This is kind of a sequel to 'It Was All A Lie '.
If you haven't read that first, I'd go read it now. Otherwise, this won't make much sense.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

I stared out the window; letting the notes, lyrics, and beats that filled my brain
consume me. My face had no hint of any kind of expression as I hugged my knees
to my chest and watched the starry night.

This song was the last I wanted to listen to at the moment, but I was too tired to get
up and change it.

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I suddenly felt very cold, but I quickly remembered it was just the usual loneliness
that would creep up on me every now and again. So I shook my head, trying to
make my mind go blank.

It didn't work, though.

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

My eyes started to sting then, letting me know I was on the verge of tears, but I
fought against it. I tried to tell myself that I was stronger than that.

I knew I was lying to myself, but I had no other choice. I was in a numb state and I
wanted to keep it that way.

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

That's when my emerald hues glanced down at my hands, which I absentmindedly
opened, and I stared at the now empty spaces. Tears were beginning to well up in
my eyes and I knew the walls I worked so hard to build were crumbling.

I could feel the hollowness in my chest start to ache.

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

As my brain filled with memories of the two of us, I could almost feel his arms
around me again, making me feel as though he was right there with me.

The perfectly kept mask upon my face shattered. And I knew it was going to
happen, sooner or later, but I sort of wished I could have basked in that numbness
for a little while longer.

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

Finally surrendering, I let the salty tears spill over freely now.

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

I knew crying never solved anything, but it did make the weight on my shoulders
begin to lift. And that was exactly what I needed right now.

So I just sobbed, not caring about my dignity or pride any longer. After all, I have
feelings. I'm not some robot that can never feel.

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

I let out a sigh, then sniffled quietly, resting my head on my knees. The water still
gushed from my eyes, but I decided to finish crying more quietly.

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear

"Oh darling, I wish you were here." I murmured, shutting my eyes as the song drifted
to an end.