A new beginning.
6 months ago.
"No one is perfect Angel!" my dad almost yelled, I've heard this all before though, he knew that, it was obvious. I felt like yelling back, I felt like fighting, there was no use though. "Daddy I really fucked up this time" I said, it surely sounded like more of a whimper. "It couldn't be that bad Angel, what is it you've done?"he said almost cautious. " Promise you're ready to hear this" I said.
"when your ready" I heard in an uncertain whisper.
"Three months ago I was walking home from the movie's with a friend, Jenna the one with beautiful curls and full lips, oh right anyway. Her house is halfway between here and the theatre, when we got there she said I could stay the night if I would like but I didn't have a way to ask you." I say. "get to the point Ember" he cut me off. Oh shit he used my real name he is getting mad. " Daddy it all happened so fast. I was walking the rest of the way home alone and suddenly I was grabbed he ripped off my jeans and undies and and and he" the tears were falling in full suit now as I sobbed.
" he fucked me, full force, it hurt so much I felt numb. There was no protection and when he was done he simply dropped me and walked off, I didn't know what to do, so I just stayed there. About an hour later I got up, put my clothes back on, there was blood because I was innocent daddy" I shuddered. "I made it home took off the clothes put them in a shoebox, hopped into the shower and just stood there hot water calming me for, you know what I don't really remember how long" I shivered a bit.
"Two months later i was throwing up a lot and barely eating anything, so i went to the doctors after school. I went alone I didn't want anyone to know about what happened. He did a bunch of blood and urine tests, I got the results back and..." I paused for a second. "Daddy, I'm pregnant!" I shouted.
We stayed silent for a while until he said " its his isn't it Ember, that guy who defiled you." I could only nod at that, I was scared and tired, I needed my daddy. He stared at me for a while then he simply reached his arms out grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. " I'm keeping it" I whispered. "it will be beautiful" he whispered back.
I sat down and he made me some hot coco, treating me like I turned five again, despite myself I almost laughed. " you'll have to stay here till the baby is born" he said. "oh and where would I be going even after that Daddy" i joked.
My dad sat down with our drinks and smiled softly handing me one. "After the baby is born you will be moving to a new town, that way you'll suffer no ridicule here and that son of a bitch won't come looking for you and my grand kid" he said in a stern manner. I blanked my daddy was going to push me out? How could he, i calmed myself, it made sense really.
Me and my child would be safe and happier, he would still come visit and stuff, i was sixteen, not a baby but I don't know if i was ready to be on my own. "you'll visit?" i asked him. "you'll be a few states away, so i will, only once a month or so." he smiled. I felt happier that I told him, I really did,but this was going to be a scary few months. " what about school I can't keep going I'll start to show and every one will notice." I said just remembering." don't worry I'll take care of that tomorrow" he said.
Current date.
I woke up in the hospital, most of the pain was gone now, I felt almost empty though. " oh Hunny you're finally awake, you slept quite a while once they took him to get cleaned up and weighed. I'll go get the nurse to bring him in for you, we have to think up a name." he smiled then went off almost running. " he is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen" I said as the nurse walked in. He squirmed to face me almost as if he knew it was my voice. "Zane, I am going to name him Zane." I said " Zane Fayt" my father cut in, " what a beautiful name" i said with a giggle.
My first morning home from the hospital with Zane Dad started packing the car getting ready to take me to my new home. I knew nothing about this place my dad hadn't even told me he found one " whats it like daddy?" I asked. " its small but beautiful i furnished and modelled the whole house for you and Zane.". "what state is it in daddy?' i mused. " you'll be moving to Maine sweety" he said with a smile, loading the last box in to the car.
I got Zane from Nana Jean put him in his car seat and we took off. Leaving everything and one I knew and loved for what would probably be the rest of my life. " I guess it's time for a new adventure" i said smiling at Zane who was in the back seat asleep. " enjoy it" my dad said. We had been driving for about eleven hours by the time I fell asleep., My dad would wake me when we got there.
