Deliverance : The missing Scenes.

Summary : From the accident, to the I promise, what happened in between, where did their relationship go wrong? And what of Chase, delve into his mind as he makes the choice that cements the covenants future, and what about the beginning, how did Rose and Tyler fall in love? Find out.

Information : A set of interconnecting one shots, time span from the accident and up to the end of Deliverance. Will also include one shots of the couples, during or after this time. Will also include some one shots in Rose and Tyler's life in the beginning.

don't know where this road Is going to lead. All I know is where we've been And what we've been throughIf we get to see tomorrow I hope it's worth the wait It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

Boyz 2 men

Its so Hard to Say Goodbye

Rose

The dreams tore her from her slumber, heart beating rapidly beneath her chest, she forced herself from the tangle of covers, sweat matting her hair line, sticking her blonde hair to her head. She struggled to catch a breath, as her hands clawed at her chest, tears stinging her eyes, it was to much, far to much, to breath, to exist. Dreams plagued her nightly, she tried to forget, to force it away, but it was still there, in the back of her mind, forcing her to remember, to show her just how much of a failure she was.

It had been four months since she had moved to California with her parents, three months since they had found out about her lose, she had expected the anger, the disappointment, but had wanted so much more. She needed them to take her into their arms, to tell her it would be ok, that they would be there, but instead, their backs turned, she saw regret in their eyes, there was no pain, no recognition as they told her to leave and not to come back.

She had picked up her phone more times then she could count, had scrolled down to his number, dainty finger hovering over the call button, brain telling her to give in, to call him, then he needed her just as much as she needed him, but shame and guilt stopped her from doing it. Each and every time she would throw the phone away from her, rest her head into her hands and sob, curl herself into a tight ball and pray for the world just to take her away. She couldn't live like this, not with this whole in her chest, devouring her every day. This wasn't living, it was existing if she could even call it that, she went through the motions, not seeing, not feeling, but then, she felt to much, she would never shake it.

Tyler

They knew something was wrong, every time he caught them looking at him, he could see it in their eyes, they tried to hide it, but he still saw it. They were all worried for him, he barley ate, barely slept, didn't talk to any of them. He woke, If he had slept at all, skipped breakfast, went to class, swam, played pool and went back to the dorms. Nights plagued by so much blood, by the racking sobs, and a sombre voice. He tried everything to silence it, tried to shut himself down, because surely if he wasn't there, then the voice wouldn't be there either. It never worked, every night, he would remember, would see everything he tried to block out.

They never asked him what was wrong, he was sure they knew that if they did he wouldn't answer. Honestly he didn't even know what he would say, he was the baby of the group, he was the smart one, next to Caleb of course, he wasn't meant to make mistakes, not like this.

So they continued to watch him, watch as he went through the motions of the day, eat (little), sleep (even less)…exist, that's all he did these days, and some days he wished he didn't do that, that he could just give into the call of the power, just throw it all away, burry himself in it, at least the pain wouldn't be so bad right?

He never did, he continued with the motions, dying inside a little each time, every night, every smell, or sight, he would remember, sometimes he hated it, could hardly breath because of it, and other times he welcomed it, relished in it, because with the memories, even as painful as they were, it brought him closer to her.

Rose

Days, turned into weeks, weeks turned into months, and those months soon turned into a year. Gradually she had been making her way home, doing any job she could land, she didn't care of the hours, if it was morning or if it was night, she actually preferred night because then it left her little time to sleep, because with the sleep came the dreams, and then came the pain. She gradually came home to Ipswich, enough money saved to get her back into Spencer, at least the first semester any way. The rest she would work, do what she could.

She had been expecting to run into him again, but never once thought of the pain it would cause, just seeing him took her breath and pain flared in her chest, it left her gasping against the wall as tears stung against her eyes.

Memories of blood and so much pain plagued her mind once more, until she went fleeing back to her bed, hiding herself away once more. It got better the more times she saw him, she never stopped to wonder if he was seeing her to, if he was even bothered the way she was. But the more time she saw him, the better it became, it didn't stop hurting, but it became bearable. Almost.

Tyler

The first time he saw her was a Monday, she walked into English with her head held to the floor, blonde hair pulled away from her face, her bright blue eyes dotted with a pain only he understood. It took away his breath, hands turned white against the pressure he was exerting on the table in front of him.

She looked at him then, her tiny frame stilling at the bottom of the steps, he could tell she was fighting just the way he was, but he didn't know she to was fighting the same thing he was. He wanted her, needed her to be back in his arms, his hands in her hair, his words whispering that it was ok and he was there.

It didn't happen, they both finally turned at the sound of the teachers arrival, her quickly hurrying up the steps, him to his books.

Soon they stopped the tip toeing, she could look him in the eye without breaking down, it was there between them, the lose neither of them wanted to accept or acknowledge.

Finally, she was happy she had come back to Ipswich, it took time, but she was finally with him again, dealing with the pain she shouldn't have ran away from, she let him into the pain she was seeing, the guilt she held over their child's death.

She had thought the pain caused by the lose of their little girl was the worse pain she could feel. She was wrong. Almost.

The day she woke in the hospital bed, legs tangled in the sheets, she thought the last five months had been a dream, then she was still shying away from getting close to Tyler once more. She soon found out she wasn't dreaming, Tyler was dying, she could feel it.

Her bare feet touched the cold lino beneath her, shivering she made her way past the sleeping figure of chase, her gaze barley locking onto his before she was gone. She had to see him, she needed to be with him, to let him know she was there, that she was always going to be there.

His brothers parted as she came, Reid touching her shoulder softly, Caleb and Pogue sharing a look with her, Pogue gave her a smile, Caleb a barley there nod. Reid was still with her though, his hand a calming presence, even when the others had left, and the quite sobs of Sarah and Kate were no longer heard, he never left.

He stayed by her side as she stood cold in front of Tyler, her blue gaze blurry with tears, her hands were trembling as she lifted them, taking Tyler's cold hand into her own.

"He's going to be ok" Reid assured, his voice was low, deep, she could hear the unshed tears in the back of his throat, the emotion he was trying to mask for her fault.

She had never liked these men, had only tolerated Caleb and Pogue for the sake of Tyler, but Reid, she had never gotten to know him, never wanted to, but here he was, stood with her as she cried.

"I cant loose him Reid" She whispered, not hiding the tears that were streaming from her eyes, all the pain she had dealt with in the past came flooding back. She felt Reid's hands more forceful on her shoulders as he spun her around, hands hand's burrowing themselves into her hair, her head neatly tucked under his chin.

"I promise, he's goanna be ok"

Rose could only cling to his shirt, as silent sobs racked through her body, as much as she tried to convince herself he was right, she couldn't bring herself to believe it, she could feel it in her bones, she was going to loose Tyler the way they had lost their child.

And she would be alone!


So there you have it, the first chapter: The time span is, obviously just after Rose left after her miscarrage, and after the accident in Deliverence.