Chapter 1 Devastation & Abuse

Takes place after Bella returns home in New Moon from Sam Euli finding her in the woods. In this story there is no Jacob because Jacob found his imprint. Victoria is still after Bella.

Bella is not who she used to be. She has lost a lot of weight. She always has dark bags under her eye lids and her complexion is very pale. She hardly eats and when she does it is just at dinner with her Dad, Charlie, and even then it is barely anything.

Currently, Bella is on her way to school letting her mind wander as it often does. There are days that are worse than others and this day just happens to begin terrible. The nightmares kept her awake and in a way she is grateful for them. They bring her to realize that the Cullens are real and how her heart that is so delicate can hurt so much pain. A pain that comes every day, as if, someone has torn apart her soul away from her body. As if her soul was ripped and cut up. Then it was thrown away.

Today is Friday which means she has all weekend to spend with Charlie. Oh joy.

Bella still parks in the same spot and as she does she looks at the spot where the Cullens would have parked. She closes her eye lids and her face is all scrunched up as if she is in pain. No one acknowledges Bella anymore. She did that to herself though. She closed herself off to everyone. Friends, well not anymore, who would have helped her or been there for her no longer want anything to do with her zombie like state.

Bella went to all her classes and it is just like she lost all aspect of her life, no longer wanting to live. She is very close to failing the school year. She doesn't do her homework or study for tests or quizzes. She just stands in place in gym class. No longer a person as most people call her the zombie, no recognition for anything. She sits by herself at lunch. As of today it has been four months since her family was ripped away from her.

At the end of the day Bella drives home and makes dinner for Charlie's benefit, not hers. Today she decided on spaghetti, something simple as her thoughts return to her. Charlie pulls in to the driveway as she is just finishing up.

"Hey Bells," Charlie replies as he puts his beer in the fridge.

"Hi," Bella replies.

They both sit down and eat dinner in silence with the only sound being the scraping of plates. It is an eerie silence, which makes Bella think about dying as she does every day. Bella always comes up with ways to try but never succeeds. She has currently been causing herself pain by cutting herself as it brings her comfort knowing that she has no purpose but brings all her thoughts at bay. Why is she alive? Why is she not good enough? Why does no one love or care for her? Why…. And it just goes on and on. She thinks herself as worthless. Dinner ends and Bella washes up all the dishes but it won't end good by the end of the night it never does anymore.

About an hour later Charlie is drunk and heads upstairs to his daughter whom he no longer cares about and thinks of her as a burden whom he is done with.

"Bella," Charlie slurs.

"Yea Dad," Bella mumbles.

Charlie hits her across her face. "Dinner was disguising as you are too. I am tired of your poor attitude. You don't even have one," he yells at her.

"I know. I'm sorry. I'll try har," Bella mumbles before she is hit across with such force that she is knocked to the ground.

"I don't want to hear your sorry excuses," Charlie asserts. "I am done with no good for nothing self. Ever since the Cullens left you are nothing without them or me. I am giving you your last night here tonight and then I want you gone," Charlie slurs as he kicks her in her back and stomach several times each with as must force as he can muster.

"Dad please stop I'll do anything," Bella replies before she is literally held to the floor and Charlie is choking her out. He then breaks his beer bottle. He picks up a sharp piece and cuts her down both cheeks, arms, and legs as Bella tries to thrash against him with no luck.

"Ok I'll be gone," Bella whispers before blackness engulfs her.

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