Pairing: Tora x Ushii

Genre: Angst, Romance, Tragedy

Theme: Inner Sadness (JT Amino challenge)

A/N: Recommended song to hear while listening to this "What hurts the most",(major influence for this fic) the song itself is beautiful but I would recommend Rascal Flatts version

-Short fic but my babies suffered enough.

Since very young, Tora loved to dream. Dreams were the only place where she could forget about her sadness, where her life could be thought of as a normal one and not as a warrior like she had been made to be.

Her life went in the wrong direction before she realized it but she was not surprised, after all, she was nothing but a burden, a beast like her own father had called.

Beasts didn't dream so she stopped the only thing that kept her sane, ending up giving up to despair and losing herself more and more, day by day, without any possible control.

She only started dreaming again when she met him. It could have been out of pure luck but Tora didn't believe in luck. Fate? Perhaps. It should be fate, the reason why she finally had a goal in her life, something SHE wanted, but it was also fate that decided that her feelings were an extra that she wasn't allowed to have.

When she first watched him go, she felt hurt. Not the same hurt that had caused her breakdown but there was something in the warrior that calmed her, something that even made her plea for him to not walk away.

But, from then on, she admitted that she loved to dream once again. At least in dreams, it was possible to have something with him. So, how bad could it be to live in an illusion?

She couldn't understand why she still allowed herself to develop any sort of feelings towards the other warrior, even how she could allow someone like herself to think she was worthy of something, but she couldn't stop loving him, even if she denied doing such.

She hated herself for still be hoping that something would happen. It wouldn't. She knew that. Yet, she couldn't bring herself to believe in the reality so she kept living with her own deluded mind.

She practiced all the things she wanted to say to him as if she was afraid that in the next time they met, she would forget all the words she needed to express. She had so much to say... But when the time had arrived, she could only watch him walk away, waking her from her dreams and illusions.

The worst thing about being able to see him again was realizing she would never have him, even if she had decided to give her life to him. And she had done it without any second thoughts. She gave her own, stupid life for the one that had saved so many, hers included, in exchange.

She closed her eyes, not having any more strength to open them again. She didn't want to. She didn't want to see the face of that brooding warrior anymore. Yet... Why was he there again?

She could see him clearly, even knowing it was all up in her mind, his back was turned to her and he started walking away. She wanted to reach out to him, shout at him, confess everything she ever wanted to say, to thank him, yet... She couldn't move. She could only watch him walk away.

" Please don't walk away..."

"Please..."

She felt tears threatening to fall from her eyes, even knowing they were things only happening in her head, no matter how much she tried to keep her inner sadness just to herself, not even thinking of her last words before her departure.

"I love you"