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Clone's Lament - The Song Of A Second-Hand Doll.
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This Fan-Poem is Copyright (c) 2002 by DBM.
"Neon Genesis Evangelion" is Copyright (c) 2002 by Gainax.
Sole web-posting at FanFiction.Net - Author's E-Mail address on File.
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With hair so blue, & iris red,
As any drop of blood I've shed…
I'm far too strange for those around,
With them, I find no common ground.
They don't see 'ME', they see my 'shell',
And no one sees my lonely hell.
I live a lie, instead of life,
I live alone, no future wife.
With 'parents', Alien, Human,
I'm not sure 'what' I really am.
'Albino lab rat', 'made' not 'bred',
Not born at all, 'detanked' instead.
No time for play, or even rest,
Must run a maze, or take a test.
This life on me it took a toll,
Left mind and soul just like a Doll.
Quiet and still when work is done,
No 'Where' to go, no 'Will' for fun.
No matter what I wish or plan,
I'm just a tool, enslaved by 'Man'.
For all my life and twice before,
I served his needs and fought his war.
Followed orders, near died from it,
Was I 'Thanked'? No! Never a bit!
There's only one who gives me hope,
My 'Shining Knight', he helps me cope.
With all I am, and cannot be,
He's still a friend, to one like me.
He cares for 'ME', not just my 'shell',
Although it's 'broke', he 'rings my bell'.
Respect and more, to me he shows,
My secret smile, he ONLY knows.
He treats me well, and cleans my room,
He doesn't see my feelings bloom.
His mother's mine, at least in part,
To him at least, I give my heart.
My love for him he'll never know,
Emotions deep, I cannot show.
The other girl treats him with scorn,
If he should die, will she him mourn?
Not knowing of my love sublime,
He tried to save One's life one time.
For sake of love, Two died forlorn,
The Third asleep, woke up 'reborn'.
A life had fled, yet still they lied,
They never told him One had died.
Yet, Two will play her final role,
As shadows in the Third's new soul.
'My' body now is fresh once more,
A hopeful soul within its core.
When scheming men in secret spring,
To use One as, tool, token, thing…
Their plans will fail, I'll tell you why,
Third's not the same as two who die…
Unknown to all, 'quiet and still',
I pushed myself and grew my 'will'.
What do I 'will' beyond this dawn?
I 'will' to be, A Rebel Pawn!
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Author's After Note - Poem based on one I wrote back in December 1999,
after seeing "Neon Genesis Evangelion" on SBS television in Australia.
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