Nessie POV
I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock blaring, instead of hitting the snooze button like most people would I get up right away. 6 am right on the dot, I stumble to the bathroom, wanting to get into the shower and wash away my grogginess. As I step into the shower I let the hot water cascade over my body, waking me up. Quickly the scent of my shampoo envelopes my sense. I brush my teeth in the shower, after I'm finished I step out and wrap a towel around my body. I swiftly opened my drawers and put on the first thing I could find. Which were a pair of faded blue baggy jeans and a Kings of Leon t-shirt. I put on a pair of sneakers and looked in the mirror and quickly brushed my hair. Done.
I hastily ran downstairs and made myself a bowl of cereal, I looked at the clock and realized I had 30 minutes to get to school. I grabbed my backpack and made my way to my car. I put my car in reverse and started the 10 minute drive to Liberty High. I finally had some time to think of what today was…first day of junior high.
Do I like high school… no. why not… well I'm not the most popular person in the school, I mostly just stick to myself, I blend in. Its what I do best, some call me a loner, a loser, a geek, I have heard it all. My goal in life is to get the hell out this god forsaken town. I just need to get away from these vapid people and the small town gossip. Just 1 more years.
I get to the school and I pick the parking space that is the farthest away from the high school. I get out of my car and notice that there are already people hanging out in the parking lot. The druggies, the jocks, the trust fund babies, I could go on and on. As I walk across the parking lot to get inside the school I successfully avoid the student traffic and I go unnoticed by student body. Typical.
I make my way to my locker, and stuff my books inside, grab my books for my first two classes. If I was going to be sitting in the back ,I should at least take my glasses with me. I glance at my watch and see that I only have 5 minutes to get to class. As I enter the class room I notice that all the seats are taken but two desks in the back. I do a happy dance in my head as to how lucky I got. I take my seat and not a second later the bell rings.
As Mr. Mercer started to drown on about class expectations, I took out my notebook and started to jot down the small note that was on the board, about the War. I look around the classroom and see what kind of dim-witted people I'm with this year. No one really interesting in this class. The class passes by in a blur and I start heading to 2nd period. Before I'm out the door Mr. Mercer calls me back in for a talk.
" Renesmee Cullen, its such a pleasure to have you in my class. I have to tell you I think I will really enjoy this year, at least I will have one student who is engaged in the topics." Mr. Mercer says appraisingly.
" Yup" I reply as distant as I can. He quickly send me on my way and I just know I'm going to be late. Great, I'm going to be in so much trouble. As I get to the class I see that there is only one seat left. Next to Jacob Black, the womanizing man whore, also the jock of the school.
This day just went from good to dreadful.
I quickly scan the rest of the classroom to see if there are any other seats available, none. I make my way quietly to the seat next to Jacob Black, going unnoticed by the teacher who is currently writing something on the board. As I sit down I try my hardest not to look at Jacob. I don't succeed. I quickly look over to see his reaction to me sitting down next to him. A small smile appears on his lips, before its gone and look of disgust replaces it.
I sigh, I should have known nothing has changed with Jacob. Of course he would want nothing to do with me, since I'm such a loser. We sit in silence for the rest of the period. Me taking notes on what was on the board, and Jacob talking to his friends that were around him. I tried to make it obvious that I wasn't trying to get quick glances at him and his posy. I saw Mike looking my way and he just scoffed and rolled his eyes, I quickly looked down, trying to hide my embarrassment.
The bell rings and Jacob quickly got up and left without a even a glance my way. I try not to show people how much it hurt. I mean I should be used to it by now, he does this all the time. All those stupid romance novels of kids growing up and falling in love was total B.S. I mean if it was like that then I should be Jacob Blacks girlfriend, but guess what, I'm not.
I'm a loser, he super popular and we just don't fit, not even to be friends. At least not in public.
The rest of the day passes by in a blur and I'm already heading to my car.
" Loser", I hear someone yell. I feel my self start to turn red. I keep my head down and get in my car. I get out of the school parking lot and head home.
Awesome first day, eh Nessie? I roll my eyes and get out of the car.
" Oh hey sweetie, how was your first day?" my mom asks as I walk into the kitchen. She was arranging some flowers in a vase when I walked in." Same old," I say nonchalantly.
You know no one talking to you and being called names and being ignored by the only person you can call a friend. I think to myself.
" Sweetie did you talk to Jacob?" My mother asked, concern written all over her face.
" Yes mom, we have a class together and we sat together, I asked him how the rest of his summer was, all that boring stuff." I said lying to my mom.
Even though I know we didn't do any of those things, I didn't want my mom to scold Jacob or Billy about not being polite and talking to me. Talk about embarrassing.
" Nessie, I thought I heard you come in, how was school?" my dad walks in, looking ready to go to the hospital for his shift.
" Good, now may I be excused I have a lot of homework." I said politely and kiss my mom and dad, and head upstairs.
Ah, my sanctuary, my room. It was only 3 but my parent and I both knew that I would be up here till dinner. I had no homework, another lie I have told my parent today, wow 2 in one day I'm getting good. Something Jacob showed me.
As soon he pops into my mind, I banish it. Thinking about him would not be a good idea, I mean true he may be my only friend, but he was a crappy one. I plop myself on my bed and put my earphones in my ears, drowning myself in some Chemical Romance. Perfect for my mood.
I must have dozed of because I awake to my mom shaking me so I'll wake up.
" Sweetie, Billy and his kids are coming over for dinner go and get ready please." she say and leave my room.
I wonder if he'll talk to me here, there is no one to impress.
I quickly take a shower and brush my teeth, I brush my hair, I also decide to wear the only pair of skinny jeans I own and a baggy sweater.
I hear the doorbell ring and I start to get nervous. Jacob was really, well he was complicated, and you never knew what to expect from him.
I make my way slowly downstairs, not wanting to disturb them with my presence.
" Hello Esme, whatever you have cooked smells wonderful." I hear Billy complimenting my moms cooking.
I finally take a big breath and head downstairs. I see Billy and Jacob, but I didn't see his sister. To bad I liked them, I guess you could call them another set of friends that I had.
Jacob was closest to the stairs so I guess he heard me coming down. He looks up and smiles.
You see what I mean, he's totally bipolar. I cursed myself for thinking that, he isn't. He's just ashamed to be around me, to admit that we grew up together.
"Hello Billy, how are you?" I ask politely.
" I'm good Nessie, how about you?" he asks like he really cared. He is a good man.
" I'm swell thank you for asking." I say just as politely.
I try to ignore Jacob snickering at me, for using the word swell. He is so immature, just because I have manners and know big words, fancy word, he makes fun of me.
We head outside to the patio, where I guess we are having a BBQ, I helped my mom and ignored Jacob. He deserves it, for being so mean to me.
Don't be a baby Renesmee, he is just like this you know that as well as anybody. Get over it.
I was making the salad when I hear footsteps. They are not my moms that for sure, I look up and see Jacob looking down at me. I roll my eyes and resume my cutting the carrots.
" You're mom told me to come and help you," Jacob states.
I ignore him.
" Whatsup with you?" he asks as he goes around me to stir the spaghetti.
" Nothing why," I ask trying to lie.
" You never ignore me, it weird" he says and chuckles.
" Whatever Jacob." I say, and to ignore him again.
" Look just because I ignore you at school doesn't mean were still not fr-friends." he stutters.
" You know what Jacob, you such an arrogant jerk. If I repulse you so much do yourself a favour and don't come over." I try to say as calmly as I can. Wow I have never spoken to anyone like that.
" Nessie don't get all bitchy on me, I think that its better if we didn't talk at school you know? I do have a reputation, and … well your not - um like your-" he said looking for the right words.
" Yeah I get it, don't want to be friends with the loser of the school, I get it." I say coolly and leave the kitchen with the salad bowl in my hands.
The rest of the night was agonizingly slow, mom and Billy asking how school was and what I was doing this year what I wanted to be when I grew up, blah, blah…
After they left I helped clean up and said goodnight to my mom, I went to my room and did my nightly ritual. I brushed my teeth washed my face and got in bed. I cried myself to sleep, another nightly ritual.
The week flew by and me and Jacob hadn't talked, I was fine with it even though I knew why he did it, it didn't mean I liked why he did it. I knew he had a rep to upkeep, I need to stop thinking about myself and what I want. I'm so stupid sometimes.
I'm in my room watching the latest episodes of House when my phone rings.
How odd no one ever calls me unless of emergency, mainly my mom and dad. Who else had my number?
I looked at the caller ID, oh yeah and Jacob.
" What?" I answered my phone, not caring about my manners.
" Wow I'm sorry I thought I called Renesmee Cullen, not the Royal Bitch. Sorry about that." He hung up.
Great.
I closed my phone, and before I had to throw it across my room, it rang again. I debated with myself whether I should pick it up or not. I sighed
" Yeah?" I tried another approach.
" Hello is this Renesmee Cullen, I dialled wrong last time?" He asked sounding serious.
" Jacob what do you want?" I asked, feeling tired.
" Ah Ness there you are. Whatsup?"
" Jake get to the point", I said getting frustrated.
" Fine, do you wanna come over this weekend and watch a movie or something?" He asked.
A movie, a movie? A movie, like old times?
We used to sleepover at each other houses and watch scary movies, and me being the baby I am always got scared and I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night.
" A movie? With you? Jacob we haven't had one of those in forever?" I said.
" I know I'm just am bored and I don't feel like going out, so you coming over?" he asked.
" No I'm good. Thanks though." I don't even wait for him to answer.
I hang up on him, and press play on my remote, and continue watching House.
With a smile on my face.
Instead of jumping at the chance to hang out with someone and get out of my room, I stayed in my room and watched the season finale of House. I didn't need anyone, not even Jake. I know who I am and I like me, I'm not jumping at the chance to change, I just want to be me, myself. But why couldn't people accept that? Why couldn't Jacob accept that?
