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Angst/Romance - MSR

Summary: I don't need you. I don't want you. I don't love you. I'm a liar. One year, two months and seven days… I cant forget you.

Bittersweet

Chapter 1

He gazed at Dana. He even didn't move. First I thought he was speechless because of her beauty tonight, but then I changed my mind when I saw the sadness in his eyes.

"Hi Andy, let me introduce… this is Fox Mulder, my old friend – a special FBI Agent. Mulder, this is Dr. Andy Steward, the best doctor in our hospital…" Jessica said.

"Hi Steward," Mulder said.

"Hi Mulder, call me Andy," I smiled, shaking his hand.

"And this is…" Jessica was going to talk, but she stopped as she saw the gaze between Mulder and Dana.

"Dana, do you know him?" I asked suspiciously, looking at Dana.

"No, I don't know him," Dana shook her head. "Hi Mulder, I'm Dana Scully," she said mildly.

Dana smiled but I could tell that she was pretending. She told lie. Dana Scully wasn't a good liar. The color in her eyes changed into deep blue.

"Hi Scully," Mulder said.

He looked hurt. They still didn't say anything. That was an awkward moment before Dana turned her head. Suddenly, she hugged me tightly, burying her head into my chest.

"Andy… I'm tired," she whispered.

I held her in my arms and rubbed her waist. "Honey, are you ok?" I asked her concernedly.

"Maybe she needs some cold water, Andy,… hmm… maybe we will talk later?" Jessica said.

"Sorry Jessie… talk to you later."

"It's ok, Andy. Good bye, see you later Dana," Jessica smiled. "Mulder, come with me, I will introduce you with my other friends."

Dana didn't reply, she held me tighter.

"Dr. Steward, goodbye," Mulder said, "goodbye Scully."

Maybe it was my imagine but I felt Dana shaking slightly. I looked at Mulder, finding no words to describe his look. He gazed at my Dana with his dark hazel eyes again then he leaved. I sighed. His looks scared me.

"Dana? Dana? Are you Ok?"

"I'm fine, Andy."

I knew she wasn't fine, but I didn't want to ask more. She always used that word to tell about her feelings.


I met Dana one year ago, one year and two months exactly. She was new doctor in my hospital. She was peaked when I met her at the first time, but I knew that I had an crush on her immediately. I loved her blue eyes, her tiny nose, her red hair and her thin body. My heart stopped beating when I saw her smiles. But she had some secrets, I just knew she came from Washington DC but I didn't know anything about her past. She had never told me. I didn't dare ask her because I knew it was a sad part of her life.

I loved her, she knew it. She tried to keep the distance between us but I didn't give up. I gave her the roses, taking care of her when she was sick, I could do anything just to make her feel my love. Six months ago, I told her I loved her and she shook her head looking at me with her sad blue eyes. I knew she was still sad about the past.

Four months ago I told her again and she didn't say anything.

"Dana, I love you…"

"…"

"You were sad for a long time, Dana, you always kept smiling but I knew it. I don't want to see the sadness in your eyes anymore… Dana, I want to make you happy…"

"…"

"I won't give up, Dana," I said, touching her back.

She looked at me when I touched her back.

"Andy…" she said. "I'm afraid…"

I pulled her into my arms. I didn't hear any sounds but I knew she was crying. She always cried quietly.

"I will never hurt you, Dana. I will never give up on you. I love you…" I said.

Then I kissed her… she kissed me back. Then, Dana Katherine Scully became my girlfriend. I hoped that I could make her smile.


"Andy?" Dana slapped my arms, bringing me back to the reality.

I noticed that she drank a big glass of Whiskey. Her cheeks were red as her hair color. I smiled, she looked so cute.

"You got drunk, Dana."

She tilted her head, "no. I'm not."

"You are a bad drinker, honey."

"I want to go home, Andy…" she said, holding my hand.

"It's Ok, I will drive you home…"


When we entered her apartment, suddenly Dana snuggled me to her. She kissed me. I was in shock. It was me who always kissed her first. It was a passionate kiss.

"Dr. Scully, are you trying to seduce me?" I joked.

She nodded and kissed me again. I unzipped her dress and it fell down on the floor.

I smiled. She was laying here in the bed, looking at me with her beautiful eyes. She had never let me touch her before, not this way. She wasn't too drunk, I knew it. I thought she let me do it because she loved me. I captured her lips with mine. I loved her lips. God, I love this woman. She touched my bare chest.

"Dana Scully, you're driving me crazy…"

I kissed her neck. Touching her soft skin just turned me on. She was still in her black bra, I touched her back to take it off.

But she shaked. Dana Scully was shaking. I knew that I did something wrong… because she had never let me touch her back before. She didn't want anybody touching her back.

"I'm sorry…" I stopped, and kissed her cheek again.

Her cheeks were wet. She was crying…

"Dana?"

"No… don't stop, Andy…"

She touched my arms but I get off her.

I knew she didn't want me.

"Andy…?"

"Dana, you don't really want me tonight… I want you but I cant do this… I don't want to make you regret when you wake up next morning. I cant take advantage of you tonight…" I shook my head.

"Andy, I want you…."

"Your soul isn't here with me tonight. I don't want to have sex. I can have sex with every women but I just want to make love to you. Make love… do you understand? I need your soul here…"

She paused. The tear trailed down her cheek. I wiped her tears away. Then I stood up, grabbing my clothes and leaved her apartment.

"Dana Scully, do you know that you hurt me too?"

A/N: Dont hate me, dont hate Andy. This is MSR story, dont worry. It will be Mulder's POV next chapter.