Author's note: I haven't written in years so excuse me if this just completely sucks...

"Benson." Olivia pulled her phone out of her pocket and answered as she walked out of the precinct completely exhausted.

"Hello to you too Detective." Alex smirked when the detective answered. She was stuck at her office late again. She had been for the last week.

"Counselor, what can I do for you?" Olivia was still completely in work mode. Cragen told her to go home and not come in the following day. She hadn't left the 1-6 in days. This last case had her drained.

"Stop by my office, Liv? I have a few questions about the case." The ADA knew it was the last thing Olivia would want to talk about. Alex heard Olivia take a deep breath and sigh.

"I'll be there soon. I was just heading out of the precinct." Olivia got into her car and just stared out of the windshield.

"Thank you Detective. I'll see you when you arrive." Alex looked down at her paper work as they said goodbye. She knew the case was taking a toll on everyone working it.

There was a knock on the door as she was getting lost in another report. She looked up from her desk and saw Olivia standing in the doorway. Alex couldn't help but smile when she saw Olivia. Well, that was if they weren't arguing over a case. She had always been drawn to the brunette woman. No one would ever know though. Alex was an extremely private person. She had spent so much time creating a name for herself, she refused to let her personal life interfere. Plus, there was no way in hell Olivia would ever feel the same way about her.

"You needed to see me Alex?" Olivia said quietly as she was still standing in the door way. She smiled as she went in and closed the door. Behind her smile though, you could see the exhaustion.

"Just a few questions, Liv. This case is driving me insane and making me look over my shoulder constantly." Alex looked back down at her documents and sighed. Two female prosecutors had already been attacked in the last week. Both were followed into their homes, beaten and raped.

After they finished up Olivia stood up to go. She could see the look on Alex's face as the blonde watched her.

"Liv, when was the last time you had an actual meal?" Alex looked up at Olivia with her piercing blue eyes.

"Excluding vending machine food? Like a week ago before this case." Olivia looked down at the floor.

"Wanna grab dinner with me? We can pick it up and head back to my apartment. I don't want to really be alone tonight." The blonde bit her bottom lip nervously. This case had gotten her a lot more worried than she really wanted to admit.

"If you wanna go ahead and head home, I'll pick up dinner and be just a few minutes behind you. Chinese sound okay?" Olivia gave her a small smile.

"Sounds good. I'll see you when you get there." Alex was putting all of her files into her brief case and stood up.

Both women went their separate ways for the time being. What Alex didn't know was the Olivia did share the same feelings. She had suppressed them just like the younger woman. She had loved Alex from the first time she saw her walking through the doors of the squad room. Pulling into Alex's apartment complex she suddenly had this gut feeling something wasn't right.

Walking up to Alex's apartment she heard screaming. Olivia knew it was Alex. She didn't even take the time to call for back up. She grabbed her gun and turned the safety off. Busting through the door with her gun drawn she saw Alex being attacked by a guy in a ski mask with a knife in his hand. He had Alex's clothes ripped off of her, bruises were already starting to form.

"NYPD step away from the woman." Olivia shouted as her gun was pointed towards the masked gentleman. She saw him press the knife closer to Alex's skin. "I said move away from the woman." Olivia shouted again." This time the man got off of Alex but charged at Olivia with the knife. She fired a shot and hit his shoulder. He was still coming towards her. She shot once more before the man fell to the ground. She kicked the knife away and cuffed the masked man.

"This is Detective Olivia Benson, I need a bus and a transport vehicle." Olivia pulled her phone out shaking. The man that was pinned under her knee was moaning in pain, calling her a bitch and that she should have been next. At that point in time though, she shifted her focus to the younger woman on the couch crying.

"Alex I have a bus on the way. I'm sorry I should have just followed you right over here." Olivia was blaming herself. Alex didn't say a word but slumped against the detective. He did a number on her before she had gotten there, her face was bloodies and bruised. When help got there they got statements from Alex and Olivia and took the perp to the hospital. They checked Alex out and she refused to go to the hospital. Olivia refused to let Alex go. She sat there and held Alex close to her. Neither woman said a word for what felt like hours.

"I'm sorry I wasn't here faster." Olivia whispered.

"Don't blame yourself." Alex looked down trying not to cry again.

"I should have been able to save you sooner. Then he wouldn't have had the chance to go as far as he did." Olivia pulled Alex closer.

"You saved me though. That's what matters. He could have done a lot more than this." She sadly pointed at her face. Alex yawned and looked down again. She was exhausted but afraid to sleep.

"Lets get you in bed Al." Olivia said softly.

"Only if you stay with me." Alex was on the verge of tears again.

"I'll stay until you fall asleep then I'll come out here and sleep on the couch." Olivia stood up helping Alex up. The cover that the blonde had covering her up slipped down.

"No Olivia. Stay with me. Sleep next to me. Just whatever you do don't leave me. Please." Alex was shaking and closed her eyes. Olivia knew she couldn't tell her no. She simply nodded and walked with her to the bedroom, turning the lights off at they went.

"Just hold me, please." Alex said defeated as they slipped into bed.

"I'm sorry Alex. I'm sorry this happened to you. I'm sorry I wasn't here sooner." Olivia was trying not to break. She was still blaming herself.

"But you saved me Liv. I was luckier than the others. I had a beautiful bad ass detective come to my rescue." Alex said softly. She was still so overwhelmed by everything. She knew that tomorrow they would both have to go down to the station. She would be the victim. Alexandra Cabot was not used to being the victim and it showed.

Olivia just pulled Alex closer to her and held her. There was no more she could say. Nothing would change what happened. She knew both of them would be taken off the case. She just hoped who ever got the case would do a damn good job and land his ass behind bars. It didn't take long for Alex to fall asleep. Olivia laid there staring at the blonde headed woman as she peacefully slept. She knew there would be no sleeping for her that night though.

The next morning Alex woke up in bed alone. She felt as if she had been hit by an 18 wheeler. She got up and headed to the kitchen. She found Olivia sitting at her table staring into space, looking completely spent.

"Liv?" Alex said softly trying to bring Olivia out of the trance she was in. Olivia had jumped at the sound of her voice. "I didn't mean to scare you." Alex pulled the chair out to sit next to Olivia.

"It's fine. I was just thinking. Captain called earlier, he wanted us both at the precinct." Olivia sighed. She knew it wasn't going to be easy on Alex. She didn't even want her to have to relive it. Alex didn't even say a word but just nodded.

When both ladies were dressed and ready, Olivia drove them to the precinct.

I was originally going to have this just be a one shot but then thought otherwise. Chapter two should be up soon!