AN- Finally diving into the Hunger Games fandom. I love Cinna. Always came off to me as seriously insane, but genius. I tried to portray the insanity here. And if the no caps bothers you, I thought that it suited the story better.
disclaimer: I do not own.
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madman. (that is what he is called, so that he is.)
lighting things on fire is not something someone with Sanity would ever do in their lives, unless that is their job. it is no one's job, except maybe his. but he does not have Sanity, does he? he is a madman.
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he was raised in a place full of madmen, killing off the innocent. he did not want to be a madman like them. (but the only one who can stop a madman is a madman himself.)
of course, his name is from a word, from a language still unknown, for color. colors (bright ones) are told in fairytales to cause madness. to be evil.
he is not evil. evil is a very strange word, to him. it does not make sense. everyone is good and evil. he is good and evil. everything is good and evil.
fire is good and evil. he is fire.
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his insanity, apparently, started when he was a child. people called him strange. he would not talk to other children. he would not follow traditions. (instead of madman, he preferred rebel.)
he was often in small spaces. claustrophobia always set in, but he didn't care. small spaces made him feel less like fire, and everyone told him the being like fire was bad.
it was the claustrophobia that turned him truly mad, he later thought.
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he goes to work for the games because he sees no other interesting options. (aside from astronomy, maybe. but that is so far away. he does not want to be so far away.)
he chooses district twelve because all of the bad madmen hate it there. (he is not a bad madman. he is a good madman. so he tells himself.)
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katniss everdeen. eyes the color of coal. (and coal is where fire comes from. that explains the intensity in her eyes. sparks, begging to catch.)
his mind does not wander when he sees her for the first time.
down to business then.
(let's change everything.)
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katniss&peeta are on fire. he wonders what real fire would feel like. he wonders if this will help with anything, to stop all the bad madmen.
he wonders what it feels like to be consumed by fire. it would kill him, yes. but it would be wonderful.
victory was bittersweet, in actuality. it meant that he had a permanent binding contract to katniss, and he can't stay obligated to something for long. he thinks maybe five years and he'll be bored of it.
the tour is mundane. helping katniss is mundane- although he does like the girl. she is kind (to him) and beautiful- but not as beautiful as fire.
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he hurts everywhere; he is losing everything at once.
"you always wanted to burn, didn't you cinna?" a voice hisses.
cinna does not speak. he knows what comes next.
it hurts, fire. not like he expected.
madman. (that is what he is called, so that he is.)
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AN2- Did you enjoy it? I really hope it wasn't absolutely terrible. Reviews and favorites are fantastic.
~Bee
