Sandcastle

Her beautiful short blond hair was swaying with the breeze and her smile was still captivating. She was calling a little boy and my attention shifted from her to the little boy.

The little blond boy was carrying a small red pail and a small shovel as well. My mind suddenly drifted to the past.

-shshshsh-

"That's not how you do it Athrun!" Cagalli impatiently said. She took the pail from my hands and filled it again with wet sand and taught me the correct way of building one.

After 10 minutes, I finally got the hang of building a sandcastle. It was definitely harder than I thought. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the experience. It felt wonderful to feel like a child, and to spend more time with a special someone.

After an hour, we finally finished the task. The sandcastle that we built was not as beautiful as I hoped it would be, but I was really proud of it since it was my first time making one. Besides, Cagalli was beaming at me.

-shshshsh-

Getting out of my reverie, I noticed that Cagalli and the little boy have already started building a sandcastle. I wanted to join them but instead stayed where I was, since I knew that they wouldn't need my help. And as if confirming my thoughts, a certain silver-haired coordinator approached them and helped in the task at hand. I focused my attention to the fiery blonde who captured my heart. She was definitely happy and contented. I looked away since I can't take it anymore. Is it possible to feel two conflicting emotions at the same time? I am happy for her-that she finally found the happiness that she deserves and my heart was breaking as well, since I'm not a part of that happiness.

I could only blame myself…for being a coward and an idiot…for letting go of the chance of us being together again. I know I should have not come back, after all, I've been avoiding coming back to Orb for 9 years, but Kira was right, I need to face the reality. I need to move on….

And as if hearing me, Kira stood beside me and tapped my shoulder. He did not say anything, and I was grateful that he didn't. We stared at the happy family, of the family that could have been mine. I do not hate Yzak for loving Cagalli. I am just jealous that he is the one spending the rest of his life with her.

I really need to move on, and seeing them was the first step….

I looked at their sandcastle which was nearly finished, and remembered the sandcastles that Cagalli and I built in the past.

A sandcastle can be consumed by the ocean or destroyed by passersby or by wind and time itself.

In the end, our love turned out to be a sandcastle.

I could never and would never hate sandcastles…because it would always remind me of her.

I need to move on….

I want to move on….

but I can't.

-end-

AN: I suddenly felt like writing again. I hope you liked it despite the ending (just wanted to write something different).