Hey Sailor Moon fans,
Welcome to Unknown Destiny, -smiles sweetly-. I'm a Seiya fan, sorry Mamrou lovers, I just think Mamrou and Usagi were too forced and as Setsuna will say: we can't live our lives to fit into a future you aren't sure you want. Seiya and Usagi are more natural together, and she is freer with him. But don't worry, I like Mamrou too and I want him happy too, so a new character will come and show him happiness, I hope you'll like her, -winks-. As for Helios and Chibi-Usagi fans, they are a big part of this too, because they are my second favorite couple and there are very few fanfics with them, and little Seiya/Usagi stories with Chibi-Usa. Chibi-Usa is a little O.O.C, less bratty, so you hopefully can handle her. Now if I make a mistake in this, please draw my attention to it. I wanted this to be as the same as the manga anime as possible without straying away from my plot, hopefully in this chapter I did well. Ok I'm done babbling, please do enjoy.
Disclaimer:
This is purely fan-based. I do not own Sailor Moon and the characters. I only own the plot and the original characters and enemy, and the ending song.
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Unknown Destiny
A fan novel
Willa Fate Field
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Sailor Moon—Pairings: T. Usagi/Sailor Moon and K. Seiya/Sailor Fighter, Sailor Senshis and Sailor Starlights, C. Mamrou/T.K. and O.C/Sailor ?, Helios and T. Chibi-Usa/Sailor Chibi Moon—
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Prologue:
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Sometimes the things you thought you wanted change. You grow up and look at the life you're leading, and you realize that this wasn't what you wanted for yourself:
You meet new friends, make old friendships stronger with the people you care the most about, and make new memories along with the new and old friends in your life. But as new feelings develop, old feelings change. It doesn't mean you don't care for the one your feelings change for. It means you love them differently. And you form a new bond with them.
Sometimes, destiny isn't as clear as you thought it was. The path you were placed on can change as you go. With the people you meet and the choices you meet, they influence where you end up at the end of your walk:
Maybe you are very happy about where you ended up at, or maybe you just are content with the life you made for yourself, or maybe you hate it and you wish you would be able to do it all over again. Whichever it is, it's up to you make the choices in your life to reach absolut1e happiness. The only one who rules over your desired destiny is you, my friend.
And sometimes, love is twisted. You can love someone whole-heartedly, but in the end, you might not be in love with them, and another made you realize that. You can deny it and refuse it, but you know where your heart truly lays, and if you choose to continue to deny what your feelings are, you are going to be miserable.
Sometimes, you gotta fight for what you love….
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1:
The Goodbye Letter (Part 1—Tsukino Usagi)
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The sun disappeared slowly into the sparkling Pacific sea; the sky was painted with happy reds and purples as the day faded into night. But it wasn't a joyous event playing out under the sky, quite the opposite as the big group stood on the rooftop, sadness written on each face expect the raven-haired holding Tsukino Usagi:
The Sailor Senshis were saying goodbye to their now dear friends, the Sailor Starlights, after the battle with Galaxia. For three of the girls, the parting was hard:
Although Usagi had Mamoru back from America, the silly blonde couldn't shake the feeling of deep sorrow about saying goodbye to Seiya, and even if she knew that one day they would meet once more, it seemed wrong that they wouldn't see each other or be able to hang out whenever they wanted.
And she didn't want to admit this aloud, the feel of Mamoru protectively holding her to his side didn't send the shivers up her spine like it once did and the ring on her finger felt heavy and foreign to her when just a few weeks ago the teen was happy to wear and show the world that she belonged to someone. But now…
She shook her head, trying the thoughts out of her mind for the moment, and rushed forward to hug each Light for the last time for probably a long while. When it came for Seiya's hug, the blonde lingered a few moments more than she had for the other two as she slipped an envelope into the pocket of his school uniform. Little did the little 'bunny' know, he did the same thing:
"I'll never forget you, Odango." Seiya promised, letting her go, as he blushed a little at the promise; and Usagi was sure she was blushing too, but she hid it with a bright smile, backing back to her spot next to Mamrou:
"We won't forget you guys, too. We will be friends always."
But she didn't want to let the raven-haired singer go. Why? Why did her chest ache so much? And why did her heart feel as if someone crushed it in their hands? When Usagi looked into Seiya's cool blue eyes again, her heart pounded against her chest hard, bringing another round of questions to her mind. She heard Seiya requested that Mamrou protect her, and once more, the flame crossed her lovely face. Why?
Like their beloved friend and leader, Mizuno Ami and Aino Minako felt that deep sorrow about seeing the two other Stars leave from their lives for a time, however long that time could be, the girls couldn't be sure and that made them sadder. But unlike the blonde, the Sailors knew exactly why they felt the painful sadness and that's because they had developed feelings for the brave Stars, they had fallen in love.
For one, it was instant, seeing that Minako was the goddess of love, but for the blue-haired genius, the feelings just crept on her:
She didn't know when, how, or where the feelings started but Ami knew they wouldn't go away anytime soon, if ever. She just had to believe and trust that, one day, the Stars would return to Earth, and when they do, the young genius will reveal her feelings. Ami smiled at the dark-haired Star sadly.
Yes, saying goodbye was harder for the three young women than it was for the other Sailors and the man holding the petite blonde, but they felt a sense of comfort at the thought of the day they would see the Starlights again and they would again be able to be with each other once. And the minute the boys—or rather girls and boys—return, the Moon warriors wouldn't let them go.
Usagi stared up at Mamrou, smiling sadly at him, finally realizing that she didn't love him like she used to. She didn't want the future what was put ahead of them, but there was no point in voicing that right in that moment. So she moved her gaze to the Three Lights and smiled sweetly, the smile that won the hearts of the Lights, and voiced her request they will return:
"Of course we will, Odango. Don't worry." Seiya grinned widely in assurance as the light slowly swallowed their bodies, blinding the other senshi. The next minute, the space they once stood was empty.
Later, Usagi was with the future Earth king under the moon, asking him why he loved her, in return he said:
"Well, I love hanging out with you, Usao."
She frowned at this, the simple answer wasn't good enough for her already weaving heart, and she gave him one last kiss before asking the burning question in her mind:
"Mamrou, what did you feel in the kiss?" Usagi stared up at those blue eyes that once ruled her dreams but now they held no effects on the blonde 'bunny'. The slightly older young man looked confused for a moment, before his eyes dulled with sad realization.
"Nothing, absolutely nothing. Why Usagi?"
She nodded as a smile danced across her lips, stepping back with her hands folded behind her back. Her eyes shifted to the star-dotted night, the smile growing sadder with every memory of their relationship and Chibi-Usa, oh why did it have to change? Why did they change? She knew the answer, it was staring her in the face: Tsukino Usagi, Sailor Moon, just didn't want to admit it, but she had to face it now, and after she said this, there were nothing to undo the affects. She knew this, but she couldn't stay with him if they didn't feel the same as they did when they developed feelings for each other, it was not fair to each of the people stuck in this.
So, with a big breath of the Tokyo fresh air, she bravely turned the raven-haired man, a grim expression placed across her beautiful face, her left hand fingered the heart-shaped ring on her right hand:
"We drifted apart from each other, Mamo-chan. There was nothing we could do about it, really; we had no time with each other when you went to America, I mean I know you were busy and you worked so hard to have time to write me. But I have a feeling that you and I didn't realize how hard it was managing a long-distance relationship with no connections. I'm sorry, but…."
"What about Crystal Tokyo, and our daughter?" Mamrou whispered barely audible, causing the blonde to bring a hand up to her mouth to quiet the cry his question caused:
"Things change, and the future….was never set in stone, I love you and Chibi-Usa-chan but things changed. I have changed, I'm not the same girl you left. I'm sorry, but understand. I want you to be happy and I want to be too, but I don't think we can be if we stay together right now as a couple but maybe as friends." She sighed deeply, stepping closer to him, and once he was in her reach, the girl gently grabbed his large hand and turned it palm-up, placing the ring into the soft hand before closing his fingers around it.
Mamrou sighed, staring at his hand for a few heartbeats before he pulled the 'bunny' into his strong arms, for the last hug they would share as boyfriend and girlfriend.
He didn't know for how long, but he had a sinking feeling that this was the last time he would be able to call the beautiful moon Princess his, after he let her go, he would be single for the first time in three years. The thought sounded so odd to him, after believing that the girl in his arms would his future bride and the mother of his child.
But what she said was right; they did drift apart as soon as he boarded the plane, and the minute he did, the future changed. No matter how he hated that fact, the girl was no longer his, and he had to accept it.
"He changed you, didn't he?" He whispered the question lovingly as he gingerly let her go, awaiting the answer. Usagi stuck in a shaky breath and nodded slowly, knowing exactly who the he Mamrou was preferring to. The man chuckled bitterly:
"Maybe the past wasn't meant to be resumed the way it was…"
Usagi shook her head feverly as she held his hands in her small ones, a saddened look haunted her figures:
"Don't say that, Mamo-chan. I am glad to have had the chance to love you and know you. Honey, just because we are breaking up and ending our relationship as a couple, does not mean I don't love you anymore. I do, I mean you were my first love, you were the first guy I kissed, I can never stop loving you. I just love you…differently now. I will not regret the time we shared, never. Don't say that, don't regret that we fell in love like we did a thousand years in the past, because if we didn't, we wouldn't have made such wonderful memories."
The blonde squeezed his hands, hot tears rolled down to her chin, she hated him for saying that. Even though she was ending the relationship, she still looked fondly back on the three years they shared and the memories they all made together.
Bunny would never regret meeting him, loving him, and knowing him. He was the first man she ever loved, and it was because of him that she knew what love really was. So when the words fell from his lips, it burned to her core.
He stared down at the blonde, his eyes widen with shock and pain at her tears. He rounded his arms around her once more, tucking her head underneath his chin, and a smile tugging the corners of his lips, oh Usao-chan….
"I don't regret, bunny, don't think I do. I just….it's been so long that I have been single and you and the Senshi became my family, everything I ever wanted. I don't want to lose that, I don't want to go back to being on my own."
The quiet reply brought Usagi back from the sadness and her hair fell as her head moved to smile at the taller man:
"You don't have to be alone again, Mamo-chan. You'll always have your family backing you up." Mamrou grinned widely as he crushed her to him one more time before releasing her.
After saying their goodbyes, Usagi ran home and fid her family a good night before the teen headed up to her, where Luna was waiting with a wary smile:
"You did what you had to in order to be happy, Bunny, I'm really proud of you."
"You are? I thought…" Luna sighed, jumping onto the bed, and sitting where they were looking eye to eye.
"I was looking forward to Crystal Tokyo yes, but Usagi, it would only had worked out the way we hoped if you and Mamrou-san were both happy, which truthfully you two weren't that happy for a long time before he went to America. And if you continued with being together, everyone wouldn't be happy, not if the king and queen are miserable. And I know Chibi-Usa won't begrudge you for wanting happiness."
At the mention of her daughter, the blonde frowned deeply as she moved onto her baloney, folding her arms on the railings and her head pointing to the sky. Usagi won't really miss Crystal Tokyo, she didn't know what it would be like, so it was like trying to remember someone you never met.
But….the blonde would miss the pink-haired brat:
She would miss her teasing, she would miss her hugs, and she even would miss their dumb fights. The girl had slowly won her would-be mother's heart, but now…
She placed her hands on her face, weeping softly as the black cat moved next to her, comforting her friend. But when a blinding light filled the room, they both stiffened, not sure if they should turn around. Then a giggle brought a gasp out of the ditzy blonde. No it couldn't be, could it?
"Usagi-mama?" The voice of the girl the leader was thinking about rung out in the quiet room, causing the older girl to spin around with wide blue eyes, a few tears still remained on her cheeks.
Sure enough, standing there with a smile, was her daughter. She was holding Diana and her transformer in her hands.
"Chibi-Usa? But how, why?" Usagi stuttered happily as she rushed towards the girl, crushing her to her body once she was in reach, Diana was purring as her mother lovingly licked her.
The pink-haired girl smiled sweetly at the blonde's reaction to her, and rounded her arms around Usagi's neck, enjoying the warmth of her mother's hold. They stayed that way for a few moments before Chibi pulled back a little to look into the blue eyes of Sailor Moon:
"I live here with you for good now, Mama."
"So your mother sent you back when the future started to change?"
The little girl nodded sadly, and the blonde sighed deeply as she set her on the floor once again, kneeling in front of the younger girl.
"Chibi-Usa, I'm sorr—"
"No, mama, don't be sorry for wanting happiness for yourself, I've see the pain on your face and truthfully, I thank you for changing the future before it was too late. The earth was peaceful, sure, but I never truly fit in school being the princess. Now, maybe, everyone can be happy." The child smiled small and the blonde patted her head as a smile danced across her lips before she guided the girl downstairs for something to eat.
They would talk more about the tough subject tomorrow, she decided.
Two hours later, Usagi entered her room again, now dressed in her favorite pjs and with her golden hair down to her waist, a deeply saddened expression was placed onto her beautiful face:
"What's wrong, bunny?" Luna asked concernedly, curled in her place on the bed. The girl didn't answer until she sat down on the bed, tears rolling down her cheeks, and her hands were clutching something. Luna came to rub into the blonde's side soothingly.
"What's wrong, Usagi?"
"He wrote me a letter…." Was the whispered reply, blue eyes saddened with understanding as they shifted to the paper in the girl's hands.
"Have you read it yet, sweetie?"
"No, I…..I'm scared to, Luna-kun." Usagi whispered, bowing her head in pain.
The black cat placed her paw on her human friend's hand comfortingly, causing the girl's head to snap up, their eyes locking. She smiled reassuringly, nodding to the letter:
"I'm here with you, we'll read it together. It's going to be ok…."
The girl nodded before taking a shaky breath as her shaking hands opened the envelope and unfolded the letter. She closed her eyes for a moment, stealing herself, and then the blonde 'bunny' opened her eyes and shifted her gaze downwards, started to read the thing that soon would be the Moon Princess's most prized possession:
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Dear my sweet Odango,
I guess it wasn't to be right now, huh? I truly hope that Mamrou can make you happy and all of your dreams come true, because you deserve the best, my beautiful star. But if he can't or screws up, don't worry I'll be back one day, and this time, I won't give up until you are mine and mine only to love and protect. Yes, I do love you, Odango. I'm not sure what made me love you but I do. Maybe it is your bright smile and laugh, or your gentleness and willingness to sacrifice your own happiness for others'. Either way, you captured my heart the moment I saw you at the airport, and you will always be the holder. I'm sorry you had to find out in this way, but…..I couldn't bear to see the rejection on your face, it would have kill me. Cowardly huh? I will be brave enough to face you next time, though, so be ready for me. And do tell Haruka that she can try to keep me away from you, but I won't let anything get in our way, not this time….
Because, you know I hate giving up and I hate the thought of losing you.
Love forever,
Your star knight
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They finished reading, with mixed emotions in their hearts:
For Usagi, she was even sadder than before she read it, and more tears fell as the blonde lied down, curling into a ball on her side with the letter crushed to her chest. Oh kami, this hurts so much. She thought she knew pain, but she was wrong. The times Mamo-chan and she had to face didn't compare to the painful realization she just came to:
She realized that the past year with the idols was the best the senshi had and the leader of the solar senshi didn't want it to end. She didn't want to let the three 'men' go, importantly their leader. She realized she loved the cocky raven-haired Star from the moment they met, she just didn't want to admit it to herself, and now it was too late for her to do anything. But she will wait for him, until the day they all will be together once more, and Usagi won't let him go ever again.
"You were always good enough, Sei-chan." She whispered as sleep drifted over her.
Luna sighed as she watched the blonde slip into the dreamworld with sad eyes before she jumped down from the bed and headed towards the door, looking back one time at her sleeping princess before she spurted out of the house. Once she was outside, she saw Artemis waiting for her.
"What an emotional day for the girls." Luna stated sadly, sitting down in front of the white cat, shaking her head.
"You're telling me, poor Mina cried herself to sleep. Who knew the influence that the Three Lights would have on them? Hell, I think everyone changed because of them. But I still don't like that baka Yaten."
Luna snickered quietly at that part despite herself, walking down the street with Artemis close behind. He didn't get it but he would one day, that there's only one guy in the world for her. As for Yaten, well Luna knew that s/he has eyes for one girl and one alone. And that girl is Aino Minako, the love goddess Sailor Venus, even though the pig-headed sliverette wouldn't admit it. The black cat smiled small, before turning back to the white cat:
"Oi, Artemis, you know it was just a silly crush. You'll always have my heart."
Artemis blushes as he grinned, walking towards her and planted a kiss on the crescent moon on her forehead. She smiled then she remembered what she needed to do, a dreaded sigh sounded in the night. Haruka won't be pleased with her news…
"I have to go see Setsuna, Haruka, and Michiru-san. Want to come?"
"Why do you need to see them this late, Luna-chan?"
"Because Tenoh-senspi would kill me if I waited until Usagi-san open her mouth." She muttered under her breath before explaining to him as the two walk underneath the night sky.
Once they stood in front of the home of the three oldest senshi and Luna finished explaining, Artemis let out a whistle as his head swung side to side:
"Haruka will be furious. Do you think Usagi really thought this through? I mean I don't blame her and I know the inner senshi won't begrudge her for choosing her own happiness for once. But this is a HUGE decision to make without thinking it all through." Luna nodded slowly in agreement, looking up to the beautiful sky, her breathing calm:
"I know Art-chan, but I think her mind was made up long before she even knew herself. Sometimes, true love can change your path."
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"WHAT?!"
Haruka's bellowing scream sent the cats flying off the table, a big sweatdrop was placed both of their heads as they took in the scene of a very angry Haruka and an annoyed Michiru trying to calm down her partner while the dark green-haired senshi sipped her tea calmly, seemingly unfazed by the shocking news.
After a few more minutes of the noisy anger, Setsuna sighed annoyed and sat her teacup down on the coffee table, gently picking the cute animals as she walked towards the couple, settling them on a lounge chair.
She smiled reassuringly and patted each of them on the head before turning to face her teammates with an uncharacteristic glare in her beautiful green eyes:
"You are acting so foolish, Haruka-san. Stop this now. And you aren't much better, Michiru-san, I know that look. You are pouting like a spoiled child who didn't get her way. And as for you, Tenoh, you're throwing a silly fit over nothing. You are going to wake Hotaru-chan if you continue this foolishness."
Everyone was stuck shocked, at her cruel scolding and her reaction to the change in the path. After a few seconds of shocked silence, Michiru calmly broke it as she stepped forward…
"But, Setsuna, Crystal Tokyo is gone. Everything we worked for—"
"Things can change, Michiru. And I don't think it's very fair to force Usagi-hime and Mamrou-senspi to be with someone when their hearts weren't in it just because it would have led to a 'better' world."
"Why didn't you tell us, Set-chan?" Haruka whispered, her voice betrayed hurt. Setsuna frowned sadly at the betrayed look upon her best friend's face, shaking her head, her green hair flew with shake:
"We can't know the future, otherwise we live our lives according to that and we cannot recreate the past, we need to live our now. Like in this case, I allowed the princess and prince see it, and it led to pain. We tried both ways, but it didn't work, they were meant to be friends and nothing more. Guys, Crystal Tokyo was perfect at first all because the princess was happy but she was miserable as time went on. It was hell for everyone close to her as well. It was just a pretty lie, Haruka and Michiru, I'm sorry. So I was glad when the Three Lights showed up, it caused a brand new future to be created, one that everyone is blissfully happy and Earth is peaceful. I truly believe that now, we will get the better world we were working so much for."
As the two other senshi looked down, taking the new information in, Luna gasped loudly, her mouth hung open, happy tears messed her fur. She hoped that the words were true, not only for the planet, but for her silly blonde friend. A future where she could be truly happy and she could be with the person she loved. Luna walked to the edge and sat, tapping the college student's hand; the girl looked down and smiled sweetly:
"Yes, Luna-chan?"
"Are the Starlights…?" Setsuna giggled, knowing the cat's unfinished question, and knelt so they were on the same level and were eye to eye:
"Yes, they're there and they are with the person they each love, happy. The new enemy brought them back to Earth along with a new Sailor." Then, it was Haruka and Michiru's turn to gasp as Michiru's hand flew to her mouth.
"Another enemy?"
"A new senshi?"
Their questions rushed out so fast, they mixed together, echoing one another. The eldest young woman snickered at their reddened faces, standing back up.
"Yes and yes, I don't know the details of both yet, so I can't tell you when the first attack will be or when we will meet the new warrior. But I know this battle will be the last. And I know that a brand new fairy tale started for our kind princess and I'm so happy for her, I'm going to be there for her when they return. Are you or are you going to stand in the way once more?" Setsuna stared hard at the high school juniors, the cats looked between them nervously as the sweat beaded down their furry faces, oh my….
The young lovers met eyes as a thousand thoughts raced through their minds. They worked hard towards getting to Crystal Tokyo, but now it is no more, it was only a dream. How did they know that this 'new future' is just another dream, another painful letdown?
They didn't, and like Puu said, that was how it was supposed to be. To take risks and jumps, no matter how much it hurts, just to see where they lead you. They shook their heads, sighing deeply, before turning light and dark blue eyes to the waiting college student. No use in fighting destiny:
"As long as kitten is happy, than I'm happy and I will do anything in my power to give her the happy ending she deserves." The blonde teenager winked, her aqua-haired lover nodding in agreement with a wide grin. Setsuna smiled, crushing to her two friends in a hug.
"Good. In one year, the story truly begins….
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In the background two voices—one male and one female—melted together as a song filled the cool night. A hooded figure stared at the large house for a few moments before an evil-sounding chuckle fell from their mouth as they turned to walk away, the scene faded as they walk. The song is the only thing you hear:
You smile at me,
And I think you're fantasy,
The way you love me.
(I fall in love with your smile,
You are my fantasy,
The way I love you.)
I pushed you away,
Afraid to get hurt,
But you stayed with me,
Like an angel protecting.
(You pushed me away,
Fearing that I might hurt you,
But I stayed with you,
Your guardian angel.)
Are you real?
Or are you a dream?
Are we made to fall?
Or is this the story I wanted?
(I'm real,
Not just a dream,
We're made to love,
This is the story you wanted.)
My heart has been broken,
Thinking that they loved me,
But now, I'm afraid that I might lose you and it scares me.
(You've been hurt,
By trusting the wrong person with your heart,
But now, don't worry, I'm here and I am going to protect you.)
I don't want to be without you,
Am I losing my mind?
Or my heart?
(You won't be alone,
Shh, it's alright,
It's love.)
Are you real?
Or are you a dream?
Are we made to fall?
Or is this the story I wanted?
(I'm real,
Not just a dream,
We're made to love,
This is the story you wanted.)
My heart cries to you,
Afraid that you won't hear and come,
Won't you come?
(I hear your heart,
I'm coming,
I'm running to you.)
I don't want to be without you anymore,
I lost my mind and my heart to you,
No use in fighting it.
(You won't be alone anymore,
I'm yours to have,
No more denying, darling.)
Are you real?
Or are you a dream?
Are we made to fall?
Or is this the story I wanted?
(I'm real,
Not just a dream,
We're made to love,
This is the story you wanted.)
I guess I have to wait and see.
(Wait for me, our story's beginning.)
