A/N- So this is my first fanfic but please don't judge me for it (unless you think it's good for a first lol). I may be a little biased but I think it's pretty good. Um if you're a little confused with the very first part don't worry it'll all get explained soon. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own the awesomeness that is Twilight...yet. I'm talking to a lawyer but he's not digging the pro bono.
BPOV
99 years, 364 days, 23 hours, 59 minutes, 59 seconds… One hundred years.
I allowed myself one peak; one more look at the man I loved, love unrequited.
It had been 100 years, 100 long years since he- I still couldn't say his name without an unbearable pain ripping through my core- since he left me standing alone and heartbroken in the forest behind Charlie's house. Those moments I had held on to and could remember with perfect clarity.
Flashback:
I reached for him, willing him to stay, my teeth clenched on the inside of my cheek, hopefully not enough to break the skin. He only pinned my arms and wrists to my side. His cool breath fanned over my face as my eyes closed and I leaned towards him. A moment later I felt his lips on mine. There was almost a pungent urgency to his kiss that I wasn't sure he was aware of. My mouth opened with his, clearly taking things far past his carefully laid out boundaries. He tasted so sweet. Then as quickly as the kiss started, it stopped.
He whispered, "Goodbye Bella," softer than the wind caressing my face.
And then he was gone.
As soon as I realized that he wasn't standing in front of me anymore, I tore after him as fast as my weak human legs could take me. I, of course, tripped often over random forest life, sending me sprawling across the canopy floor. Each time I immediately got back up, plunging forward with the same fervor. I screamed his name over and over again, ignoring how horse I was becoming and the burning in my mouth and throat.
Soon though, I couldn't ignore it any longer, the scorching making my entire head as if it were on fire. One final log sent me down and that was where I stayed. I fought to stay conscious as I writhed in agony on the ground. The fire grew hotter and it felt like it engulfed my entire body. I screamed out for him, knowing that he would come for me if he could only hear me. Then I remembered.
"You're not good for me, Bella."
How true it was. I was only surprised that it had taken him so long to realize it. His perfection was too absolute to deserve such a curse as me.
I avoided the rest of that subject, trying to focus what mind power I still could manage on figuring out what was happening to me. I stopped screaming out, but I couldn't quell the tears that were streaming down my face. The agonizing fire in my veins was the big hint and really the only one that I needed.
I was becoming a vampire.
Just like I always wanted. Instead of the joy I once expected to feel at this news there was only more pain to add to the agony. I didn't know how he did it but somehow he did. I also got a little angry. Didn't he understand that the only realized I wanted forever was to be with him forever? I didn't understand why he wanted to punish me to an eternity with the knowledge that he didn't love me, but he did.
The pain amplified even more, immensely, and I couldn't focus on anything but my heart pounding in my ears, with each beat increasing the pain tenfold.
A/N- Please please please review. I know that some stories get like a ton of reviews for the first chapter, but you know I'm going not going to get my hopes up. To tell you the truth I might be happpy with like one, three would be nice but... anywho, as I'm rambling you should review. You know you want to;) P.S. Hopefully I'll update soon. With or without the reviews. Stupid busy life. lol Oh and I don't have a beta but I don't think it should be too bad.
