Hi! This is kind of my first ever Doctor Who fic and I'm aware of the oocness of the Doctor, sorry about that. I'm assuming everyone is a little out of character when they're angst-ing.
Disclaimer: I don't own Doctor Who because if I did, Ten would have been able to see Bad Wolf/The Moment in DotD.
He never thought that he'd regret rambling to Rose. Rambling on was what he did, to distract himself from the past, from the War and his lost home.
He started noticing that when he rambled to Martha or Donna, it wasn't because he could see people dying, it was because he saw her. Saw her smiling or just standing close, in her pink and yellow splendor. (And crying on Bad Wolf Bay, but he pushes that out of his mind.)
Hello! Oka-new teeth. That's weird. So where was I? Oh, that's right — Barcelona!
(He could have kissed her again, or even remind her he kissed her, partly because he needed to save her from the Time Vortex, and partly because he lo...but no, he had to talk about his teeth. Does she even remember that they kissed? Sure, Cassandra/Rose and him kissed but that really doesn't count.)
It wasn't because he could hear the explosions or the screaming. It was because he could hear her. Hear her calling his name, or laughing. Can hear her saying I love you, but he ignores that because he knows he never said it back.
Lastly, he didn't ramble because he could feel the shock of losing his planet or losing his friends one by one. It was because he felt the emptiness of losing her. As she hurtled past and closer to the Void. And the double feeling of heartbreak as he left her on the beach sobbing.
The one adventure I can never have.
He regrets rambling about bananas and dogs with no noses to Rose, instead of telling her how he felt. Why didn't he? It wasn't because he was scared of rejection. (Cassandra had practically pushed all the doubts that Rose didn't like him away.)
Was it because he was scared? Psh, Time Lords don't get scared.
Well.
Sometimes they do.
But that's only in the heat of battle! They don't get scared because they're unsure of what comes next! Of the thought that one day she will die!
But he did.
He had so many chances.
If you get back in touch... if you talk to Rose... just tell her... tell her I...
But he assumed she knew.
Maybe she did?
And I suppose, this is my last chance to say it.
So he'll continue to talk about other planets, (not his own,) and the sights, to the woman he knows admires him, and to the woman he knows would never dream of admiring him that way.
He regrets rambling to Rose, because those were precious seconds he could have told her.
Rose Tyler-
I...
I hope you enjoyed that! Yes I was italics, brackets and comma crazy here...
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