Just a short one shot after Holden's Manifesto. Had to be written.
Of course I don't own the characters.
A shower.
That was only thing on Amanda's mind walking out of the school. People were talking to her, asking her questions and she answered everything. As best as she could.
But she really wanted to get the blood off of her face.
It dried on her face and she didn't want to feel it, she wanted to wash it away, the way it felt, the way it tasted.
She had him, she had Holden and they shot him. He deserved to go to prison, but they didn't have to shoot him, she had him.
But now she wanted a shower.
Needed a shower.
"Yeah, ok" she said, Olivia told her something and she agreed, not completely sure what she agreed to.
"You're coming?" Fin asked.
"What?" Amanda looked at him.
"Liv just said I was taking you home" he gave her a worried look.
"Sure" she smiled at him.
They walked over to his car, she turned around for a moment before walking inside. Nick was staring at her, she could see the concern in his eyes.
A shower.
She took two showers.
The first one was to get the blood and disgust off of her. Watching the bloody water go down the drain.
The second shower was a couple of minutes later, she wrapped the towel around her body but it didn't feel good enough.
So she had to take another one, this time it was longer, and better.
It made her feel good, calmer.
She got dressed quickly and walked to the kitchen.
"Wanna eat something?" she asked Frannie and poured food into her bowl. Frannie walked to the bowl and Amanda watched her eating for a while.
"My turn" she said, half to herself and half to Frannie. She made her self a sandwich but after a couple of bites she didn't feel hungry anymore.
There was a knock on the door. Something inside of her wanted to just stay in the room, pretend she wasn't home. But she had a feeling it wouldn't be enough.
She walked to the door and looked through the peephole, she wasn't surprised.
"Amanda" he said once the door opened.
"Hey" she smiled, they stood there for a moment.
"Can I come in?" he asked her.
"Of course" she moved so he could walk into the apartment and once inside she closed the door.
"You ok?" he was looking at her with that concerned look of his.
"Already told you I'm fine" she smiled and he walked over to her.
"Amanda" he reached her hand, his eyes focused on hers.
"You don't think I'm ok?" she asked.
"I'm glad you're safe" he grabbed a hold of her hand gently, she didn't fight.
"I'm really fine Nick" she gave him a reassuring smile "I mean it"
"Good" he smiled at her, moving a little closer "it's not true"
"What isn't true?" her smiled turned from reassuring to questioning.
"What he'd said" now her smile faded and her eyes swayed to look at something behind him "you are not a notch or…"
"I know Nick, it's fine" now she moved away, letting his arm drop "we've talked about it, it's ok"
"It's no ok" he tried to get near her again "what we've talked about, it's in the past, and it's not like that for me anymore"
Amanda looked at him again, but she didn't talk.
"I care about you, I really care about you Amanda, it's more than just sex between us, much more" his hand reached hers again and she let him hold it.
She was still silent, but now she moved and wrapped her arms around him, he was a bit caught off guard but a second later he embraced her and placed his head over hers.
His shirt got a little moist, he realized she was crying and his hands softly caressed her back until she calmed down.
"I should go to sleep" she whispered into his chest "we have a long day tomorrow" she said and pulled away so she could look at him "will you stay with me?"
"Of course" he said, happy to see the smile forming on her lips, this smile looked like a happy smiled.
"Come on" he whispered and carried her to her bed. She rested her head on his chest and he had his arms wrapped around her. They fell asleep quickly, it was a tiring day, sleep felt good.
His arms felt good, he made her feel better than any shower could.
