Disclaimer: I own a FMA t-shirt, a DVD, the profile book, a poster, a teacup, and Mustang's gloves. That is all. Oh, and Roy Mustang owns my heart…does that mean anything?
Title: Rewrite
Author: Hitomi Ai AKA The Fullmetal Panda
Contents: I see a lemon in your future...Nyah hah hah. If you do not like the Roy/Ed pairing, you can leave now. Click that handy-dandy 'Back' button up there. Yeah. You know what I'm talking about.
I hope that everyone will make some time to review. Even if it's just to tell me that my story is horribly written and I should go crawl under a rock and die. (But don't you think that would be a bit harsh?) Any who, here's my story, I hope you enjoy it!
Chapter 1-Loneliness.
The asphalt sunk pitifully underneath Edward Elric's black boots as he trudged along. Focusing on his goal was a bit hard at the moment; He was tired, hungry, and it was hot outside. Ridiculously hot. One of those days when you just look up at the sky and shake your fist angrily. Ed had done that a couple of times already, and it didn't help him any more, so he quit. Sighing heavily, he put his arms behind his head and stretched. It would still be a while before he got to the next town--and the next train station. It didn't help the situation that he was traveling alone. Al was back in Resembool with Pinako and Winry. As much as the younger bother wanted to come back to central, Ed wouldn't allow him to. Ed knew…that Al was going to learn the truth when everyone else did.
Four years ago, when Roy made that promise…Ed knew things wouldn't ever be the same…
"Edward…I am your reason to come back…I'll be waiting in Central with open arms, okay?"
Roy even sealed that promise with a kiss. Even now, when Ed thought about that part, his cheeks turned crimson. What would it be like to see Roy after four years? It's been such a long time…I wonder…He'll be happy when he sees me, right? Another sigh. Not wanting to get his hopes up, he tried to focus on where he was going, but he didn't have to. He was near central!
Ed could see the many small houses and large white buildings in the distance. He smiled happily, his heart racing inside his chest. I get to see Roy…I get to see him! Ed ran the rest of the way, not caring that his clothes were sticking to his skin with sweat. He was going to see Roy…his Roy.
Arriving in the big city was like a dream. It was bigger than Ed remembered it, and he headed straight for HQ. Roy should be there, right? His heart was screaming to see the Flame again. More than anything, Ed wanted to throw himself into Roy's strong arms, feeling the man's warmth against his face. Nothing could compare.
He reached HQ, and the large doors greeted him. He grinned and wiped a thin film of sweat off his forehead. Placing his hand on the handle, he pulled slightly, opening the door.
Memories flooded him, so much that he almost forgot where he was. Central HQ was as busy and noisy as ever. He strained to try and recognize someone, and the only person that he saw was…Sciezka! He ran to her, and tapped her on the shoulder.
"Huh?" The girl turned around, and jumped a little when she saw the blonde. "Edward!" She jumped once, and Ed noticed just how big…her…boobs were. Perv… He thought to himself. Just to make matters worse, she hugged him and squished herself against him. He forced himself to remain calm.
"Hey Sciezka." Ed smiled, and brushed his bangs out of his face. He was still sweaty from the walk.
"Edward, what are you doing here?" She asked happily, clapping her hands together.
"I'm here to see Roy." The blush that creeped through Ed's cheeks was a hint as to why he was here. Sciezka frowned.
"Well, last time I heard, he's staying at home now…"
"Great, I'll see you--"
"Ed, wait!" Sciezka's frail arm held him completely still.
"What…?"
"Ed…It's not like I don't know why you want to go there…I just need to tell you…" She pulled him aside.
"Sciezka?" Ed turned and looked at his friend's face, a little frightened.
"After you left, four years ago…Roy was never the same. He was sullen, tired, depressed at best. It started affecting Riza, and there was a day when…when she asked him what was wrong. It must have been the fourth or fifth time that day--she really cared for him, you know."
"Cared?" Ed gulped.
"Just listen please. Roy got mad, and--he told her the truth. He told her that he loved you, with all his heart, and nothing could ever replace that. He said, he'd forever be unhappy unless you were there. I guess, what happened after that…"
"What h-happened?" Ed's voice was meek now, and he wasn't sure he wanted to know.
"Riza was…heartbroken. It didn't take a genius to figure out that she loved Roy, probably not as much as you do, but she cared for him deeply. She left…as soon as she told me."
"Left? What does that mean?" The blonde squeaked.
"She's gone, Ed. We don't know where she went. She's been missing since that day, and Roy's been alone ever since--" Before she could say any more, the boy had run out the door, tears filling his eyes.
Roy…oh god Roy, I'm so sorry. Hundreds of thoughts rushed through Edward Elric's mind. Overwhelming guilt hit him, realizing that it was his fault that Riza was gone…and he felt awful. Roy must've been so lonely these past years…I'm sorry Roy…I really am…
Almost magically, he arrived at the colonel's house. He wasn't sure what to do. Would Roy still be happy to see him? After four years of loneliness that was primarily Ed's fault? Ed didn't think so, but he had to take a chance.
"Here goes nothing." He gently knocked on the door, and held his breath. To his relief, nobody answered. No wait, that isn't right. He wanted someone to open the door. Dammit. He thought. I'm going crazy. Another knock. No answer. He gently turned the handle, and to his surprise, it was unlocked. Something is definitely wrong…Roy never leaves his doors unlocked. He opened it gently and inhaled deeply.
The familiar scent of Roy's house filled his nose, along with a few unfamiliar scents. Alcohol, most definitely, and something else. Something that smelled like cigarette smoke. What's happened to Roy since I've been gone? The house wasn't as tidy as it normally was; Pictures hung crooked on the wall, and the floor looked like it hadn't been vacuumed in a while. Also, the whole house was very dark--every blind was pulled down or shut, blocking out light with the exception of the few beams that managed to get through the blind's cracks.
"Roy?" Ed called softly, his vice squeaking a little. He had to admit, he was a little nervous to see Roy again. But on the other hand, he needed to talk to him. He needed to see him again. Every muscle in his body ached for Roy, every single nerve tingling. He longed to see the man again, to be held by him, to kiss him…Although…Ed felt terribly guilty about the last part.
"Roy?" This time his voice was a little stronger, and a little louder. Still no answer. Ed walked slowly into the living room and kitchen, and saw nothing. Just the same couch, and a messy kitchen. Turning around, he stared at the floor. There were empty tissue boxes next to his feet, and when he looked up, he jumped back in shock. There was Roy.
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Chapter 2- Melancholy
"You came back." Roy's arms instantly swept up Ed, and held him close. Never before had Ed's heart beat any faster. He managed to move his arms so that he could hug the older man, feeling his heart beat through his chest. "You came back, Edward…you came back…" Roy's voice shook, and Ed looked up at him.
The flame wasn't very different in appearance since the last time Ed had seen him. His hair was slightly messy; it matched the house, and his eyes had a tired look to them. Besides that though, it was still Roy. The Roy Ed remembered, and the Roy he loved. It wasn't until Ed realized that Roy was crying that he snapped out of his phase.
"Roy, I'm here…I'm back like I promised." Ed wrapped his arms around the man's neck, and looked him in the eyes. Strong arms laced themselves around the thin blonde, bringing Ed closer to him.
"I wasn't sure…whether you would ever come back…I thought…you'd be gone forever, like Riza…" Roy choked out a sob.
"Roy…" Ed was beginning to lose his composure. The tough guy act wouldn't work on a closet homosexual. It worked for Roy, the resident horn dog, but it wouldn't work for Ed.
"Edward…I missed you so much." Roy leaned down, and kissed Ed atop the head. Not necessarily what the boy wanted after four years, but it was something. Roy's tears had stopped, and that made Ed feel better.
"Roy, I'm not going to leave you…ever again." Ed gathered up all his courage, and his past memories of his one sole kiss, with whom happened to be the same person he was going to kiss right now. He suddenly remembered everything. The taste of the colonel's mouth, the feel of their warm skin together--everything. Why the hell am I fantasizing when he's right here? Ed brought his mouth to the older man's and kissed him hard, maybe a little too hard. It was all he could do though. Roy guided him the rest of the way, deeper into the kiss. It was the kiss both men had waited four long years for.
"Edward…" The second syllable of Ed's name sounded more like a moan than anything else. Roy gripped the boy tightly in his arms. "I…I missed you…" He pulled away from the boy and looked him deeply in the eyes. Ed looked back in shock, and saw tears again. Before the blonde could say anything to comfort the raven-haired man, Roy pulled Ed over to the couch, falling gracefully. Ed was now lying atop the colonel's heaving chest, both surprised and oddly comfortable. Roy's arms were again quick to wrap themselves around Ed, and fingers tenderly stroked Ed's golden locks, long fallen from his braid.
"Roy, what's happened?" Ed asked, staring blankly at the wall across from him.
"What?" Roy asked after a few seconds.
"To you? What's happened? You fell apart."
Another long pause. Then Mustang cleared his throat.
"When you left…I thought I could handle it. I had told you my feelings, and you returned them. I thought that would be enough for me. But that was hardly the case…" He sighed. "I don't know what happened to me, Ed, I just…completely lost it. You were gone, and I felt so empty. There was this void in my heart, and I just--" The colonel's words were cut off when Ed turned over and kissed him softly, gently running his tongue over the older man's bottom lip.
"It's okay, I'm here now."
That night, when the two were curled up together (fully clothed, mind you), Edward dreamed of that day…the day that changed everything.
"Yes…thank you." A worried Edward Elric hung up the phone, hurrying to grab his coat and suitcase as he ran towards the door. A voice stopped him.
"Ed!" He turned, and saw Roy running towards him. A heavy gloved hand rested atop the blonde's shoulder.
"Is everything alright?"
"No…Winry is really sick…I need to get back to Resembool as soon as possible. I'll have to stay for a while. I need to take care of Winry. She saved my life, after all. I want to help save hers." "But Ed…" Roy felt a lump form deep within his throat, and he cleared it accordingly.
"Roy, this might be the last time I see you for a while…or…forever. I returned my watch to the Fuhrer. This…This is probably goodbye." Ed didn't want to say goodbye, not now.
"Good bye? Ed, you can't mean it." Roy looked as if he was going to fall apart.
"What's the big deal anyway Roy?" Ed fought back tears. "The military will be fine without me, and you'll have more money in your pocket.'" Ed forced a smile, a smile they both knew was fake.
"Ed, please…I understand that you can't leave Winry, but--"
"No, Goodbye Roy!" Ed turned, the tears finally falling. He started to run down the long hallways that used to confuse him when he first came to Central. He ran faster and faster…but he wasn't fast enough. Roy's hand grabbed his wrist and pulled him back, so quickly that they both fell to the ground.
"God Roy, can't you just--" There it was. Roy's mouth against his own, kissing the blonde's tears away. Roy's gloved hand gently touched Ed's pale cheek, releasing the boy's lips. Ed automatically slapped his hand to his mouth, staring at the colonel in horror.
"Edward…if you're going to leave, promise you'll come back…" The man's shoulders shook pitifully, and Ed felt a strong tug at his heart.
"But Roy…I have no reason to come back here, you know that…" Ed started to stand up, but Roy pulled him down, embracing him tightly against his chest.
"Edward…I am your reason to come back…I'll be waiting in Central with open arms, okay?"
"But--"
"I don't care how long it takes…you decide." Roy finally smiled, leaning in and touching his forehead to Ed's. "I'll be here…I promise. Now you go. You have a train to catch, remember?" He kissed Ed softly, surprising the boy.
"I…" Ed smiled, staring adoringly at the man in front of him. "Thank you Roy."
"Ed, you okay?" Roy nudged the boy, and he sleepily opened his eyes.
"Roy…" Ed wrapped his arms around the older man, feeling warmth in his embrace.
"Were you having a bad dream?" Roy brushed some stray hair from Ed's tired eyes.
"I just dreamt about the day…I left." Ed sniffed, and realized that his eyes were wet; He had been crying.
"Ed…don't worry, I'm right here."
"I know…I'm okay." Ed curved his back so that he was covered snugly by the older man's body. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply, smelling clean linen and hints of Roy's cologne. It was a good smell--a smell that brought back good memories.
"Goodnight Roy." Ed slowly lulled back to sleep.
The rest of the night was peaceful, and the two slept wrapped in each other's arms, and when Ed awoke, he heard the Colonel's soft breathing in his ear. It tickled a bit, so Ed moved over. He turned and kissed Roy softly before untangling himself and standing up to stretch.
"Morning Beautiful." Ed turned to see Roy propped up on one arm. Ed's face turned crimson, and he chucked the nearest pillow at the man's face.
"Jeez, it was just a compliment." Roy laughed.
"Yeah well." Ed huffed, crossing his arms. "I am a guy, you know."
"True…but…" The blonde flinched when he heard the bed creak, then felt the Flame's arms around his waist. "You are definitely the women in this relationship." Roy sustained laughter as Ed's cheeks burned.
"Roy!" Ed squeaked. "That's not funny!" Ed pushed him down onto the bed, pinning his shoulders down. "I'll show you who's the woman." Ed growled, attaching his mouth to Roy's. He was still a clumsy kisser, but he tried. Roy answered by reaching up to wrap his arms around the blonde. Tongues mashed and fought with each other, and soon, Roy had Ed pinned to the bed.
"So who's the woman now?" Roy smirked.
Ed gulped. "That's not fair! You're bigger than I am!" He blushed and rolled out from underneath Roy's arms. "That's not fair." He repeated.
"I'm sorry." Roy smiled sheepishly as Ed stood and began to dress himself.
"Let's go get something to eat. I'm starved." Ed said quickly.
"Um, okay." Roy grinned. It was nice to be happy for once.
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Hello there!
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Until next time…
Hitomi
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