if you did that." Aaron moaned when Robert lowered his mouth and left his mark on the sexy young mechanic's neck.

"Aaron, I have an appointment to get to but can we get together tonight? I can rent us a hotel suite and use the excuse that I need to stay in Hotten overnight. I need to spend all night in your arms."

"Ok. Text me with the info and I'll be there." Aaron reached behind him, covering the bulge in Robert's jeans. "I can't wait to fall asleep with you buried deep inside me and lay like that all night long."

"I know what you mean. I'll see you tonight." Robert leaned down and kissed Aaron's neck in the same spot again. "By the way, you may want to cover up that big old hickey if you don't want any questions being asked. Later lover." Aaron heard Robert walk away. He looked over his shoulder just in time to see him driving away in the blue Austin Healey that Chrissie had given him as a wedding present.

"I am such a fool to fall in love with an unavailable man. He's going to get married to Chrissie and he's going to string me along like his dirty little secret." And now I am talking to myself, Aaron thought to himself.

When he made it back to work, he went into the men's bog and looked at his neck. Sure enough, Robert had left his mark on him and it was about the size of a small goose egg.