Author: Stargazer (Astra Illusia)
Pairing: Sirius/James
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: "I
just wanted to be thin."
Warnings:
Eating disorder
Translator: Kelmikiti (Finfanfun)
Beta: piladel
(Finfanfun)
A/N: I got rid off of eating disoder fics - until
meeting in Sello, which was wonderful, btw. We spoke about topic and
drew a conclusion that we need more this kind of fics.
So this is
for Kelmikiti who also translated this fic, and agentti, who likes
eating disorder fics too. And yes, it's Sirius/James. Although
Sirius/Remus is my OTP.
I wrote this in while music lesson, very
short and not so good, but I hope you like it :)
Broken
James's fingers carefully passed up and down on Sirius's spine, and
with the other hand he hugged the boy firmly to himself. Sirius was
cuddled up in James's arms, had buried his face to the other one's
shoulder and was making James's shirt wet, with the quiet crying.
James stroked Sirius's thin hair and desperately tried to find words
that would make the boy feel even a tiny bit better.
"I
didn't mean it" Sirius whispered and clawed into James's
shoulder with such a force, that it hurt.
"Forgive me, That
wasn't my intention."
James still didn't speak, only petted
his friends shrivelled body. He could clearly feel every bone, and it
made him feel bad to think about. Sirius's voice shivered. "I just
wanted to be thin. It was supposed to be easy"
"I
know, Sirius." James finally spoke. He would have tightened his
hug on the boy, if he wouldn't have been so scared that he would
break his friend's bones.
Sirius's small cry continued for almost
half an hour, but finally he stopped shivering. He had cried himself
to sleep, against James. The too thin body was see-through-like pale,
face red from the tears, hair messed up and their tips wetter by the
salty water.
Stargazer
