Months run by and I'm living in a shadow
Feeling more everyday that goes by
I sit alone as I sing away thoughts in my mind
Fight the sun down a hilly road before me
The hazy shape of a lonesome girl
The rays give way stabbing holes of the heat in my eyes
"Why don't they butt out?"
"Disappear and never come back!"
Scratching off handprints that helped me
"But I'm lonely."
I was shakily yelling
Grabbing to the arm that was bleeding
"Shut up now!"
Turning away to walk ahead and
Crying tears of pain as I leave here
Was that the real me that I knew?
.
.
.
Lesson learned, I don't need to turn the page of
My life goes on, so I'll rot away here
A portal machine going back to my world would be nice
Months fly by but I'm dying, 'fraid of living
And running out of hopes of "maybe someday"
Though I'm scared that I may never see them again
Don't wonder why, wanna die, wanna die
Grabbing my hoodie, cursing me to hell as I lie there
Not a thing I can do might as well
Live it up while I'm still alive and I'm breathing
In this long-lasting dream maybe hear
The younger me that I was hiding after I was chained here
Back in the days where I had hid in the haze
And slowly running away and marking death in my brain
13 years, a girl no longer
To wait for me to fall from somewhere
Remembering the figures blurring in the
Tropics in a heart beat
Fight the worlds, I stand my ground
I smile from ear to ear, it resounds
"Why don't we play a game?"
Another round as the Joker go 'round
"Am I okay?" with an unworried kind of wail
Even people like them wouldn't ever get me
"I act so sad, but it's all just an act in the end"
The days a haze, and becoming apathetic
Keep up the pace I had yesterday 'cuz
I don't want their heat to ever leave like in my sleep
If I can't dream, them and me… that I'll see…and we will be so…
Rather hold the past than to let go
Never wake or I'll break from the crushing
Outside world that tries to repair me
"But you can't see the day break again without tomorrow."
As if I would care in slightest
Getting by all these torturous days that I'd kill so they'd go away
Yes, I'd rather be all alone!
13 years and kind no longer
She cried to god but can't get stronger
Reaching out both her hands to try to
Smile a pretty smile she can't make
Fighting lives in such a big town
"Oh god why can't you free me somehow?!"
Suddenly every time I tried to breathe was stopping now
No can't go back
(Those cherished day)
It hurts so bad
(Don't ever touch)
Or they might break
[The girl singing the song lies down on an odd surface, lying side by side with a crystalline god. Both have their eyes open. The girl a webcracked brown and the god a kaleidoscope. They seem to be talking.]
Voices calling out "Can you hear me?" disappearing
Somehow now clear, aah so that's the reason
Memorable night dreams and I reach out a hand through the haze
[The black haired girl sits and watches the extended hand of the all giving god. They share a similar feature, a mass of red tendrils attached to their backs. The time goes by. And the black haired girl stands and walks to the god, ignoring the hand and instead gives him a hug. Surprising him and widening his eyes. The god hugs back and suddenly. They're inside a home filled with a family of five, missing a single member.]
Cries to girl, a god, no stronger
And in that time she stood, no falter
A stunning smile he won't remember
No, it stays the same forever
"Guess I'm leaving. I'm so sorry"
Goodbye's too sad and way too lonely
"Oh gods, no, don't you say that you're leaving"
"Oh no don't leave me!"
I finally know those hazy figures
Were just looking for this "me"
[The god cries in sadness, but the girl takes of her prized jacket and places it on the god's shoulders. He looks up and sees, for the first time, a genuine smile from the girl. Which makes her beauty increase a thousand folds. She whispers words into his ear and gives him one final hug, before running into the eager arms of her family. The god nods and accepts that his only friend is leaving, so when she looks back, he smiles. Making her smile even more. The family and the home disappear into a bright light and the god is left alone. Surrounded by people in costumes and being questioned in the girl's whereabouts. But he says nothing and smiles instead. A velvet blue and a deathly purple butterfly dance in tandem.]
