He thought of her in his most private moments.  He loved her more than anything, more than life itself, or unlife rather.  That's why he was here right?  That's why even with the love clearly in her eyes as she told him she loved him he denied it.  Denied her love.  The one thing he wanted most.  He wouldn't leave her to mourn for him, to make her second guess letting him die so that the world could be saved.  He felt her hand slip away and the light around him fade.  He went out laughing.

He came back screaming.