Although i'm still in a lot of planning for this story, i've finally gotten to a point where i have enough information to support myself and the writings so it would be alright to start it at last.
And here i must say, i'm very glad this point has come, 'cause it's been boring having to just be on deviantART all the time, and being it the school season not all my friends are online, so i'm in a predicament of not having much to do. XD As much as i love drawing, i've developed a love for writing ever since i joined this site. (Hmm, why else would i put in that i might possibly like to be a writer in those lame computerized tests questioning what you wanna be when you're older?) n.n So hopefully i'll feel more entertained as i write/plan this...even if i own some pictures to people already... .-.
M'kay, first off, the important notes:
WARNING (please read all): There will be heavy spoilers about the anime (or manga) in this fic, and i can't avoid them 'cause then i'd screw up the plot. Such spoilers involve information about characters as well as who burns whose book, what really happens in the series, etc. So unless you don't like heavy ones, i wouldn't reccomend reading this, but then i'd be sad 'cause you wouldn't be reading. XD But don't wory, i'm gonna be changing some of the stuff around so hopefully it won't be too similar. Otherwise it wouldn't be as intresting. :P
Oh, and in case you're reading and wondering about the title to this chapter, it's from one of the intros to the anime Ghost in the Shell. I don't watch it, but i love the intros, so i based this chapter off the song. X3 (no, there aren't any lyrics in 'ere)
Don't forget, there will be some unanswered questions solved from the last fic brought into this... :)
After all, it is a sequel.
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Disclaimer: Do you seriously think if i owned this i would waste my time with fanfiction of my own creation?
Romance/Angst/Action/Adventure
Lost and Found
1
Inner Universe
Love is a strange thing.
Once before, I thought I would have recognized this unique force that is supposed to be so true and pure, but now… now I wasn't so sure. In the past, I had never felt this emotion until dear Koko saved my life. Yet what she gave me was the feeling of friendship, a different type of affection compared to being attracted to someone. Koko cared deeply for me and I for her, but I had never felt a simple crush on someone or had another like me back. I was, as I had usually been, alone, in a sense.
And then Brago entered my life, but I felt nothing towards him other than hate in the beginning—I had my reasons, good ones, too. His kind had taken away the one and only person that had cared for me and showed me that my life had a meaning. I was frustrated and angry and it was his species that deserved to pay the price.
Although, sometime after he threatened to kill my beloved butler, Jii, who was now dead, I began to feel very confused. The one moment Brago began to show some sort of emotion, affection, that I began to feel differently. No longer did he act violent and crude, but instead he had a stern kindness to him that was much more calming and easier to be around.
I knew I felt different but I had no idea why. Brago is a demon and I a human; we are both of two completely different species, so why on earth did I feel this way?
But then, as fate would have it, a horrid event happened to me. After being attacked by an unknown team and badly beaten, I had my memories and personality erased. And of course it just had to happen when Brago wasn't around to protect me, while I was vulnerable. I can hold out well enough in a battle, but even someone like me can't do so well when outnumbered, especially by demons. I lost all memory of that night, and from the stories I've heard, when Brago finally did find me and took me back home, I gave him a month of hell afterwards with the new persona I obtained.
Yet… here's what confuses me: When I finally woke up from my demented state and returned to normal, I… I was in his arms with him kissing me. Hard. Naturally I pushed him away as the real shock of it all sunk in. I was angry with myself, wondering how the hell that situation could have happened and why I couldn't remember anything. I felt so angry and I was blinded by my emotion. Although, deep down, I was particularly frustrated because I couldn't be myself when it happened…
No, I can't think that way, it's not right! We're of two different worlds; a relationship like this shouldn't exist! So why did I feel this strange infatuation towards my fighting partner? He was merely there to help me retrieve Koko from that other damn demon's control, while my own purpose was to crown him as his world's king. I was not to fall in love with a demon!
And yet… I knew I couldn't deny it—I had fallen in love with him. How it happened, I had no idea, but I don't want this, yet I do at the same time. It's not right, I can't, I just… Well, what was the point in it? We would have to leave one day, with Brago returning to his world while I remained in mine.
But… this was all too confusing… Why him of all people, or creatures, I should say, did I have to fall for? Did I do something wrong, or was it destined, as I am his bookkeeper? I loathed thinking about me in a relationship with him; he seemed to hate me at times as well, so that made sense for it to not work out.
However, there was one thing I had to greatly consider and that was his desire. Of course I could recognize that he possessed it, any woman in the same situation (or bystanders in general) could spot it. The stare he now gives me is a thin mask that hides his true lust, and deep down I can't help but feel similar. How he slid down my body that one time he pushed me up against the wall…
No, this wasn't right… I needed to distract myself with some other topic. To think of a different subject matter other than him. I had to keep control, stay myself…
Ah, but now that it dawned on me, the night that… that happened, also happened to be the very same one where Brago and I set out to go search for Zophise and Koko. In the same time where I had become myself after I woke up, the both of us encountered a team that was obviously working for that monster that possessed my friend. Evidentially he has formed an army of demons with mind-controlled humans as their bookkeepers.
When I discovered that other humans were being controlled by that demon and not just Koko, my blood began to boil. How dare he… when I got the chance, I would strangle that creature to his death, giving him a very long and painful torturous time. I wanted to see him suffer by the very one he inflicted pain upon himself.
So Brago and I traveled to South America where we learned the vile creature was hiding at, somewhere deep within the Andes Mountains hidden in an ancient ruin with an army of over 40 demons for protection. The coward—using those other demons as his tools…
We acquired much of this information from a man that we soon encountered, NazoNazo Hakase, or so he was called, who was also another bookkeeper within the battle. He did not desire to battle with us, but to instead talk. I saw that he spoke the truth so I allowed this one conversation with an enemy, and soon realized he had valuable knowledge. But I knew more than he about Zophise, so in return I gave him a little of what I knew and sent him a way.
Within that conversation, though, he spoke of how he had been gathering different allies to fight against Zophise and asked us to join them. Both Brago and I declined the offer and strictly told the professor that we worked alone. Not only that, but if he and his teammates were to ever fight or go after Zophise, they would dearly pay for taking away what should be my battle…
My revenge.
So Brago and I started to train harder and longer, as we knew the upcoming battle would be our toughest yet. It would be long, harsh and bitter, and there were the chances that I could hurt Koko, or possibly have to. She was not used to fighting, but I was quite positive that Zophise would have changed all that. Chances are, she was now as cold as I was while fighting…
Dear sweet Koko… What had become of you in these past months?
I hoped against hope that she hadn't forgotten the good times and moments we shared, as I knew that her own personality had been altered as well, but instead to think hatefully and despise those that were kind and helped her through life. Sad. It was hard to imagine, but I wondered if this was really true. For sure I wouldn't forget, she was the one who saved me from my attempted suicide and now I was very grateful for that, because it was her who showed me that life had a meaning after all.
Never would I forget those memories I shared with her, or the ones I would soon obtain in the future when we were happy again. We would have our lives back again, and whether I had a demon to accompany me in a painstaking path or not, for sure Koko and I would obtain our freedom once more.
But still, as I couldn't help but think about it nowadays, there was one other question I had in the back of my mind, relating to my relationship with Brago: Was this really love I had for him, or a temporary infatuation?
I was positive I would one day find the answer to that probing (and annoying) question. Whether my companion would also or not, I had no idea. One of us would, though, that was definite.
So while I waited for the time to come where Brago and I had to face off with Koko and Zophise, we would train so to acquire that success, and the one after of his future kingship. I would think on what the next days would hold as we fought more enemies and would make him stronger for his goals in life. Would we admit to our emotions or not, that I also didn't know, but as for now, time was on hold.
But sometimes those pauses in life had to be appreciated, in order to stay sane.
