chapter one.

The sun is warm on my eye lids, trying to move and hide in the quilt but my hands don't find my soft comforter instead i feel the forest floor. Ignoring the pain in my head i force myself to sit up (not without a groan) to take in my surroundings.

The sun is blazing through the trees , wind whistling through the leaves, thats when it all comes flashing back. bonnie, Stefan, plane ride the crash - oh god oh god.

flash back - that morning

I wake with a thud on the floor following the sound of someone else falling to the floor too "ow" can be heard from stefan who fell to the floor causing me to giggle, "stefan" i say sitting up from my side on the floor "breakfast" i say making him sit up an look at me from across the bed "breakfast" he says with a matching smile.

we both make a jump on the bed landing on bonnie tickling and kissing her cheeks "no,, st-stop" she says thrashing trying to escape our ministrations"its breakfast bon bon" we say "argh i hate you both stop" she says again with a laugh "how was breakfast bonnie" stefan ask collapsing onto the bed again "too much breakfast" she says making us all laugh.

At the airport

"come on guys it will be fine" stefan says dragging us both onto the plane awaiting us "why are we going on a plane" bonnie says again "because stefan didnt want to subject us to hours of the Damon and Elena show" i ask with a hint of anger saying their names "no its because you both havent been on a plane and this way we get there a day early so we can come away with some happy memories of the place with out them there" stefan said "oh Casanova stefan how we swoon to your words" i say with a dramatic sigh "whisper sweet nothings in my ear heart breaker" bonnie says dramatically clutching her chest.

stefan let go of our hands and headed up the steps me and bonnie falling behind continuing on with our play "do you think he'll ask father to court me, imagine all the balls we'll get to see" i swooned to her "we'll be the envy of every girl there when they see me on his arm, do you think he'll propose oh he said he would stefan stefan were at tho stefan" she said causing him to turn at us with a scolding look.

we were still laughing when we were directed to our seats, noticing im up the front of the plane i stand by my seat before calling to them "Stefan you plonker why arent we all sat together" holding his hands up in a defensive gesture "sorry where i had to changed flights those where the only seats , sorry care" i pout "but who's going to hold my hand" i say before i can finish speaking a guy with an accent interupts "you can hold my hand darling , oh wait were not next to each other" i watch as the cute guy walks over to where bonnies sat and listen as he speaks to her asking if she needed to hold his hand too" " once we're able to move around i'll come and hold your hand" he says "but what about bonnie she's gonna need you too" i say in a charming way "sit down care its gonna be fine , you'r not the only one who needs to hold a hand" he says when i hear an adorable old lady say she'll hold his hand and watch as he graciously accepts before seeing me and bonnie smirk and wiggle our eyebrows at him.

i sit in my seat and look around theres a few older looking guys dotted around a really beautiful blonde reading a magazine back near stefan some hunters in the middle i see bonnie trying to rebuck the guy from earlier and i see a few random people but then my eyes land on him, a beautiful man with what looks to be a face of models with a tight jaw and curly blonde hair on top of his head wearing a leather jacket definitely loner artist vibe going on.

It's like he can feel me eyes on him causing him to look at me give me a slow once over then a smirk, like he's saying 'yeah im hot i can get any girl i want' look i give him an arched eyebrow as what stefan and bonnie call my 'seriously' look before turning around and begin to chat with the guy near me about his days in service of the marine corps.

a loud whistling sound happened and the plane started to shake and lean to one side the seatbelt sign flashed on , my hands gripped the seat i could hear my name being screamed by to people "i love you both" i shouted when their was another bang and the plane went down , the noise was deafening the vibration making me bounce in my seat violently pain and then everything went black.

end of flashback-

Ignoring the pain i stood up to take in my surroundings , theres metal scattered every where bags littering the floor i can see the plane and i push myself to run towards,it half of the plane is missing you can see the inside structure of if wires hanging down i can see the people from earlier i'm about to have a panic attack when i can hear my fathers voice in my head 'baby girl breathe focus you can do this just breathe' i take in a shaky breathe then another and start checking peoples pulses.

Dead , dead , dead, dead and alive yes "he can you hear me you need to wake up for me please" i say its the cocky guy from earlier i'm about to slap him awake when he opens his eyes gasping for air pressing my head to his i say a small thank god before bring my hands to his face to check his pupils "hey , how do you feel" he doesn't answer me but i know he's listening "shitty question i need to check on the others but ill be back okay so just dont close your eyes" he nods against my hands and i carry on my check.

i check the pilots before grabbing the first aid kits before i remember Gary and check on him agian "hey Gary come on sergeant open you'r eyes.. thank god" i check his face for any cuts then my eyes land on his mid section to see a shard of metal lodged in his ribs "oh god no no" my hands automatically go to the wound but one of his hands grab mine making my look at him with bleary eyes "how bad toots" he ask his voice uneven from drawing harsh breathes "sarge its bad ok bad but im here what do you need me to do ?" i ask tightening my hold on his hands "my tags take them to my family would ya tell em that dodgers suck" confused to the comment i nod and let some tears fall "its okay kid" "i will i'll tell them, does it hurt Gary?" i ask crying silently "no kid i had an angel with..." he sucks in one last breathe before his hand squeezes mine and then he's gone.

i reach up and close his eyes before taking his dog tags off his neck saying a silent pray before placing them on my own hiding them under my shirt before standing up wiping my eyes before walking grimly back to the guy before who was sat watching me silently "hey, you hurt any where" i ask my eyes roaming his body noticing some blood on shoulder "no... im fine" he says trying to stand up "i need to check on that" i say pointing to his shoulder he nods.

the wound isnt that bad needing only a couple of stitches "you need a couple of stitches but its fine" i open the first aid box before getting the supplies i need "i need you to bite on your t-shirt while i do this it's gonna hurt" he nods and does what i ask while i get to work surpressing the growls that slip through.

"how bad is it" he ask "bad , its just you and me till we find the others , we need to move" i say "we need to bury the bodies and take everything we're gonna need" i nod and allow him to stand up and we get to work making shallow graves for them when it comes to gary i cant do anything i just stand staring at him as he lifts him out of the wreckage.

i go to help but his voice stops me "its fine i can do this" i give him a grateful smile before starting through the bags taking out anything that can be useful.

as we gather everything we need with him chucking things out saying its too much stuff i nod but sneak in my toiletry bag before we move i spot some flowers on the edge ignoring him telling me to move picking some before placing one on each grave , pushing my emotions down before silently walking back over to him and setting off after him trying to ignore his intense stare.

we've been walking in silence and the adrenaline has started to wear of and i can start to feel the pain in my side i stop because its throbbing "stop i "try to say before it all goes black again.