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GothicYuki: Okay here is another story for you all! jumps up and down And this is the first time that I have done this pairing yukiXseguchi... but here is where I start! ;; I think this will be interesting don't you? Just to let you Gravi fans know this is based off the manga not the anime. I manga was so much better than the anime, if you guys have not read the manga yet, I am telling you there is a lot more in it... a whole lot better than the anime! But then again instead of four DVDs you have to get 12 mangas. o0(I am sorry the anime had less detail than the manga, and the anime was also was poorly translated) deep sigh If I get more than six reviews I will continue, okies? Alright see you at the end of the chapter.

Don't Walk Away From Me...

Chapter 1: When I walk away

Seguchi's POV

I know how much it affected him. I know that he is hurting... but in this case, I really don't know what to do. I told him to stay away from Shuichi... but like the stubborn Yuki I know, he didn't listen. Sure I pulled Shuichi away a couple of times... but he always returned. And when Eiri asked me to stop, I did as he said. I don't want to be the cause of his pain, so I stopped. Just like he asked me to do. Now that Shuichi is gone Eiri is lost, and I have never seen him cry so much.

There was so much pain in his eyes...

I turned away from him. He said that he didn't want anyone's pity, that he didn't want anyone's help. No hugs. He simply wanted to be left alone. So when I did turn away from him, I walked out of the house, out into the night air. The rain pelted my face...my tears mixed with the droplets that splashed my cheeks. I didn't want to turn away... but that was his wish. He wanted me to leave, to not comfort him. It was a surprise to us all, Shuichi leaving Yuki, and moving to America. He said that he was tired of Yuki's jumping back and forth; out he went. That was over a week ago. I guess Eiri just realized that... Shuichi, is not coming back.

I couldn't believe it myself, why would Shuichi do such a thing to Eiri. What did he do to deserve this? I am afraid that Eiri... that Eiri will end up getting sick again. That one time that I saw that I panicked, I didn't know what to do. For God's sakes he was throwing up blood! I still shiver when ever I think back on that... or it will float into my head every now and then. It's like my mind doesn't want me forget. I don't live that far from Eiri either; I guess that is a good thing. I am more thankful now than I was ever was, after all I live so close to Yuki.

Yuki I don't want you to curl back up into that lonely shell again...

I was thinking all of this; I was in such a deep trance... that oddly enough I didn't even notice that I was at the steps of my apartment complex. I can't be such a space case sometimes, it is really odd. This time I didn't even notice that I was walking. If that's not sad then I don't know what is. My wife is out of town, she went to go and visit her father. She said that he needed some help around the temple; even though they are all basically simple chores... her father is getting old. She is such a sweet women, I am glad to have met her. Then again I have known her since I was 7. I feel that smile spread across my face, I always get that way when I start to think about her. Truly I am lucky. Once again so lost in thought that I am already up the stairs in front of my door. I am starting to think that I am missing out on a lot of things... it's like I am sleep walking. Maybe my black outs are basically caused by my thinking. But then again, that doesn't made sense now does it?

I take out my keys and all but shove the key into the keyhole. The door swings open with a gentle kick, and slowly I walk in shutting the door behind me. This is going to slowly drive me insane. When I know that Eiri is the way that he is now, and he doesn't want me to help him... this is going to drive me to the brink of insanity, or to the point where I can't stand it any more and rush over to Eiri's house. Knowing myself better than anyone else, I will give in and run over to his house. If I really wanted to, I could track down Shuichi and ruin his singing career. Even though he has ripped Yuki's heart apart, I bet he still wouldn't let me. Yes, he is what the Americans call a 'cold hearted bastard'. But it is amazing what crying can do to you.

I fall back onto my sofa before tossing my jacket aside. What on earth am I going to do to get Yuki off my mind? I grab the remote in a careless matter, and push the 'on' button. Up popped a colorful screen, and the shouting of voices... Anger arouse in my heart once again.

"So Mr. Shindou, how is it in America?" The reporter seemed to push the microphone up to Shuichi a little too quickly, and he some what backed away from it.

"It is far better than Japan. And the producers here are way more serious too." In a nervous matter Shuichi rubbed the back of his head. "It's nice here..."

"How is Yuki, right now?"

I almost boiled over! Why the hell would they ask something like that on T.V.? That is none of their fucking business! If they want to know how he is doing they should ask Eiri, not Shuichi!

"I wouldn't know that..." Shuichi's eyes lowered downward as if he saw something. "I called it quiets with him a while ago..." The reporters seemed to swarm around him like a bunch of angry bees. And Shuichi didn't seem to notice but after giving out that information he was not going to get out of there without telling more. "I don't want to talk about this any further..."

"Mr. Shindou, why did you guys brake up?" One girl demanded.

"What caused this sudden change of heart?" Another shouted. Even I want to know that one... go ahead, answer it you ass! I lean closer to the TV. screen. I mean we all do that sometimes. We are interested in what is on, so we lean forward as if to scope out more information.

"I don't want to tell you okay! Bug off!" He pushed the microphones out of his face. "This is my business, not anyone else's!" And for a spilt second I saw sorrow sweep across his features and then in a flash back to anger. It would be like Mr. Shindou to start to cry and make a scene right about now. But there was nothing, and for once... I was pissed that he didn't; I don't think he cares, or at least, not like he used too. As much as I wanted to watch more, I picked up the remote and turned off the TV. Sickening...

I am hoping that Eiri was not watching that. I think I will go check on him now. (I knew it, I would worry too much) I walk into the kitchen to pick up the phone, oh so quickly dial his number, and then it started to ring... once, twice, three times is a charm right? Another after that... why isn't he answering the phone? I try calling about two more times before I give up and, slam the phone down. Which I didn't intend to do, but that's what ended up happening. I swear I worry too much, but the phone is right there next to his bed. And he was in it when I left him.

As much as I wanted to move, my body would not let me. I intended to get up... but instead I lay back down on the couch, and closed my eyes. I am over reacting... Yuki is fine. And if he wants to be alone I should let him be alone, and not invade his wishes. Then slowly, I drifted away into a some what peaceful sleep. I don't want to worry, I try not to worry... but is there something I am over looking?

When my eyes opened up there was nothing but the bright light shining back at me. As a normal habit I roll over and close my eyes once again. I never truly noticed how comfortable this couch is... that is till now. Wait Eiri! I sprung out off the couch as if I had awoken from a horrible nightmare. I hear something tumble to the floor and my eyes trail downward. There on the ground was my cell phone. I gingerly reach down to pick it up, and took a look at the bright blue screen. 1 missed call! Oh shit! Of course I had it on vibrate because I found all of the ring tones that the cell phone came with where horribly annoying. I have found that the vibrate setting is sometimes not noticeable, and here is one of those times. I listen to the message that was left...

"It-its Yuki... I am guessing that you are asleep..." He sounded so far away... drifting... fading.
"You told me to call when I needed you and that is what I did... I-... beep...beep...beep... at 9:30pm end of message" What the hell! Oh shit! It is 11:30 now!

I don't know if I am over reacting or not! But I can tell you one thing for sure, I am truly freaked! I grab my coat and my keys and speed out the door. Not remembering to lock it... I rushed down the side walk and up the steps to Yuki's apartment complex. When I got to his door, I knocked on it, again, and again... I started to panic even more when he did not open up after the tenth knock. I turn the knob of the door, and it swayed open allowing me to enter. Why the hell was his door open! He always locks his door, due to the fact that a countless number of his fans have almost got in. I come in shutting the door behind me trying not to question the fact of the door being open any further.

I walk into the hall after checking the kitchen and there was a lonely light on in the bathroom which peered out it onto the carpet before it. The door was slightly open. When I went to push it open even further there was something in the way because it made a thud noise and didn't move any further. I push my head through the tight space that I was given only to pull back out and topple back onto the carpet beneath me. Yuki... what... what...

"Yuki!" I started to shake... I felt like I was going to fall apart.

"Yuki!" I cried out again. Oh please move, please; tell me that you are okay! Over come by fear, tears started to run down my face.

"Yuki!" Despite the blood that I saw on the floor and on him, I still wanted to believe that he is okay or that I really didn't wake up and this is a terrible nightmare.

"Oh God No!" I sobbed.

GothicYuki: Okay you guys are going to hate me now, but that is where chapter one is going to end. XP I hope that you like it so far! prays Anyways I will see you in the next chapter. Bye, oh and please review me, the horrible writer. sweat drop ;;