I couldn't see it. I was blinded by love. I didn't see all the hints you gave me, trying to distance the space between us, I just pulled you closer. I thought we had a bond between us, one that couldn't be broken but you slowly destroyed it, secretly, without me knowing.
I thought you were the one. The one I was going to spend the rest of my life with, eventually have a family with. My Nan was always telling me "Your not getting any younger, Dougie" or "hurry up before those good looks are replaced by wrinkles". Always the charmer, my Nan. I remember the first time you met her, she walked up to me and hugged me and whispered in my ear "Grandkids" and winked at me. You seemed to like her though, she was telling you all the embarrassing things that happened to me since I was 2.
It didn't get any better when you met my mom either, bloody woman. She was showing you all my baby photos, strangely they were all the ones of me. As a baby. In the bath. Why does she even have those. What would possess a Mother to take pictures of their child in the bath?
We were so close back then, You used to walk into the studio just to say "hi" or bring me lunch when I forgot to bring some, I never asked you to do that, you just did. The guys used to moan at me in rehearsals when I wasn't paying attention because I was texting you, saying nothing important though, just texting to say "I Love You" or "I Miss You".
Why is it so different now? What has changed? What have I done? Did I do something to hurt you?
These are questions that will probably never be answered.
