A/n: Well, I got this idea earlier and I thought, why not try it? I hope this goes well...my KH stories never seem to get anywhere. And it bugs me...anyways here is the story:
Two Sides of the Same Coin 01
Axel...Lea...Confused...?
To her I am Lea; to him I am Axel. To myself, I am two sides of the same coin. I loved her first; I loved him second. She means a lot and is to be my wife; He is my lover and the one I want to stick by. Axel. Lea. Who am I really? Do I really care for him? Why does he keep running off anyways? Doesn't he love me…or…does he just want me to be happy because he believes he is still nothing but a Nobody? AkuRoku.
Axel Pov:
"Lea...Lea come on wake up..." A soft voice murmured into my ear. I groaned and moved a bit, trying to remember what happened to me. Oh yes, I saved Sora, no I really was saving him, right? Yeah. I think that is what I did, I can't remember. Who is Lea? Oh, right, me. My old name...I knew that, but I didn't think anyone knew that name sept for...Saix anymore. "Lea...Come on wake up..." I opened my eyes slowly and groaned, blinking a few times to make sure that I was actually awake.
There was a girl above me, looking down at me. She smiled when I opened my eyes and hugged me tightly. She sighed in relief and then shook her head a little bit. "Lea...Where have you been for the past few years? I've been so worried about you..." She closed her eyes. "Now you're finally back..." She sighed and snuggled into me lightly. I was confused... But then I smiled and then sighed softly.
"You could say I was living another life..." And I was living another life in reality...but I don't know if that was real or not anymore...waking here like this. She smiled and then chuckled, running a hand over the bottom of my eye and sighing.
"When did you get these now Lea?" She asked and chuckled. "You're Mum and Pa won't be pleased that you have a tattoo here...or this Roman numeral..." She ran a hand over his chest where VIII sat, telling him that his other self was no joke...and both were real. "It's...hot though you know...a guy with tattoos...perfect for the man I'm going to marry."
Wait. What?
Roxas Pov:
The last thing I remember was looking through Sora's eyes...and watching Axel fade away. It hurt me, more so with what he said. He was the only one I liked...he made me feel like I had a heart. I made him feel that way, and he made me feel that way. I felt like I did have a heart when I was around him...it felt so right... But now, he was gone, and I had no idea where I was. I sighed softly and got up, my head hurt. Also, I wasn't inside of Sora any longer. It appeared I was my own person. I shook my head then headed down the street. Where was I? I didn't have any idea, and it sucked.
"Ah, are you lost?" A sweet woman walked up to me. She had red hair that flowed to her mid-back, and the smile on her lips reminded me of Axel. Axel. I missed him already. I didn't want to speak…so I nodded and sighed softly. She frowned then and put her hand on my shoulder. "So many children keep ending up like you. Come with me, my husband and I help children find they're parents."
"I don't have any." I forced myself to say and she frowned not liking that apparently. She sighed and then kissed my forehead; a manner I believed was directed to calm me. She nodded then led me along, and honestly, I couldn't complain with it. I was more so worried about what was happening. What happened to Sora? Finally I heard her ask me something and I looked at her and frowned lightly. "No, I can't remember who they are. I do know who I am though. My name is Roxas." That was it. I sighed and then blinked as she led me into a home. It was rather plain, but it was nice. I spotted a man who…wow…he looked like Axel.
"Marina, who is this?" The man asked and then smiled at me. "Hello, my name is Rukon…" He held out his hand and I hesitantly shook it. Well…that was an odd name…both of them had odd names. Marina smiled at her husband, and I looked at them both.
"His name is Roxas, but he's not like the others dear. He's orphaned, doesn't even know who his parents happened to be at all…" Marina sighed softly and ran a hand through my hair. "I was thinking…he could stay here?" She asked and he blinked before nodding. She smiled and hugged me tightly. "Oh Roxas, you'll love it here…" She murmured and sighed softly. "Don't worry, we don't mind after all we have spare rooms here for you to use…" She sighed at that and I blinked some. I nodded before the door went slamming open behind us. She jumped and then sighed. "Kurina dear…" She spoke and turned. "You need to learn not to do that-"
"I found Lea!" The girl named Kurina yelled and smiled. "I found him! He was alive! He's been alive! He looks different but it's Lea!" She cried and smiled. I blinked and moved a bit behind Marina. "I can finally marry him~" She looked lost in a fantasy. She was happy though, and smiled. "Lea~ come on~ You're Mum and Pa are sure to want to see you~" I heard a grumble, and then the last person I expected to see walked in.
Our eyes locked.
"Axel-?"
"-Roxas?"
3rd Person:
They stared at each other for a long moment, not sure what to say. The others in the room were confused, but yet, none of them said anything. Roxas swallowed and he looked at Axel, he was pretty sure it was him but…at the same time he wasn't. Finally, the person that the girl called Lea spoke. "Roxas…is that…really you?" He whispered and well, Roxas knew then, this was Axel. He swallowed and nodded. The other smiled weakly before hugging him close. "Roxas…I thought I would never…" He trailed off and sighed contently. "Roxas…"
"…L-lea?" Marina finally spoke and he looked up. She sighed. "Oh Lea, it is you…then…who is Axel?" She murmured and well, that created an awkward place between them. Axel swallowed and then said.
"Ah, well…that's hard to explain…" He said and then chuckled some. "But yeah…Axel…another part of me?" He said then paused. "I hit my head you see, forgot I was Lea and so I was Axel! Got it memorized?" He smiled and then Roxas rolled his eyes before the girl named Kurina hugged Axel and snuggled close. He looked uneasy but he didn't argue with her. It hurt Roxas… He smiled though and moved back.
"Then you know Roxas here? I found him wandering around earlier…he says he doesn't have any parents and he doesn't have anywhere to go...Do you know who his parents are…?" Marina asked and Axel blinked.
"Kid doesn't have any." Axel replied. "As far as I recollect he has been staying where I have been and some others. Then he up and vanished." He shrugged. "No one knew where he went." Roxas saw the pain in his expression, but no one else seemed to notice it…good. Roxas smiled weakly then looked down. Axel was Lea, Lea was Axel…and Axel belonged here. He hurt, he realized that, his heart hurt, because he knew he had one with this much pain in his chest.
"Oh…that's sad…" Marina said and patted my shoulder. "Well you can stay here, I'm sure Lea won't mind, and Kurina either… Anyways, Kurina come on we need to start planning for the wedding…" And that was what made Roxas hurt the most. He clenched the fabric before his heart and closed his eyes. Axel was going to marry this girl…
"…Mum, no." Axel spoke and Roxas looked up at him. "Not right now, not for a while. I just got back, and as far as I know, I want to make sure I actually love her." That one hurt Kurina who then said.
"Why? Why do you have to think that you love me? You told me you loved me before you vanished that day!" She cried and Axel closed his eyes. He shook his head some and sighed.
"Kurina, I loved you then, not now. Get that right!" Axel snapped then. "As Axel I fell in love with someone else, and I don't know what to think! You try having two people telling you what you like and what you don't like! Inside of your mind! You don't get it!" He sighed and then closed his eyes again. "Besides, I'm not marrying anyone until I know what the hell is going on here…" He muttered.
Roxas was silent, but he was looking down. Axel…you'd be happy with her…after all I'll probably leave you again and you know it…so why not just marry her? Forget what I feel… You're a somebody now, but me…I'm still a nobody… He took a shaky breath and looked at Axel who was arguing with his dad about it. He smiled weakly before he moved past them all, thankfully the door was still open. He glanced back at them and then closed his eyes. "You deserve the one you loved first over me…because you will only have a heart break if you go with me…" He bit his lip before slipping out of the home, unnoticed, of course. He closed his eyes and sighed as he walked away.
Until, he heard footsteps and he saw swung around. Axel was looking right into his eyes, looking upset. Roxas bit his lip before he was kissed. Eyes closed and he groaned. Axel…why was he? He loved him…Roxas loved him so much but…Axel had a chance with someone other than him! That would probably love him more than he could ever but…still…Axel had found he was gone in a second and chased after him again.
"Don't…go…stop running away…from me…" Roxas paused then smiled at Axel, he didn't want to run…but he wanted the best for Axel…which he knew now, it wasn't him. Another kiss, this one was harsher than the last one, but it told Roxas that…Axel cared for him, more than he would ever understand.
"…Axel…I…"
Another kiss. A sealing kiss.
"Stop running."
"…I won't, as long as you promise to keep loving me…"
"…" No words and Roxas flinched, but Axel then sighed. "I want to, but you never know what will h-"
"I get it…I'm a nobody…she's a somebody, you're a somebody…" Roxas lightly pushed him away, trying not to show his hurt feelings. "…it's simple, I can't love you with a heart, but she can…then stop leading me on!" He cried and looked down. "You just…why…"
"Roxas…you don't get it…I'm two people, it's confusing…"
"Oh really? I was two people and you didn't get it either…"
"Roxas I'm sorry…"
"Are you really or are you just telling me that so I will stay?"
A kiss, tender, sweet, and it pulled him closer. "I'm two sides of the same coin...and two different things are in my heart…you're not a nobody Roxas…you're your own person…and I love you…" That was all Roxas needed to hear to kiss Axel back and moving closer to him. It was odd, he was feeling like he was just bound to get stuck in a web or words and lies. But...maybe he could show Axel that he was Axel, and not Lea... Lea was not Axel, that was his somebody...and if Axel was still him then...he would love him...right? He was confused with his own logic, but it sounded right.
"I love you to Axel..."
Unknown to the two boys... Kurina was watching them, and she was hurting inside. Lea was her love, not the blonde's. She couldn't let this happen! Lea loved her, and only her!
