Title: Goodbye
Author: kittyebony13
Disclaimer: No, I do not own Loveless. This is probably a good thing, or stuff like this would happen.
WARNING: Contains character death. No, I won't tell you who. Figure that out yourself. This could also be tissue-worthy-- I dunno.
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Blood—
Blood everywhere
It smears the walls and drips onto the floor—
Despite those fingers, those fingers that try to hold it back—
I can't move
I can't move fast enough
My limbs are frozen
My hand is reaching, fingers clawing at the air, muscles straining—
He's too far away—
He's too far away and I can't reach
His limbs slide out
His limbs slide out from under him—
He crumbles to the ground like sand—
Like sand running between my fingers—
I can move
I can move, finally, and I—
And I stumble to his side and try to stop it
I try to stop the bleeding—
Nothing
Nothing, no way—
No way to save him
The blood is undaunted by my efforts—
He looks up
He looks up at me and he smiles
He smiles through the blood on his lips—
The blood that flecks his lips, coughed from his lungs—
His eyes
His eyes don't accuse me
"I love you," he says—
"I've always loved you"
His fingers
His fingers fall limp—
Limp—
Lifeless—
His head tilts
His head tilts to the side
It lolls
His eyes are dead—
He's too far away—
He's too far away and I can't reach
I scream
I scream I think I scream—
Hot running down my face and searing my skin—
My heart lies ripped out on the ground—
They hear me
They hear me scream
Finally, they get the door open—
The door that kept them back, that let me make my mistake—
The mistake
The mistake that killed him—
My mistake—my murdering—
My killing my friend I killed my friend—
People
People are all around me
I can hear sobs
I can hear screams
I can't hear
I can't hear anything
There is nothing in my ears
There is nothing—I am nothing
White
White and waiting—
I can't hear the comfort of most
I can only feel that one pair of arms, the smallest—
Time passes
Time passes and I don't know how much
It is irrelevant
It is meaningless—
He's too far away—
He's too far away and I can't reach
That day
That day—that terrible day—
It is raining
The raindrops drip on the umbrellas
The mahogany coffin
The mahogany coffin sits so still—
Oblivious, it is, to the grief—
Senseless to the grief that surrounds it—
White petals flutter
White petals flutter in the soft breeze
I lay the flower on the coffin lid
I wish it were yellow—
Yellow
Yellow is a good color—a happy color
He didn't like white
White is too sad—a blank canvas—
Leaving
Leaving—the people are leaving
They say they're sorry
Some of them are crying—
They were
They were the true friends
I know their grief—
I know their grief and I let them comfort me—
One stays
One stays for me
He holds my heart steady
Without him I would be dead too
I touch
I touch the stone and trace the letters
K… I—
White noise
The small hand
The small hand takes mine—
It gently helps me up
I can stand—
We
We are leaving
I look back—
I look back once—
Goodbye
Goodbye Kio
Goodbye
Goodbye—
We walk
We walk out the gates
I lift my head
The sun peeks through the clouds—yellow
Distantly—
Distantly I smell lollipops.
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Okay, that's the end! I know the poem sucks (I'm not good a poetry and quite frankly most of it bores my stupid) but this piece wouldn't work as a short story. I wrote it in, like, fifteen minutes. Go ahead and flame me now. It'll help me write better.
Oh, and this is my first fan fic! Yay! (Dances) REVIEW PLEASE!
