So I'm thinking 3-5 chapter oneshot? Let me know what ya guys think!
The song is "Fix You" by coldplay. I own neither the song nor vampire diaries, if only if only. :)
"when you try your best but you don't succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need"
"Elena, honey, you did everything you could. Everything. It's not on you. Damon's death? That's not on you. He made his own choices." Stefan told her, trying to sound soothing. But even he had little hope that it would really get through to her. She had been like this for days.
"But that's just it Stefan," She whispered, still refusing to look at him, still staring blankly out the window. "I did everything I could have possibly done. But it still wasn't enough. My best, wasn't enough. I got what I wanted. Klaus is dead." You're back. She added silently. "But at what cost? Losing the one person I counted on more than anything? The person I need most?"
"when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep, stuck in reverse"
Stefan didn't know what to say. He wanted to walk away at that very moment. He wanted to ask her why she cared so much. He wanted to know if she would have cared this much if he had been the one to die instead of Damon. Instead, he tried to get her get some much-needed sleep.
"I'm not tired." She lied. He gave her the look she knew all too well. But the face wasn't one that she was used to seeing on this Salvatore's face. She was used to the no-bullshit face from Damon, and that had her heart twisting once again. She sighed. "Well, I'm a little tired. But I can't sleep."
"Nightmares?" He asked, her although he knew too well.
"Yeah." At that, Stefan dropped the subject of sleep.
"When the tears come streaming down your face"
Silent tears started streaming down Elena's face, and Stefan's heart broke at the sight. He was so angry. Angry with Klaus for taking down Damon with him. Angry at Damon for leaving him behind, for leaving him, this time forever. Angry at Elena for caring so much. Angry at himself for not being able to do anything to change his own brother's fate.
Stefan did the only thing he could think of. He held her in his arms.
"when you lose something you can't replace"
"I lost him." She breathed.
"when you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse?"
The thing that was eating Elena alive the most was the thing she couldn't tell anyone. And that was that losing Damon in that last battle with Klaus meant losing the love of her life. Because she loved him. And he had died, for her, and he had died not knowing of her love. He had died thinking that this feeling that had overpowered him throughout the last year, was not returned. His love had gone to waste. Her love had gone to waste.
"lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you"
Elena kept waiting for some sign that everything was going to be alright. She kept waiting for the lights to guide her home. But then she remembered that Damon was always the one to guide her home. She was so used to Damon being the one to pick up her pieces, but this time, he wasn't here. He was never going to be here again.
"and high up above or down below"
Elena remembered how Damon was always there for her, whether she was at her highest or her lowest.
"when you're too in love to let it go"
How many times had Elena wondered why Damon couldn't just get over her? Well, she no longer wondered, she completely understood. He was too in love to let it go, to let her go.
"but if you never try, you'll never know"
At least Damon had had the guts to put himself out there and tell Elena he loved her. Elena didn't even have enough guts to admit to herself that she loved him. And now, she would never know what could have happened. She would never know if her and Damon were meant to be.
"just what you're worth"
Damon was the only one to ever make Elena feel like she was worth something. He made her feel like she was worth loving, something she hadn't felt since her parents died.
"lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you"
Who in the world was going to fix her now?
"tears stream, down your face, when you lose something you cannot replace, tears stream down your face, and I..."
Damon was something that no one ever could be again. And Elena was both relieved and frightened at the thought. No one would ever drive her crazy like Damon did. But the craziness, it had it's own advantages. Along with the lost of control that came along with being completely and utterly in love, came...the love.
"tears stream down your face, when I promise you I will learn from my mistakes, tears stream down your face, and I..."
Tears steadily streamed down Elena's face now, there was no stopping them. In the middle of her depression, Elena made one last vow to Damon. She promised him silently that she would never make the same mistake again. She told him that she would do her damndest to tell the people she loved, that she loved them.
"lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you"
