Heartless
Disclaimer: Pirates of the Caribbean and Davy Jones don´t belong to me.
Summary: "Him carved out him own heart," so did she say. Yet so much emotions are boiling inside of him. He can´t feel, he doesn´t have a heart...but... why does it hurt so much? Spoilery, beware. Maybe.
There it was. Shaped like a heart, made from silver, attached to that tiny necklace. He eyed it with unwanted emotion. Could it be possible? The tiny machinery became alive and played this little tune...
Why was it possible? WHY?! Why did he still feel that emotion, why all those feelings? Why, why WHY?! Like a chant in his head, spinning back and forth, there and back again, always reeling...why?
He felt so much, yet he did not feel anything.
He was furious, he felt hate flowing through his body like blood once used to do. Raw, sheer anger. He hated her for what she did to him. Hate for her betrayal. Hate was a scorching fire burning inside of him, consuming what little rest was left of his humanity. Hate like cold steel, hate like blazing fire. Hate for all those emotione he had felt, for all those lies. Hate for his betrayal. Hate for his guilt.
Guilt, he felt so much guilt. How could he did, what he had done? Why had he done this? Guilt tasted bitter, was like a terrible weight upon his shoulders, like all force of the heavens pushing down on him. It made him sick only thinking of it, he felt so miserable.
Misery and sorrow. He was so sad and loney, without her, without those emotions, without love
Love. He did NOT love her. He didn´t. She betrayed him, she lied. There was no way he could still love her. He cut his heart out not to feel love anymore. It was in the chest,locked away, pounding. Why was he still feeling love? But he didn´t feel love. He couldn´t feel love, it was not possible.
He was cruel, unforgiving, harsh, treacherous, he was the sea. He had no emotions, none at all. No love, hate, guilt, sorrow, nothing.
There was a hole in his chest where his heart had been beating. It was not possible! There were no emotions left.
But why, did it hurt so much?
author´s talk: Davy Jones really had my heart in the third movie..when that one tear drop...heartbroken
