DISCLAIMER: All characters used in this fic are the sole property of the
creators of CCS (the group CLAMP) and their publisher. No copyright
infringement was intended by the writer. No money was earned by the poor
writer from this.
Touya's Letter
Yuki,
How long have I known you? It seems to me like it was just yesterday
we met you.I was hurrying on my way to school with Sakura. We literally bumped
into you. Both Sakura and I apologized and you just said it was fine. You
introduced yourself with a sweet smile on your face, saying your name was
Yukito. A snow rabbit, beautiful and elusive. It suits you with your golden
eyes and shimmering silver hair and your ability to be friendly and at the same
time shy. You had mesmerized me. You captivated my heart and soul at that
instant. I tried to cover up the effect you had on me by being grumpy. Still
you weren't put off and wanted to be my friend.
You and I became best friends. I told you all about myself : my dreams,
fears, desires...all the thing that matter most to me. A thing I had never done
with anyone not even with Kaho-san. I gave you all the keys to my soul without
you knowing it. You could destroy me a single word or action. You had broken
down all my defenses. You had rendered me helpless.
Do you still remember that time in summer camp when we had to learn all
that survival in the forest crap? I had wanted to strangle our teacher then for
putting you in danger. Why, I asked myself, would he send a delicate person like
you into the middle of nowhere all alone just to get the stupid firewood! Sure
nothing really bad happened but you still got hurt. You had bruises and cuts as
result of it. Right then and then I was fuming mad and could've done what I
thought to do but you stopped me. You told me that you weren't the only one
who went on an errand like it. That it was part of everything. That the archery
training you had was almost the same in hardship. Still it was a pleasure when
our 'beloved' teacher twisted his ankle and got replaced for the rest of the
summer. In that time we were together at summer camp I realized how much I
really care for you. I couldn't tell you. I was afraid that I might lose
you...that I might lose even our friendship.
But now... Damn the consequences. Daisuki da,Yuki.
I wish to protect you. To shelter you from the deceit and cruelties of
this world the way I try to do with Sakura... but it seems I have failed. You
were hurt and saddened. I was too blind that time.
You said you were going somewhere. To a friend you haven? seen for a
long time. It was necessary. I asked you how long will you be gone and you
answered "I don't know." I said, "It's alright. I understand." You answered
you were glad. After then you and I walked in a companionable silence. Both
our sadnesses were there for all to see. After that talk, the next day you
weren't there anymore. I searched for you. Most of those I asked said they
didn't know where you were. I was stupid I forgot to ask you your
destination. Baka. Baka. Baka. I counted the days until you returned. It was
just three days. To me it was like an eternity.
I was really glad you had returned. But it seems you haven't at all.
You're different. Far from the Yukito I've come to know and like a lot. It
seems that nothing good came out of that trip.
It had been days since you've returned but you keep on avoiding me for
no reason at all. You're not at our usual place during our breaks and you
haven't been accompanying me on my way to school and back home. I go to your
place but you are not there. I try to talk to you during classes but you say so
little. What is wrong? You are so unhappy.
Yukito, why are you sad? You keep on denying it but I can see it in your
eyes. They mirror what is within you. In them I can see the purity of your
heart. Your thoughts and emotions. In all the time we had been together, the
only thing I saw reflected in there was happiness. But now pain and sadness
glimmer in their depths. What is wrong, I keep asking myself. Why will you not
tell me. I care so much about you. It hurts to see you like this. Your usual
happy self is gone.
In those times you were not around, what had happened? What had made you
like this? I can't bear to see you like this. I must know. Had I hurt you
unintentionally? If so, please tell me. I can't go on not knowing what pains
you. Did someone you love leave you? Please tell me. I have bared my soul to you
so many times, why can't you do the same? I want to help you the way you helped
me so many times since we've known each other. Please don't shut me off from
your life. Not like this.
Why must this happen now, when everything has turned out so wonderfully
for me. I'd love to share with you everything that had transpired while you
were away: how Sakura helped my father and grandfather reconcile, on how happy
Sakura was with Li Shaoran among other things. Yukito...Sakura misses you...I do
miss you, too. A lot. Not only your mere physical presence but the inner you.
You have been with us, yes, that is true, but only physically. But in spirit and
hear you are lost to us.
The person I met who was full of life's little pleasures and joy...the
person with a ready smile and bright countenace whose mere presence was enough
to brighten one's day...he is gone.
I'd pay any price to see that person return.
Always,
Touya
***Owari***
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Gomenasai minna if it sorta went out of the continuity. I
can't seem to keep track of the TV eps shown here in our place so I don't
know now what's been going on in CCS. It is also hard to get a copy of the
manga. Touya is somewhat in a mush mood in this one. Sorry ^^:: I think I
might do a sequel, it seems to be required. Unless my usual laziness takes
over again. This fic is for Tin Mandigma who had pestered me to write a fic
for a long time now.
creators of CCS (the group CLAMP) and their publisher. No copyright
infringement was intended by the writer. No money was earned by the poor
writer from this.
Touya's Letter
Yuki,
How long have I known you? It seems to me like it was just yesterday
we met you.I was hurrying on my way to school with Sakura. We literally bumped
into you. Both Sakura and I apologized and you just said it was fine. You
introduced yourself with a sweet smile on your face, saying your name was
Yukito. A snow rabbit, beautiful and elusive. It suits you with your golden
eyes and shimmering silver hair and your ability to be friendly and at the same
time shy. You had mesmerized me. You captivated my heart and soul at that
instant. I tried to cover up the effect you had on me by being grumpy. Still
you weren't put off and wanted to be my friend.
You and I became best friends. I told you all about myself : my dreams,
fears, desires...all the thing that matter most to me. A thing I had never done
with anyone not even with Kaho-san. I gave you all the keys to my soul without
you knowing it. You could destroy me a single word or action. You had broken
down all my defenses. You had rendered me helpless.
Do you still remember that time in summer camp when we had to learn all
that survival in the forest crap? I had wanted to strangle our teacher then for
putting you in danger. Why, I asked myself, would he send a delicate person like
you into the middle of nowhere all alone just to get the stupid firewood! Sure
nothing really bad happened but you still got hurt. You had bruises and cuts as
result of it. Right then and then I was fuming mad and could've done what I
thought to do but you stopped me. You told me that you weren't the only one
who went on an errand like it. That it was part of everything. That the archery
training you had was almost the same in hardship. Still it was a pleasure when
our 'beloved' teacher twisted his ankle and got replaced for the rest of the
summer. In that time we were together at summer camp I realized how much I
really care for you. I couldn't tell you. I was afraid that I might lose
you...that I might lose even our friendship.
But now... Damn the consequences. Daisuki da,Yuki.
I wish to protect you. To shelter you from the deceit and cruelties of
this world the way I try to do with Sakura... but it seems I have failed. You
were hurt and saddened. I was too blind that time.
You said you were going somewhere. To a friend you haven? seen for a
long time. It was necessary. I asked you how long will you be gone and you
answered "I don't know." I said, "It's alright. I understand." You answered
you were glad. After then you and I walked in a companionable silence. Both
our sadnesses were there for all to see. After that talk, the next day you
weren't there anymore. I searched for you. Most of those I asked said they
didn't know where you were. I was stupid I forgot to ask you your
destination. Baka. Baka. Baka. I counted the days until you returned. It was
just three days. To me it was like an eternity.
I was really glad you had returned. But it seems you haven't at all.
You're different. Far from the Yukito I've come to know and like a lot. It
seems that nothing good came out of that trip.
It had been days since you've returned but you keep on avoiding me for
no reason at all. You're not at our usual place during our breaks and you
haven't been accompanying me on my way to school and back home. I go to your
place but you are not there. I try to talk to you during classes but you say so
little. What is wrong? You are so unhappy.
Yukito, why are you sad? You keep on denying it but I can see it in your
eyes. They mirror what is within you. In them I can see the purity of your
heart. Your thoughts and emotions. In all the time we had been together, the
only thing I saw reflected in there was happiness. But now pain and sadness
glimmer in their depths. What is wrong, I keep asking myself. Why will you not
tell me. I care so much about you. It hurts to see you like this. Your usual
happy self is gone.
In those times you were not around, what had happened? What had made you
like this? I can't bear to see you like this. I must know. Had I hurt you
unintentionally? If so, please tell me. I can't go on not knowing what pains
you. Did someone you love leave you? Please tell me. I have bared my soul to you
so many times, why can't you do the same? I want to help you the way you helped
me so many times since we've known each other. Please don't shut me off from
your life. Not like this.
Why must this happen now, when everything has turned out so wonderfully
for me. I'd love to share with you everything that had transpired while you
were away: how Sakura helped my father and grandfather reconcile, on how happy
Sakura was with Li Shaoran among other things. Yukito...Sakura misses you...I do
miss you, too. A lot. Not only your mere physical presence but the inner you.
You have been with us, yes, that is true, but only physically. But in spirit and
hear you are lost to us.
The person I met who was full of life's little pleasures and joy...the
person with a ready smile and bright countenace whose mere presence was enough
to brighten one's day...he is gone.
I'd pay any price to see that person return.
Always,
Touya
***Owari***
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Gomenasai minna if it sorta went out of the continuity. I
can't seem to keep track of the TV eps shown here in our place so I don't
know now what's been going on in CCS. It is also hard to get a copy of the
manga. Touya is somewhat in a mush mood in this one. Sorry ^^:: I think I
might do a sequel, it seems to be required. Unless my usual laziness takes
over again. This fic is for Tin Mandigma who had pestered me to write a fic
for a long time now.