I was back in Forks, Washington for the first time in four years. I haven't returned ever since that fateful night at our high school graduation party. The night Edward Cullen left me brokenhearted. He was so cold. My heart ached as I cringed at the memory that seemed so distant but replayed viciously in my head on a daily basis. I wanted to forget about him, oh how I wished I could, but I couldn't. Edward Cullen was permanently attached to me; I was ruined for a future with another man. The last words he spoke to me left open wounds on my heart, not yet healed, even after four years.

Four Years Earlier

Alice and Edward were having a graduation party at their house. As I pulled up to the huge mansion, I could hear the booming bass of music and the lively chatter of fellow graduates coming from in and outside of the house. I climbed out of my ancient, faded red truck and quickly made my way inside to find my best friend and the love of my life. The house bustled with a slew of people and boisterous activity. It looked more like a club inside instead of a house. The ceilings were adorned with balloons and streamers; there were even strobe lights that looked like they were dancing along with the music. I shook my head and smiled to myself; leave it to Alice to go all out and make everything perfect in her vision. I looked across the room to see Alice quickly making her way towards me.

"Bella!" she yelled over the music. She looked fashionable as always in a strapless short black dressed combined with silver glitter pumps, making her about the same height as me. She enthusiastically gave me a peck on the cheek and pulled me into a hug.

"It's about time you got here. What took you so long?"

"I had to do a few things before I came here. Thank you for the dress, I actually love it."

"It was my pleasure Bella," Alice chortled. I had no choice but to laugh with her. She along with Charlie got me to wear a dress. It was a deep blue strapless sundress, simple and comfortable, right up my alley. I matched it with a pair of black and blue wedge sandals.

"Where's Edward?" I finally managed to ask her.

"He's out back with Jasper."

I carefully made my way through the crowd of dancing hormonal teenagers as walked out onto the back porch where I found Edward and Jasper chatting animatedly. The conversation broke instantly once Edward turned his head in my direction. I was about to step forward before I stopped, frozen in my tracks. Something was seriously wrong with Edward. I looked into his emerald green eyes. They were cold and held complete sadness in their depths. I was bemused, I rarely ever seen him look this way and it bothered me. Edward always was so elated in my presence, but now he looked distant. Jasper gave Edward a quick squeeze on his shoulder before turning away from him. Jasper forced a smile on his face before he spoke to me.

"Hello Bella. You look lovely tonight."

"Um, Thanks Jazz. Is Edward alright?" I asked shakily. I could barely keep down the lump that was rising in my throat.

Jasper hesitated momentarily to answer my question. "I…I…I gotta go Bella," he finally murmured before swiftly making his retreat into the house leaving Edward and I alone. I finally found the courage to walk over to Edward, demanding him to tell me what was bothering him.

"Edward, what's going on?" I asked coolly. Edward didn't respond, he didn't even look at me. I waited for about two minutes before he finally looked at me, his face masked without any expression. I couldn't read his features at all. At last he spoke, I could hardly hear what he said but I could read his lips. It shattered my heart into a million little pieces. I don't want to be with you anymore Bella. I couldn't describe the unfathomable pain I felt in that moment. I felt like I was slowly dying inside, I was crushed. I couldn't stay there a moment longer; I hurriedly ran back inside to get my keys and made my way to my truck. I didn't stop to say goodbye to anyone not even Alice. I got in my truck and drove it as fast as it possibly could. I didn't cry until I got to my room, locking my door so Charlie couldn't get in. I was disconnected from the world. Over the next few months, I dodged multiple calls from my mother, Renee, Alice and Jacob, as well as many of my other friends. I didn't want to talk anyone. No one else mattered at that time. I was severely depressed and it scared the hell out of Charlie, that much I could tell.

I finally opened up about a week before leaving for Brown University in Providence, Rhode Island. It was time for me to stop wallowing in pain and let the world back into my life. I spent time with all of my friends except for Alice. I wasn't quite ready to face her yet; it was going to take a long time before I walked down that road. I lived in the slums of loneliness for two months and I was determined not to dive back in.

I was now at the airport waiting for my flight. Charlie managed to put a small smile on his face as he waited with me.

"I'm gonna miss you Bells," he spoke sadly.

"I'm gonna miss you, too Dad." I gave him a hug as tears filled my eyes and quickly fell. I held onto him for a few minutes before the woman over the intercom announced that my plane just arrived. I unwillingly let go of Charlie and said good-bye as I made my way over to my plane. I glanced at Charlie one more time and waved before I walked away from Forks.

-O-

Now looking out the window of Charlie's cruiser the sky matched my apparent mood, gloomy and grey. It was typical for Forks, cloud cover and barely any sun. It was different yet so familiar at the same time. The green imagery was stunning, I reveled in it. This was home. The place I've avoided for four years, the place I missed everyday even though it held so much hopelessness and despair. Charlie finally broke the silence.

"It's good to have you back home Bells."

"I know. I'm happy to be back Dad," I said even though it wasn't completely true. A huge part of me dwelled on the fact that I would eventually see him again.


A/N: This story is going to be a few chapters long. I'll try to add a new chapter every two days.