(This takes place during new moon when Bella finds the meadow and She figures out Jake is a werewolf. IT takes place when she hears Edward's voice when her life is in danger)
Chapter 1: Obsolete Meadow
There, I stepped under a low arch made by two vine maples; pushing past the chest high ferns into it.
The meadow. My meadow. Our meadow.
It looked exactly as it had before, exactly the same in every way: the wild flowers, various shapes and sizes, pink and yellow. The sun shine appeared above the trees, allowing the air to warm even in the shade.
I remembered all the good times that took place in this meadow: one of our first kisses, and he showed me how he sparkled in the sunlight.
There was only one difference my mind could think of: He is gone. I can't even stand to think his name without breaking down. These break downs have happened quite freaquently since they left. Every tought i had, whethere about Edward or Alice or anyone in the Cullen family. Why had they left me? All alone? Did i do something to affend them?
Ever since they left, I have been a train wreck. I haven't slept one peaceful night. Every night I wake up screaming, with tears dripping down my face. Every dream I have either has them, or me being killed by someone returning to avenge me.
Charlie worries about me all too much. I love him, and he loves me. He thinks my depression is his fault even though it is not.
Charlie wishes to send me to Renee. He wants to send me away, so if something were to happen to me, it would not be his fault. I hope something does happen to me; I have no reason to continue living.
It has left a whole in my chest like you wouldn't believe.
I didn't know how to live without him, but I had guides.
They are my family, my world, my everything.
If they were gone, I would have been nothing but ashes.
I had thought about taking myself off this spherical world before; but I could never find myself to strike the match
No life. No happiness. No friends.
I remembered Alice. She was mybest friend. Honestly, she was one of the only close friends I had ever had.
I didn't even mind that she dressed me up like a barbie doll. If she would return, I would let her dress me and take me shopping everday.
I was alone, and the hole in my chest grew as I observed my surroundings and witnessed my memories.
I stepped forward, hoping to hear his voice, only to receive silence. I moved again forward to obtain nothing, and concluding that my life must not be in danger. Or maybe I had officially gone mad and insane.
The meadow was peaceful and full of beautiful things. The surrounding trees and plants were gorgeous and breath-taking.
The hole in my chest expanded as I entered into the center of the meadow. The pain never subsided, even when the ground began to tremble. I sat down only to notice the ground was not shaking, I was.
The sobs escaping myself shook my whole body as my vision blurred and my chest hole ripped open.
I lay myself down as I wished I had never come back to this hatred meadow.
I slipped into unconsousness, where I would sleep for hours not know what would await me when I woke.
(Thank youu! please read and review because the reviews will encourage me to write more. -Twilightvolleyball9
This is only the begginning, i promise it gets MUCH better soon to come. longer chapters, more wolves, more vampires, fights, love, angst! read(:)
