Make Me Go Away

All that I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands

He knew what I wanted. He knew it was unstoppable; I was unstoppable. As my hands clutched the mike, he knew what was running through my head. Oh, He always knew. He knew that every faucet of my diamond coated skin called for him, that my heart was aching for his acceptance. How he relished in the simple fact that my heart was still beating. He knew that my soul buzzed with anticipation, just as his does, for the moment his own will collapses and finally gives in to what is his, what has always been his. He knows that he is mine and that he will not hold on for long and when that moment happens… I will consume him.

That's how it went

My hands moved sensually on the mike stand. The crowd cheering as I carried on with the song. My hips followed the beat, overcoat swaying hoping to satisfy one man and one man only. I hoped he felt tension for allowing other men to look at me. I hoped he couldn't stand to breath in the scent of the emotions hanging over the crowd. I would take joy in my own brand of torture, a brand made specifically for him. I planned to make this night the best of his life, but for me to give him everything he deserves he must learn to take what he desires so dearly.

I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh, yeah, yeah

The overcoat was the first article of clothing to be removed. I searched in the crowd wanting to see his reaction. Ah, his eyes narrowed as he caught on to what I was doing, his copper colored muscles rippled, and his nostrils flared. His glare was not to be taken lightly as it seemed he was trying to send daggers through his eyes to my lace covered front.

I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you

He would not accept the bond formed by the spirits'. He would not let me through to him so my path had to be forged by whatever techniques at my disposal. Tonight was the night he would give in, now is the moment he would concede in letting me know him, and in turn, him know me.

You don't know me

Not yet.

Don't ignore me

You can't.

You don't want me there

Stop pretending.

You just shut me out
You don't know me

But, you will.

Don't ignore me
If you had your way

Oh, the possibilities of having mine.

You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

Because I'll never go away.

(That I'm so unwanted)

The thought is laughable.

No, I just don't understand why
you won't talk to me

The moment you realize I was built for you is when you'll find true happiness. I can't pretend to understand why you would shun me. I watch as you make your way through to the front of the crowd removing all that stand in your way. You pant, you snarl, and growl; choosing to believe I am just your best friend's girlfriend, that your instinct to protect is merely provoked by the lewd comments thrown by those who yearn for me, want me.

It hurts that I'm so unwanted for nothing

I will not pretend that your cold shoulder towards me does not hurt. I will not fake happiness even for your own sanity. If loosing it means that I can have even one moment with you I would gladly sacrifice it. This is not some petty romance novel; I will not pine for you upon my balcony waiting for you to accept my proposal for courtship. I will not cry the rest of my nights to sleep hoping that you will change your while curled up against some retched female daring to stake a claim on what is mine!

Don't talk words against me

Do not continue to fight what you feel. Now is the time to disregard what others may think, slight their feelings. If it were worth while to argue a paradox, one might maintain that nature, but it is not and I will not let you. Tonight is a night of freedom and bliss, so come to me.

I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you

You stand stock still.

You don't know me

But the truths of my words are too tempting.

Don't ignore me

You reach a conclusion.

You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me

Do you feel the hurt in my words?

Don't ignore me

Will you accept my offer?

If you had your way
You'd just shut me up

You make your way onto the stage, each step bringing you closer to me. "I will ask this question one last time… Do you accept my offer?" I breathed heavily into the question, forgetting the crowd as I focused on him, always and only him.

Make me go away

"I do."

Make me go away

"Then take me away."

I tried to belong

As he took me away I reflected on all of the trouble this benign dog had given me. The enraged the bar fights, the jealousy, the heart aches, the lost friends, and soon to be lost fiancé.

It didn't seem wrong

Too much to count.

My head aches

And I hoped it would be worth it.

It's been so long

My heart couldn't take all the rejection thrown at me. He would suffer for how hard I fought for him; he would not get off easy for refusing his own heart and hurting me in the process.

I'll write this song
If that's what it takes

He took off running after pushing through the exit door down stage left pulling me along with him. Different people, buildings, and greenery passed us by as he led me to our first meeting place on La Plush beach where the bonfires were held. Once there I sat him on one of the logs placed specifically for the legends told by the elder council.

You don't know me

"Because you wouldn't let yourself."

Don't ignore me

"Because you know I speak the truth.

You don't want me there

"With those men because you want me all to yourself.

You just shut me out

"Because you don't want to hurt Jake, but he's not what's important here.

You don't know me

"But you can.

Don't ignore me

"Because you can no longer afford to.

If you had your way

"I'd be happy and merry with Jake.

You'd just shut me up

"But you love me…

Make me go away

"So, you can't let go."

You don't know me
Don't ignore me

He Says

"I love you.

You don't want me there
You just shut me out

"I always have.

You don't know me
Don't ignore me

"So I won't let go.

If you had your way
You'd just shut me up

"I couldn't bear to let go.

Make me go away

"Make me go away.

Make me go away

"For his sake,

Make me go away

"Please, make me go away…"

As he begged me, I could not find purchase anywhere in my mind telling me that this was wrong, that he was wrong. As he clutched me tighter with each word, there was not one single iota in my head informing me that this man was not the one for me. With everything that I was I knew that this was the one thing I could not give him, what he was asking for was unthinkable.

I fought too hard to give him up now.

"…I love you too Quil", I said and he crumbled in my arms crying and thanking me at the same time. I shed tears at the release I felt for having this blubbering man in my arms, at finally having something go my way. This man, this werewolf, was more than I could ever deserve and I would accept every bit of him, claws and all.

Make me go…