Yep, another songfic. I just love to write them, and I thought this was a beautiful song. It was just calling for me to do an angst songfic.

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

I don't own Yuu Yuu Hakusho or this song,

So please don't sue!!


Imaginary Light

a Yuu Yuu Hakusho songfic by ChicheKitten

I linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

She lay there silently, as if she were sleeping. But she never did. Not anymore. She would lie awake, but she was always dreaming. Dreaming of a place where she could be safe, and let the mask fall.

In my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

Her world was much different than this harsh world of reality. It was so calm, so beautiful. She wanted to stay there forever. Not just for in her sleepless rest. But, to do this, she knew she had to leave this world behind. It was a posibility. Her physical body was already giving in. It was fading, and her mind, her will to live, was going with it. Still, her soul hung on to this world.

Don't say I'm out of touch
with this rampant chaos - your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare I built my own world to escape


She knew they thought nothing was wrong with her. The Reikai Tentai. Keiko and the girls. Even Koenma and Genkai baa-chan. They all thought she was happy. The truth was, she didn't want them to know. It would be better. They would think she was weak for giving in. She would hide behind these smiles, just for them.

In my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

Yuusuke had once told her she was out of touch with reality. He really didn't know how right he was. She just wanted it to end. Tears rolled down her face amd onto the sheet below her. The moon, waxed round and bright, illuminating everything in the room. It was an unearthly silence, save the sound of her sobs.

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light

She clapped her hands to her ears, attempting to drown out the sound of nothingness. Her knees were pulled up to her face as she lay on her side. The lids of her eyes sagged. She was so tired. But she musn't give in....give in....give in. Botan gave one long scream as her eyes closed, and she felt herself be drowned by the darkness.


So, did you expect it to be Botan? Nobody does Botan angst, and I wonder why. I love to write about unusually happy characters' dark sides. It's fun.

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