A/N: New 10 part fic :) should be updating every Tuesday as most of it is pre-written, AU from 3x01! Reviews would be great!
We Found Love In A Hopeless Place
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"I still can't believe this case" Alex mumbled as he sat in the conference room with Addison.
"Hmm?" she said looking up at him.
"This case it's just, how could you physically put a baby in a trash can? Actually pick him up, and just put him in there"
"People do stupid things when they're scared" Addison said quietly.
"I guess" he sighed before looking back at his chart, he looked back up briefly at Addison, frowning at her pale appearance, he put it down to the events of the prom until she shot from her seat and threw up in the trash can "Whoa hey, hey it's ok, breathe" he said moving quickly to her side and rubbing her back "It's ok, just breathe" she hunched over and threw up again, she took a second before standing up, pulling some tissue from her pocket and wiping her mouth, Alex grabbed a bottle of water off the table and handed it to her, she took a sip and shuddered a little.
"You ok?" he asked.
"Yeah, yeah I'm good, I'm fine" she breathed out.
"You should go home, you can't be here and be sick"
"I'm not sick" she protested, sitting back down in her chair.
"I hate to point out the obvious but, you just threw up, twice"
"I'm not sick" she repeated "I'm pregnant….right" she added with a slight laugh as he just stared at her "Typical huh? My husband gets me pregnant then sleeps with someone else at the stupid prom, and doesn't even bother to tell me, just leaves her panties in his tux"
"Does he…"
"No" she said quietly "Nobody knows, just, you"
"You need to tell him" he said softly "I know he's an ass but, you need to tell him"
"I know" she sighed "I just, I don't know how, not now anyway, I've known for about a week, and I just, couldn't find the words, but then I thought, the prom, it's perfect, we'll go home after the prom and I'll tell him and, well, then he left me standing there alone to chase after her so, I backed out"
"I'm sorry" he said wiping a tear from her cheek with his thumb "I'm sorry he did that, I'm sorry they both did that, you don't deserve that"
"I slept with his best friend, I deserve it"
"No, you don't" Alex said firmly "He gave you another chance, he didn't sign the divorce papers, he said he wanted to make it work, you do not deserve what he did to you, ok? And don't let anyone tell you otherwise"
"I'm so scared" she whispered tearfully "What if he doesn't want this baby? I mean, I don't want to be with him, I don't, we need to get a divorce, we have too, but, what if he doesn't want the baby, what if, he just wants to be with her"
"Then that's his mistake, you give him a choice, he's either in or he's out, if he's out, then you move on, and you concentrate on this baby, and he can explain to them why he didn't want to be in their life, that isn't on you, that's on him, so you need to clean yourself up, he's stuck in quarantine with O'Malley right now, but when he comes out, you take him to one side, and you tell him, you can do this Addison"
"Ok" she sniffled "I'll tell him, I'll tell him"
"Good" he said softly "You go and get some rest, I can deal with this for now"
"But…"
"You look exhausted, go and get some rest, I've got this, I'll come and get you if there's a problem, I promise"
"Ok" she sighed "Ok well, thank you and, can you just…."
"Your secrets safe with me" he said softly, Addison leaned forward and kissed his cheek before leaving the room, she walked into the nearest on-call room and lay down, her hands coming to her flat stomach, she curled up on the bed, closed her eyes, and slowly fell to sleep.
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"Go on" Alex said softly as he stood in the hallway with Addison hours later, watching Derek and George be freed from the locker room "I'll wait right here"
"Ok" she breathed out, she let out another sigh before approaching Derek "We need to talk"
"I was just…."
"No Derek, we need to talk now" she said firmly.
"Ok" he nodded, she took his arm and led him into the nearest empty room.
"I know" she said simply "About you and Meredith at the prom, I know, I have her panties in my bag, haven't quite decided what I want to do with them yet" she said with a nervous laugh "I'm clearing out my stuff from the trailer and calling my lawyer tonight, and you'll get the papers, signed and ready to send"
"Addie…." he started.
"Don't call me Addie" she said firmly "And I'm not finished, you need to look at this" she said pulling a white stick she had kept with her all week from her pocket and handing it to him.
"Wha...what the…what is this?" he stuttered "Is this…"
"Mine" Addison said quietly "I think I'm about 7 weeks, I've known for a week, and, I was going to tell you sooner, I was, but I was nervous and, I wanted to tell you after the prom but, obviously that didn't happen, but you need to know, because this is your baby too, I don't need anything, I don't want anything, you just have to make a choice, you're either in or you're out, you don't get to change your mind, the ball's in your court Derek" she shrugged before going to leave the room.
"No wait" he said quickly, she turned around to face him and looked at him expectantly "I'm in" he sighed "Of course I'm in, I'm not walking out on you when you're pregnant with my child I, I can't do that so, I'm in, we don't have to get a divorce, we can fix this, we can be a family"
"Oh no Derek we're still getting a divorce" she said simply "I don't ever want to be anywhere near you again, you can be a Dad, you can be there for this baby, but you won't be there for me, I have friends for that, I'd rather you not be with me out of obligation, again" she added dryly "We, are so over" she let out a laugh and left the room, leaving Derek slightly stunned.
"Hey, how'd it go?" Alex asked as she approached him.
"He said we should fix this and be a family" she said disbelievingly.
"And what did you say?" Alex frowned.
"Told him he could stick it" she said proudly "He can be a Dad, but that's all he'll ever be"
"Good" he smiled "Well, I need to go, I promised I'd stop by and check on Izzie"
"How is she?" Addison asked softly.
"A mess" he sighed "She won't change, she's lying on the bathroom floor in her dress and, she won't change or, move or, anything"
"She'll be ok" she said squeezing his arm softly "She just needs a little time"
"Yeah I guess" he said quietly "Lunch tomorrow, me and you, celebrate the secret news"
"I'd like that" Addison smiled "Thank you for today"
"Anytime" Alex said softly, he kissed her cheek and squeezed her hand before leaving with a little wave in her direction. Addison smiled to herself all the way towards her locker.
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"Hey" Alex said walking into Meredith's kitchen "You ok?" he frowned when she stared at him blankly.
"Addison's pregnant" she said disbelievingly.
"You spoke to Shepherd huh?" he sighed sitting down next to her.
"You, you know?" she stuttered "How do you know?"
"I've been working with her all day, she almost threw up on me, and she just, said it" he said with a slight laugh "Mer she doesn't want him back"
"No, no I know he, he said that it's just, I don't know if I can, support him through this" she said quietly "I told him I needed time to think because, Alex he broke me, he broke me and now he's saying he loves me and I need to choose between him and Finn and, Finn is great, Finn is kind and sweet and, he has plans and, and Derek, I mean he's Derek Alex, but now there's the baby and, Addison really won't want me near her child after what I've done to her, god this is such a mess" she groaned, burying her face in her hands.
"Addison isn't that petty" Alex replied "Meredith if you want to be with Shepherd then just be with him, I mean, I don't like the guy very much but, you do, and I'll support you in anything you know that, but if he screws with you again, or Addison, I'm not going to refrain from hurting him" he said firmly.
"I didn't mean to sleep with him" she said quietly, resting her head on Alex's shoulder "I didn't, it just, we were yelling and, then he kissed me and, I couldn't stop it, I couldn't stop it but, I should have, Addison didn't, she didn't deserve that, I didn't mean to hurt her"
"You didn't, he did" Alex said stroking her hair a little "All she cares about right now is this baby"
"But still, I should, I should apologize, we were kind of friends y'know?"
"I know" he nodded "I think, I think maybe it'd be best for you to, end it with Finn, I know it's gonna suck but, Mer we all know you love Shepherd, and maybe, just wait for a little while, give it a month or so, let everyone adjust, and then maybe try again, if it's still what you want"
"When did you become the wise one?" Meredith smirked.
"I have no idea" Alex said with a soft laugh.
Chapter 2 to follow...
