It's been a while since I wrote, I know. I also know that I said I'd never do this again. Well, screw that. You're the only friend I seem to have who's stood by me. (Well, maybe Tara, but I'll get to that later.)

I thought my life couldn't get any worse after Buffy died, but it's like way beyond now. I was so upset when Tara moved out cuz she was the only one who even remembered I existed, but after last night, I totally get it. Willow is out of control. It's like magic is a drug and she's a junkie, or whatever it's called. I've never been so scared in my whole life. And that's saying a lot considering this past year!

Willow should have been the one to leave.

I can't even look at her right now. She deserves to be out there, not Tara. But Buffy just gives me this look when I say that, and I kinda don't know what it means. Like, compared to the other looks she gives me (when she bothers to notice me at all). It could be a "shut up, Dawn" or a "you wouldn't understand, Dawn" or a "she's my best friend and I'm just stuck with you, Dawn" or even an "I wish you'd leave, Dawn." She won't say anything about Tara, and that makes me SO MAD! Like, Tara was the only one anybody could ever count on! Okay, maybe by "anyone" I really mean me, but don't I matter? Just cuz I'm not a Scooby

Ugh. God, I hate everyone right now! I want to run away to wherever Tara is, but I haven't seen her since she left so I don't know where she went. Maybe she was able to get her old dorm room again. I mean, the rest of her stuff had to be somewhere else this whole time cuz she only moved clothes and some little things into the house when Mom died.

I can hear Willow crying in the shower again. I'm sick of that sound. She's the one who created all this mess. How could she not know that what she was doing would end up this way? Don't grownups know these things?

I'm about to start writing swear words if I keep talking about her. My arm hurts real bad and every time I think of it I want to smack Willow's face again. I wish Tara was here to make me feel better. She could use her magic to heal me, cuz she's powerful enough. But, now I get it. She's so powerful that she wouldn't use it, cuz that's not how you do things. That's not how things are supposed to work, I mean.

She'd make me feel better just by being my friend. And that's stronger than any spell Willow could ever do.