Hello everyone! I'm doing a short little thing for the sake of updating! Please enjoy!
Warnings: KandaxLenalee
He was a senior in high school when she was a freshman. He, and his rather rigid personality, was the object of her undying love. He didn't notice her though, she didn't know him personally. They weren't friends. They weren't even acquaintances. She saw him in the hallway between classes at times and during lunch periods. She didn't even know his name for the longest time. Every now and then, fate would give her the opportunity to walk next to him down the hallways or up the stairs. Through her hair she could sneak inconspicuous glances at his face and wish that they were talking to each other, or being friends with each other, or just knowing each others names. Their relationship was like this for the most part, he blissfully unaware of her and she stupidly in love with him.
Until she heard rumors, rumors that he was dating someone. This certain someone also happened to be in her English class. She asked this person about these rumors and he laughed them off like a big joke. "Of course not, Kanda's not gay," was his reply. She was so relieved. His name was Lavi, he was friendly and they were in English class together. Kanda was his best friend. Lenalee wanted to be his best friend, what better way than to get to know the people around him? Slowly as the year progressed and she and Lavi's friendship grew, she grew to know Kanda more as well. Kanda gave the two of them rides at times and was surprisingly friendly despite his cold exterior.
"This is a sponge I have for my biology project." Lenalee showed it to the two of them as they walked to Kanda's car. "It's on sponges and creatures of the like."
"You should name it Spongebob!"
"And give it pants?"
Kanda stared at the two of them before pitching in a line. "Don't give it a face though; you don't want it to have a personality."
She looked at him. "Of course not." was all she could think of as a reply. When she talked to him, she pondered every word. Everything she said to him had been thought over millions and millions of times, but he didn't know that.
Every time she saw him in the hallway, she wanted to badly to say hi to him, but only if he did so first.
He never did.
She knew it wasn't because he didn't like her. He was just shy.
But so was she.
=x=
"I like him so much it's disgusting." She said to Lavi one day.
"Lenalee," Lavi said in quite a serious tone. "When Kanda likes someone, he really really likes them."
"So?"
"He likes someone."
"Who?"
"This girl named Lulu Bell."
Lenalee's face fell a thousand feet into the ground. "Really?"
"Yeah."
"Oh."
He didn't offer anymore comfort that just that.
Lulu Bell ended up dating another guy. The other guy just so happened to be Lavi.
"Lavi you son of a bitch! You knew about my feelings for her! Fuck you man, you knew! How could you fucking do this to me?" One could hear Kanda's angry screams all throughout the entire street. The empty airs made every angry syllable echo and vibrate.
"Geez, what can I say? Maybe she doesn't like you! Maybe she likes me better, what the hell's your problem? You weren't dating her or anything!"
Kanda stood there, his weight shifted to his left leg, his right foot tapping vigorously on the ground. His hand gripped the side of his face, the other propped on his hip. "I can't believe you, you out of all people. I should have known."
Lenalee could only watch sadly from in Kanda's car. How could he feel so strongly for this girl? Why didn't he see her at all? She snapped out of her misery when Kanda stepped back into the car and slammed the door.
"Lavi's a douchebag."
"Yeah." Lenalee watched as Kanda expertly rolled a joint and lit it, sucking all the malicious fumes. He released the smoke angrily. She watched as he tapped his fingers angrily on the steering wheel. "Lavi's such a douchebag. I mean, I told him about how, you know?" Lenalee nodded. "Yeah, that was a pretty dirty thing for him to do." Kanda grumbled and pulled up to Lenalee's house. "See you around." She waved at him and he stared straight ahead.
Lenalee went home and cried. She cried because she couldn't be that person that made him angry when someone else dated her. She cried because she knew she'd never have a chance with him. She cried because he doesn't say hi to her in the halls at school.
She cried for him.
=x=
Graduation came too soon. She didn't even find him to say congratulations. She later learned that he went to have lunch straight afterwards. He went to eat with his friends. She hadn't expected to be invited. She wasn't his friend; she was only that creepy little girl with a crazy obsession with him. She later learned that he was going to the state university.
That became her dream.
To go there.
So they could see each other once again.
=x=
She went there.
Everything she had ever done since they met was for him. Every test she took to get a good grade, every class she took to get a nicer looking resume, it was all for him.
He didn't understand. He already had another girlfriend. He, after all these years, looked no different than he did when she first saw him. His hair long and sleek, his frame skinny, everything was still the same.
She wanted to tell him everything.
Upon seeing the new girlfriend, she just couldn't bring herself to do it. The only thing she could muster her courage to say was, "I thought of you all the time when you weren't here anymore. I thought of you so much. Did none of those brainwaves reach you?"
