This is a short fan fiction and... I really don't know why I did this. Oh, well! It just came to me. Aw, heck, this is so stupid...
Chapter one
I can feel it in my heart... the things I didn't find the guts to tell...
"Tohru? Are you alright?"
The brown haired didn't move from her spot, she didn't even turn to face the concerned neko. She kept her head in the same spot, not taking a moment to even respond. She just sat there with her back turned, faced towards the hospital bed silently.
I can feel it rising through my very body... my very heart...
"Why...?" Tohru whispered.
The very heart... of which didn't mature fast enough...
"W-what?" Kyo stood at the door, watching the miserable girl to whom he loved.
Without turning she softly touched the hand on the hospital sheets. "I'm fine Kyo-kun..." she said barely louder than a whisper.
... to say our final goodbyes...
'No, your not...' Kyo thought, it hurt him so much to see her hurting like this. Miserable, sorrow, shock... Kyo couldn't even come to use the words to describe her emotions at this moment. "But your-"
Tohru cut him off. "Please Kyo-kun..." she turned around to fully face the orange headed boy. "Please..." she whispered, tears in her eyes and pleading. "Please try to understand..."
Kyo felt his insides churn, he couldn't see her like this. "... alright..." he left the dim lit room.
... why can't I see you?... where are you my love?...
Tohru turned the chair back to the hospital bed. She stared at the pail boy who's hand she was holding. She remained silent, she closed her wet blue eyes. Her shoulders shook as her weeping returned. "Y-Yuki... why did you leave me?" she whispered as she tightened her grip on Yuki's I've cold hand. "Why...?"
...I miss you so...
Her hair swayed as a slight breeze swept around the room. Tohru lifted her newly wet eyes to glance at the window. The sun was slowly setting behind the trees. All the colors melted together within pink, red, orange... and all other colors that go into that combination. More tears made their was down her pale cheeks.
...Come back to me... I need you...!
Tohru rubbed her eyes, though it didn't matter. They where always replaced by new ones.
...You are the only one who can keep my heart beating...
She stood and walked over to the window and rested her elbows on the window seal. She gently put her cupped her hands and rested her head on her hands.
'Yuki... why, why, why, why... I never go to tell you...!' she silently screamed.
...Why is it... that no matter how many times I scream your name...
'Yuki!' she silently pleaded tears now streaming down her face. Tohru walked back to the chair and clasped her fingers around his hand. I remember...
"You can erase my memories, but after promise you'll still be my friend?"
Yes... that one moment... Tohru gripped Yuki's hand... 'if only I'd known... that one day, I... I would come love you this much...' she thought sadly.
...I've always remembered... the day we first became friends...
She looked at his face. She'd always thought of him as a prince... but... there seemed to be no happy ending in this fairy tail... It's more like a fairy tail than anything else. A handsome, noble prince, a beautiful, loving princess... and the forbidden love that was always lingering in their thoughts.
...I've always remembered... the day we first became friends...but now, there's no one there to answer me...
The princess... Tohru gently lifted his hand to her cheek. Yuki... please come back...
...I finally know my reason for me! And your not here to share my life with...
Tohru's glistening eyes closed and more tears formed in the brim of her eyes. She remebered the times that she couldn't sleep, or had a nightmare. She would come downstairs care not to make any noise. There she would sneek around the corner and see Yuki under the kotatsu doing homework or eating a snack. She would walk in hoping not to startle him. They would talk for hours about whatever came to mind, sometimes nightmares.
...what about those nights that we stayed up talking? Who will I share that with?...
There was soft knock on the door, Tohru slightly jumped. 'Oh, gosh! What time is it?' Tohru noticed the sun had sunken a long time ago, and now it was completely dark. "Uh, yes?" she said gently setting Yuki's hand on the bed. The door slowly opened and she quickly whipped her eyes with her sleeves. Unfortunately not quick enough.
"Don't be that way Tohru-kun." Shigure poked his head in the room. His first look at Tohru and he frowned. He stepped inside the room, and closed the door behind him. "Oh, Tohru-kun..." he kneeled right in front of the girl. "...I sorry..."
Tohru gasped, "oh, no! Shigure-kun! You have nothing to apologize for! You did nothing wrong!" she explained. She sighed, and brock eye contact with the inu. "There's nothing you could have done..."
Shigure put his hand on her shoulder sympathetically. "The least thing I could to comfort you is give you a hug... but I can't do that either." Shigure smiled sadly. "But, Tohru?"
Tohru found it hard to avoid eye contact with the writer. She looked at Shigure tears at the brim of her eyes. "Yes?" she asked barely above a whisper.
"Would Yuki want you to mourn over his death?"
"Tohru's eyes widened, she wasn't expecting that. "I-I..."
"Tohru, Tohru, Tohru..." Shigure smiled warmly to her, though there was still sadness in his eyes. "Yuki would want you to be happy... to not be able to move foward, for you to be crying like this..." Shigure gently lifted his finger to her eyes and caught her falling tear. "It pains us so much... to see our beloved flower wilting with despair."
Tohru felt it hard not to smile at Shigure, he was right though. "Okay..."
Shigure smiled again, "good!" he stood up and patted Tohru on the head, 'you're a good girl Tohru...' Shigure turned his heal and walked towards the door. When he turned to see Tohru's pretty blue eyes. "Come and join us in a couple minutes, alright?" Tohru silently nodded.
I can feel it in my heart... my useless heart with only one thing to give...
As soon as Tohru made sure Shigure had left, stood up and put the chair in the corner of the room. She walked over to the door, but turned to look one last time at the on she loved the most. She opened the door to make sure no one was there, than shut the door, and slowly walked over to the bed one last time.
Tohru felt hot tears fall from her eyes, as she prepared to say the words she never could before.
"Yuki... I love you... more than anything in the world..." she slowly leaned down and closed her eyes. Her lips gently touched his, at this, her mind went blank. She couldn't think, not like she needed to right now. Tohru couldn't breathe, she couldn't stop crying. But her tears weren't caused by joyfulness, she knew this. They where caused by despair and misery. This was the first and last time she would ever touch his lips. Tohru didn't feel embarrassed or shy, there was no reason to. She knew that what she was doing was right and her actions where out of the love that had been building up inside her for so long... her parted his, wishing, praying, begging that this would also be like a fairy tail. When the kiss would go beyond the limits of death and there would be life again. He would open up his eyes and all would be okay.
Wishful thinking.
It's not a fairy tail, there wouldn't be any resurrecting... her prince was truly gone... never to come back.
Tohru, backed away from the bed, eyes closed. Prepared to say her last goodbyes. "Yuki... my prince... I'll see you again someday... I promise you..."
...because I was born for you, and you alone...
Tohru silently bowed, walked over to the door. Stopping one more time, almost turning one more time... but knew she wouldn't be able to leave if she chanced another glance. She whipped her tears and shut the door.
...You are my everything ...I can feel it in my heart...
