COLD DESERT

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight I do however own Devin :)

BPV:


Looking my self in the mirror seeing the girl I have become since HE left it still hurts me but now I found a new way to relieve my pain and the hole HE left in me I know he would not approve of my ways none of them would but it's the only way I know how to cope with my pain, its been almost a year since they left and he never came back.

'Fucking asshole' i think to myself

"Bellaaa! Get your ass down here now bitch!" Jessica yelled I became best friends with Jessica and Lauren they helped get out of my depression state

Charlie died 3 months after they left so now I have a house all to my self in which I like to throw crazy parties and drown in the effects of the alcohol and drugs, I'm not the reserved little girl any one knew once upon a time.

"What the fuck jess! I'm here" I said coming down from my room,

"look at you miss swan lake" said Lauren I did a turn to show off my outfit I was wearing dark blue corset and black Minnie skirt with my black boots

"yea I cant wait to hear what Devin has to say" I said laughing

"That boy is going to flip" said Lauren.

People were starting to arrive, I was well known for throwing the biggest parties there ever was in Forks, Devin is my boyfriend I met him after Charlie died and René and Phil disappeared he became my rock and also my supplier for the things we need, we met like that me wanting to forget everything about my so called life he wanted to forget about an ex, Devin he's tall 6'2 brown hair green eyes he's also pale his body is build nicely he likes to workout he has piercings, ears, tongue, lip and his back is full of tattoos his a little bit older than me he's 21 I'm only 18 I'll be 19 soon, So here I am in one of those crazy parties wanting to get high and Devin is nowhere to be Found.

"Hey Tyler did you bring what we asked" I yelled above the music, I was sitting in a bar stool next to Jess and Lauren he was a couple of feet away

"So did u baby?" Lauren cooed at him

"don't worry my gurrrls I got what we need" said Tyler rolling the r he came to stand next to Lauren

"we'll go in partners Ty and Lau, jess and me " said Mike

"Who's with me asshole?" I said looking between them all

"Me baby" said Devin coming to stand in between my legs, I hadn't noticed he had gotten here, he started to kiss my neck

"mmm baby if you keep that up we are going to have to go upstairs" I murmured next to his ear.

"ok lovebirds we'll be back and we'll let you know" said Tyler I watched them walk towards the stair to go to my room

"so lets dance to kill time" said Devin in my ear I could hear the lust in his voice

"get me a drink please" I said wanting to drown in the affect's of the alcohol before anything else, i liked Devin but sometimes I needed the courage of the alcohol

"Here drink it fast they're coming" he said coming back from the kitchen "wow that was fast" I said surprised.

"Hey losers you guys are next" said Lauren giggling with Tyler, jess and mike I could tell they were high already.

"Let's go babe" Devin told me pulling me towards the stairs.

I close the door in my room behind me I locked it in case any idiot decided to come up

"so are they ready" I said turning around to ask Devin

"Sorry baby yea they are how many lines you want to do?" he asked me while still looking down preparing the white powder in straight lines

"4 give me 4 just for now" I told him as I reached for the bill that was rolled, I have been drinking and smoking pot a lot but lately my new addiction has been cocaine.

After we finished I decided to head down but before I could reach the door Devin pulled me by my wrist, he pushed me against the wall and he attached his lips to my neck

"mmm Bella baby I want you so bad right now you have no idea how good you look and so faceable too " he said kissing my neck then my collarbone

"I want you too but you know they are waiting for us downstairs" I panted out he kissed me with his soft lips he licked my lips our tongues dancing with each other he picked me up I put my legs around his waist his bulge pushing against my core rubbing me the way I wanted

"ugh, Devin don't stop baby" I moaned out, I felt the adrenaline of the drug and alcohol swirling around my system

"baby I need to be inside you please" he said I could only nod my head, the high was making me dizzy-he set me on my feet I helped him take his pants off I pulled his boxers down I brought his cock out of its confines he put the condom on as I lifted my skirt up and took my thong out he picked me up, I wrapped my legs around him, he pinned me against the wall he gave me one quick kiss then in one swift movement he plunged into me. He started thrusting to me fast and hard but not hard enough on how I wanted it.

"OH FUCK! HARDER" I screamed in pleasure he pushed harder and faster

"oh god Bella your pussy feel so fucking good and tight" he moaned out, I felt the coil in my stomach begin to tightened

"oh I'm almost there baby" I moaned

"come with me baby, Fuck you feel so good" he moaned out I felt the my climax so close but yet so far away, I kept on hearing him chanting 'fuck so good' with 3 more thrust he came, we stayed locked together for a bit, I was out of breath he set me on my feet after we catch our breaths, we started getting our self's ready to go down to the party the affect of the drugs in my system was making me giddy I felt like I was flying and everything was in 3D that's what I liked about drugs I felt like nothing could bring me down.

We made it downstairs and I saw my living room had turned into a dance floor full of drunk people, We made our way to our gang.

"Hey bitches this was some good shit" I said Tyler and Lauren were on a full blown out make-out session

"It's so good" said jess I was looking around having the sensation of someone watching me I didn't see anyone, pushing the feeling aside I asked jess and Lauren to dance with me making our way to the dance floor we pushed people aside so they could make room just as the song 'Beep' by The pussy cat dolls came on.

Jess was in front of me and Lauren was behind me we started dancing and grinding to each other we dance like a bunch of sluts but I didn't care, like so many things I did I never cared about the consequences anymore, Everyone that was dancing stopped just to look at us dance our guys were looking at us with lust.

The song finish and when I was done dancing I got the feeling I was being watched again I looked around to try and find the source of it but I couldn't find it frustrated I left the gang on the dance floor and made my way to the kitchen to make my self a drink I saw a bottle of Jose Cuervo I started drinking it out of the bottle I didn't mind looking for a glass to serve my self

I felt dizzy and buzzed…


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